Another long day with two trips to town. Went in to Emporia this morning and dropped ten more boxes off at Salvation Army. Then went to the Senior Center and did my tax shift.
I was five minutes late getting to exercise at noon today due to a complicated tax case. My trainer was understanding and we got through my exercises. My heart rate was lower at the end of doing exercises than it was when I started. I was a bit stressed when I got to the gym.
Took Ellexia out to lunch when I finished up exercising. I hadn’t seen her for a long time and it was great getting some one-on-one time with her. She has grown up lately and we had a good conversation over lunch.
Came home and took a short nap in my chair. I was exhausted again this afternoon.
Took care of the chickens and then went back to town. Stopped at the Chiropractor for my weekly adjustment and then went to my evening tax shift. Had a hard shift tonight with a very complicated case. Came home with a heavy heart.
So far it looks like we have missed the severe weather that is north of us. Trusting it stays away from us. I have scaffolding on the east side of the house and I would hate for high winds to blow it over and into the house. I really would love to have this house hold together for seven more weeks.
I may go to bed early tonight. I am exhausted tonight. Not sure if it is because I was around people today or the hard case I had this evening or the lack of sleep last night. Maybe a combination of all three. I sure trust I can get some good sleep tonight and wake up feeling refreshed in the morning.
Tomorrow I am having lunch with a dear friend. Good timing of that as my heart needs a lift. Friday I go back to Emporia one more time this week for exercise in the afternoon. The EFIS guys are coming back this weekend to hopefully finish up this project and I think I get to stay home all weekend. I need to refill.
Next week I will only do taxes on Wednesday twice. Doing them four tines this week was too much. I don’t do well when I have to go to town twice a day on two different days a week. I need more down time than that allows. I will still have to go to town three times next week but that is much better than five or six like I have done last week and this week.
Feeling a bit out of sorts tonight. The inequality of the world hit me in the face tonight and I don’t understand why our system is so broken. I wish the politicians would have to face some of the people that bear the consequences of the actions they take. It is easy to not see the hidden members of society and the domino effect that happens when policy changes. It makes me very sad and angry. We have a record number of millionaires and billionaires and yet we don’t have the resources to provide a basic safety net for those less fortunate. I’m not sure how to process all this and what to do about it. I will do some Tonglen tonight and see if I can move some of this heavy energy out of my body.
It’s been a hard day. Felt good to come home and do some deep breathing and release some of the pent up frustration at a system too big for me to wrap my head around. I don’t have the power to change it but there has to be something I can do as an advocate and voice for those that have no voice. The question of the day for me is what to do now?
Grateful for the time with Ellexia today – it was a bright spot in a hard day, grateful for a short afternoon nap, and grateful that the storm has avoided us so far.