This has been the longest day. I woke up way too early and couldn’t go back to sleep. Makes for a long day when that happens. I attempted to take a nap twice and failed. Maybe I need to go back to Kindergarten and take nap class again!
Ops, I think I just dated myself as I don’t think they do naps in kindergarten any more. I didn’t go to kindergarten as they didn’t have it at the little rural school I went to. And no, it wasn’t a one-room school! I’m not that old!
This has been a quiet day at home. I did two loads of laundry and got them folded and put away so the day wasn’t a total loss. Other than that, I didn’t do much. I wrote a couple of the Pen Pals and was able to get one of them to re-engage with communication. It was good to hear from her as she hadn’t responded for a long time. Taught me not to give up on them.
A friend came over and we talked about a situation we are working together on. No easy answers to the situation but it is nice to have someone to share it with. The world feels a bit heavy to me tonight and it is nice to share that with someone that gets it.
Tomorrow I need to go to Emporia and pick up a prescription and check on getting some gluten free and diabetic cupcakes for the Detainees for the end of the week. I’m not sure if I have to order them in advance or not. I will pick up some groceries while I am in town.
I also need to make some calls and attempt to get copies of the CT scan and MRI that I had done sometime ago to the doctor I will be seeing next week. Not sure how I do that but will make some calls and figure it out. I may need to go to Topeka to get a copy of the MRI but am not sure.
Sitting with Love in Action and feeling like it is at a cross roads. Do we stay the course or do we attempt to go big? Not sure I have the bandwidth to go big, yet it is so frustrating to not be able to do more for the Detainees. I feel a push pull going on with positives and negatives for both ways. I also know that no matter how much we do we can’t do it all. Continue doing what we are doing or go big and add more knowing that we will run into our limits even then? The system is not set up for success and I can’t change policy at this low level I am working on. Accept my limitations and carry on?
Whatever path I am to take will let itself be known to me sooner or later. I think sitting with the possibilities is good and keeps me open to potential change. Maybe there is a compromise position that I can’t see right now.
This little project I started almost a year ago has already done more than I ever imagined. I don’t set goals or do a business plan. I rely on pixie dust and moon beams to lead the way! So far, it hasn’t led me astray.
Grateful laundry is done for another few days, grateful for a friend that is willing to get into the weeds with me, and grateful for what we have been able to do so far and the potential of doing more in the future.