I am settled into a hotel right across the street from the hospital. We drove past the entrance I need to go to in the morning and it is only a short walk from the hotel. I won’t need to call a taxi in the morning to get to where I need to go.
I finished the three tax tests for AARP I needed to complete this morning. Had some password issues but was able to stick with it and get it done. I passed all three tests.
I have a policy acknowledgement form that I had to sign and then somehow forward it to my site leader. Not sure I did that correctly. Guess she can help me with that later if needed. I wished they would provide instructions for how to do these things.
Met a dear friend for lunch. Just what my soul needed today. We had a deep conversation which I always appreciate. It would be very hard to do life right now without friends that you can lay down your mask and be real with.
Kathy’s key fob for her car needed the battery changed. I looked up instructions and couldn’t figure out how to do it. Then I remembered to try to find a video that showed me how to do it. I found a really good video and was able to change the battery. I get ridiculously proud of myself when I do things like this. I needed a win today and that was mine for the day!
Jason picked me up around 4:00. Traffic was heavy but we didn’t hit any stop and glide spots. I appreciated him making the trip to bring me up here tonight. Hoping I will be able to find some sleep tonight.
My tummy had issues again today. It picked a good day for it as I was only to eat or rather drink clear liquids today. Anytime I drank something my tummy would act up. I haven’t been hungry so that was a plus today. Hoping it will settle down and not act up tomorrow. I won’t be able to get to the bathroom quickly after surgery. My tummy acted up Sunday too and was fine Monday and Tuesday. Not sure what it is trying to tell me.
I stopped by the Detention Center and dropped off a check to pay for the ice cream treats Love in Action is gifting the detainees on Valentine’s Day. The lady that took the check didn’t know anything about it. I forwarded the email I had received from the Center so she knew what was going on. She wasn’t overly friendly but I think we took care of business. I have to trust the treats will happen.
I have to be across the street and at admissions at 6:15 in the morning. I will leave the hotel at 6:00 which should give me time to find where I am going. They had told me the hospital would call me today to confirm the time I am to be there but I didn’t get a call. No news must mean everything is still on schedule.
Nicole is coming up in the morning to wait while I am in surgery and to spend the rest of the day with me. Michelle is coming up Friday to get me and take me home. What would I do without my kids?
Not feeling to anxious yet. They really didn’t tell me much about what to expect afterwards. That was probably a good thing. Hard to worry when you don’t know what to worry about.
A person I follow on Facebook posted a video today that confirms what I had been feeling about how to handle what is happening in the world these days. He recommends setting aside some time to allow yourself to feel your hard feelings about what is going on. We collectively had a lot of anger and grief about what is happening and we have to feel it to allow it to be released from our bodies. He recommends doing it regularly and releasing bits at a time. Doing this allows for your central nervous system to come back into regulation. Once you are regulated you can hear your intuition tell you what steps you can take using your own personal gifts. Staying steady allows you to become a resource for others that may be more personally impacted. We all have to find that balancing point between denial and anger and fear. The action we will each take will look differently person to person.
The other thing he recommended was setting limits on your consumption of media intake. You have to gift yourself grace and step aside at times. Do whatever it takes so you can stay steady.
Somedays it doesn’t feel like I am doing enough when I do this but I also know that burning myself out will not allow me to stay steady.
Grateful to be tucked into a quiet hotel for the night, grateful Jason drove me up tonight, and grateful for lunch with a friend today.