I took a nose dive into the muck pond this afternoon. I was sitting in my chair and realized tears were running down my face. I had spent some time catching up on the news as I hadn’t heard or read any news for over a week. A picture of the refugees in America that are being held in unsanitary cages captured my heart. How can this be happening in America? There was a story of a border guard who quit after being asked to tell two young brothers they couldn’t touch and console each other. Then I read about a judge that let a young rapist off the hook because the judge feels the young man has a bright future ahead of him and a rape charge would derail his life. Really? How much did it derail the young woman he raped or does that not matter? Then I saw an article about how the number of billionaires has rapidly increased and at the same time the number of those that have fallen into poverty has also rapidly increased.
I felt so overwhelmed at the injustice world I live in. How can this country of so many riches be so unbalanced in so many ways. My heart hurts from it all. I felt so helpless and such pain and sorrow. So many people are suffering needlessly due to the actions of a few elite morons.
Still not sure what I am going to do about any of this. I do know it doesn’t help to fall into the muck pond and stay there. That lowers my vibration and energy and adds to the fear and helplessness of the world. I went out and mowed the rest of my yard and bounced on my mower and let go of as much of the dark energy as I could release. That helped some. I also realized I am still very tired and need to recharge and reground myself and then decide what I can do to help. I know that when I get this tired things look different to me and it is hard to keep things in perspective. I managed to climb out of the muck pond but my heart still hurts.
I went into Emporia this morning and when I went to get out of my car at Bluestem realized I had forgotten my purse at home. Had to go back home and get my purse and go back to town. Loaded up on chicken feed, dog food, and cat food. I got lucky at Bluestem as when I was getting the flat cart a worker asked me if he could load something for me. 10 bags later the cart was full. He pushed the cart to the cashier and then unloaded it into my car. I only had to unload the feed when I got home. That was easy.
Stopped at Walmart and got groceries and a few things I need for the trip to CO. By the time I came out from shopping it was raining so had to unload my groceries into my car in the rain. It was a warm, cleansing rain though and felt good to be out in it.
My intern went home for the night and will be back Friday afternoon. I leave Friday morning so am trusting he will be back in time to do chores Friday evening. He forgot to charge the dog collars while I was in Maine. Next time I will text him and remind him to do so. I am lucky the dogs didn’t run away while I was gone. I don’t think he likes animals as I never see him petting them or paying attention to them.
The kids are coming out for dinner tomorrow night so got stuff to make hamburgers, potato salad, deviled eggs, and baked beans. Got ice cream bars for dessert. Going to keep it simple and easy.
Jim is coming tomorrow afternoon some time. He hopes to get away by noon but he usually runs late so don’t expect him until closer to five if then. I still have things I need to get done before I can leave Friday so I will have a busy day tomorrow getting that stuff done. I made a dent in my to do list today but still have a rather long list to work my way through. Maybe I will get some more of it done tonight yet.
I need to touch up the house a bit. I haven’t made it downstairs yet to see what needs to be done down there before I leave. I have two different sets of house sitters coming to stay over the weekends while I am gone. I will have to beg their forgiveness if the house is not up to my standards this time.
I’m glad I have the house to myself this evening. I may need to move and shout out some more dark energy that feels like it is boiling up and out of me. Not sure how I would explain that noise to my student intern!
Grateful I was able to climb out of the muck pond this afternoon, grateful for the media that lets us know of the injustice that is happening under our noses right here in America, and grateful Jim is coming tomorrow.