This has been a quiet day. I did go to Emporia to pick up a few groceries but other than that have been at home. Kathy is having a quiet day too. Sometimes one needs to tune out and tune inward.
I broke down and turned on the furnace this morning. Kathy said she was having trouble warming up. My body isn’t ready for this cooler weather. It felt nice to warm the house up.
Got another turnpike toll bill from our trip back east in May. Yikes! They are claiming I didn’t mail them a check for part of the tolls a month ago. I know I paid the bill but knowing our postal service these days I am not surprised they didn’t get it. We shall see if attempt number two goes through. I paid the extra $5 late fee although it irks me to do so.
Still haven’t heard from the doctor that billed Max for a procedure that he clearly did not do back in April. If I don’t hear from them by tomorrow I will file a fraud case with Medicare. Removing scar tissue from ovaries on a male is clearly either fraud or a billing error. I gave them fair warning to fix it.
I’m tired today. I had just fallen asleep last night when Sophia decided she wanted to go outside. I ignored her the first time she scratched on my bedroom door and she went away. I went back to sleep but 30 minutes later she was back again. I took her out to her pen and then I had trouble falling back asleep. Sometimes those dogs get on my nerves.
Had to stop reading the news this morning as I could feel it pulling me down. It amazes me how different the news of the same situation is depending on who your source is. Truth is very hard to discern which makes me believe that most of this is just distraction and noise. It isn’t worth my attention and energy. It reminded me to stay focus on building community and spreading love and tune out the rest. There is not a damn thing I can do about what is going on at the national level but I can spread love on a local level.
Feeling a bit isolated today. It is very difficult for me to people these days. It feels lonely sometimes when I am out and about and around people. I struggle to connect to others. Somehow it feels lonelier to be around others than it is to stay at home. Seems to take a lot of my energy and effort to be around others.
Grateful I can stay home the next couple of days, grateful for a working furnace that warmed up the house quickly this morning, and grateful I have the privilege of being able to tune out the outside world as needed.