I didn’t fall asleep until almost dawn this morning so slept in until 10:00. Nighttime is my least favorite time of the day. I hate nights when I lay awake all night and can’t sleep.
Got an email from my Kansas match guy this morning. He was able to close his financial deal with the investors yesterday but now has to fly to the UK this evening to get the final contracts signed and delivered. Our meeting for Saturday has to be postponed for at least two weeks. Uhm….. On-line dating is not for the faint of heart.
I’ll see what happens with all this. Who knows if he is who he says he is and if we will ever meet. He could be legit but he could also be a hoax. Something has been holding me back with him and now I know why. If it is meant to be it will happen – if not I move on.
In his email he also told me his mother has cancer and is not doing well. He will take this opportunity while in the UK to visit her. Wonder why he didn’t tell me that she was sick before? He had mentioned her several times but never told me she was ill.
I am a very trusting person but this whole on-line thing is causing me to be a bit cautious and withholding until they prove to me they have earned my trust – which hasn’t happened yet. I will keep an open mind and see if this one is a dead-end too like the one from CO. It was starting to feel like he was a bit too good to be true!
I am getting tired of window shopping for men though. I have had several that have liked me and I liked them but I haven’t initiated the beginning conversation and neither have they. I guess I am a bit old-fashioned and want the man to do that. I keep reminding myself I am perfectly content to living alone too. If I am meant to have a partner he will find me somehow, someway.
The guests that had scheduled for this weekend cancelled so now I have a completely guest-free weekend ahead of me and no plans other than going to see “Won’t you be my Neighbor” at the Granada Saturday evening. I haven’t had a weekend free of guests in several weeks. Need to think of something fun to do.
Kathy got her official acceptance letter from the project she will be working with in Kentucky today. She is to report either the 30th of September or the 1st of October. It sure will be a change with her gone. Glad I have guests during the week so I will have someone to talk to each day. I’ll have to get back into the habit of doing all the chores everyday too. I am ever so grateful she came to help me out and am excited that she is moving on to her own grand adventure. The time we shared was priceless and I will treasure it always.
I got one bathroom and one bedroom detailed cleaned last night and this morning. It is a start to getting the house back in order. Have lots more to do but not feeling the urge to clean today. It is another beautiful Kansas day and the doors and windows are open and fresh air and dust is blowing in. Love this time of year!
Lots of empty space available to me again this week. Feels a bit heavy to me today to settle into it. When I don’t sleep good I have more trouble settling into a good space. Need to move my body today and see if I can work through this heaviness. I don’t want it to settle in and get comfortable.
Grateful for my inner intuition that serves me well when I allow it to, grateful for getting two rooms detailed cleaned, and grateful for empty space and knowing how to make it more comfortable to settle into.