I had trouble going to sleep last night. Finally got two hours of sleep between 2:30 and 4:30. Got back up and unpacked for two hours then went back to bed and got another two hours of sleep.
Found out yesterday early evening that Craig, the father of my kids and my ex-husband had died. He had been sick for several months, We all kept hoping he would get better but that wasn’t to be. The kids and grandkids had gone to see him Sunday, They and I are grateful for that.
It is hard to see the kids hurt and not be able to help much. Craig was a larger than life figure in their lives and will be missed by each of them. Service arrangements are pending.
Went to the old house this morning to meet Jason’s mover. Jason had some repair people coming to his new house and couldn’t be in two places at the same time. I made sure the movers had what they were to take and sent them to town with Jason’s belongings.
After those movers were done, I went to Emporia. I needed to add renter’s insurance and cancel the insurance on my other house. I also switched one of the rental houses to this company. Got that all taken care of.
Went to the Chiropractor for my weekly adjustment. He found lots of things to work on today for some reason! He told me to come back in early next week.
Stopped by Jason’s new house and took a tour. It will work perfect for him. It is good to see him getting settled into his own place. He has had a lot happening to him lately and getting moved into his own place is good for him.
Went to lunch and then came home. Kathy helped me arrange the living room. We tried a couple arrangements and found one I think we like. We put the heavy rug down which was chaos as there are still boxes and stuff everywhere it doesn’t belong. We would move it one place and then move it back. The living room is done though and the number of pieces in it have been minimized. I still have one extra piece in the living room that is going to its new home Friday.
Have a coffee table and end table that I can’t find a place for. I had three boxes of books that needed to go away. I also have a huge stack of empty boxes and wrapping paper that need to go away. Two friends came over and one took the three boxes of books and the other took the coffee table. I put the boxes on Chase County Cares and Shares Site and someone is picking those up later today. Only have the end table to get rid of. That was easy!
I didn’t make it to exercise today. I may try to do the video by myself later today but I may skip it. I am exhausted on several levels and it feels like it is too much. I will offer myself grace this week and then get back to my normal routine next week.
I still have the dining room and kitchen to finish up. I am down to about 10 boxes to unpack. I need to get them all unpacked so I know what I have and then I can make more decisions about what to put where. The racks in the back porch are working even better than I had hoped they would. I have turned the back porch into a pantry. I will need to reorganize them when I get everything I am putting out there on them. I may need to get some containers or baskets to help keep like things together. We shall see when I get it all unpacked and how much space I have.
My bedroom is box free. I still have lots of pictures to hang and a bookcase to reduce what I have on it but otherwise my bedroom is good to go. I also have to finish the bathroom and laundry room. I haven’t attempted to hook up the washer and dryer yet either.
I did get the yard mowed today. I need to do some push mowing but not sure I can find the push mower in the shed. I was afraid to look for it so the little bit left of the yard that needs mowed is going to wait. I will deal with that next week.
Tomorrow I have to go to the old house and finish cleaning it. I still have several loads to bring in from there. I need to find someone with a pickup as I forgot to have the movers move a file cabinet and I also have a load that needs to go to the dump. I sent a message to a kid I have used before. I hope he sees it and is able to help me out tomorrow after school. Not sure what I am going to do if he can’t do it.
I may need to go to Jason’s tomorrow morning to meet a repair guy. Jason needs to go to Wichita to help make funeral arrangements. Helping Jason out will take priority over cleaning. I still have Friday morning to clean if it comes down to that.
Closing is still set for 1:00 Friday. They asked me for banking information today so am rather confident that it is a go, What a relief it will be to see that money in my bank account.
Hoping by the end of the weekend that all rooms in the house will be box free and things will pretty much be where I want them. I may still have some organizing to do but am thinking that will happen a couple of times as I live in the house and realize ways to better situate things.
I am a bit discouraged that I am not further along but with the shock of hearing about Craig I need to offer myself some grace. The kids have rightly needed some of my energy and time last night and today and that has become my priority. The boxes can wait another day or two or three.
What a couple of days this has been. Craig’s passing added a layer of emotion to this week that I wasn’t expecting. It is beautiful to see my three kids pull together and help each other through this. This is a hard one and will take time for them to process it.
I am barely holding myself at the neutral level. I have felt myself slip into an observer role and have felt myself detaching from the emotion of it all. I will need to allow myself time to feel my emotions and will do that soon.
Grateful for the life and love of Craig, grateful for my kids and how they are handling this, and grateful this move is almost complete.