Can’t believe it is the middle of February already. Not sure how time passes so quickly when some days feel very long.
We are having a bit of winter tonight. Snow is in the forecast and it won’t be very warm tomorrow. It is to warm back up again Friday. Have to say we have had a mild winter this year.
I haven’t done much again today. I took a long nap this afternoon and have had trouble waking up from it this evening. I never did get out of my pajamas today. It was cold outside today and felt like a good day to have a PJ day.
My eating has been horrible the last week or so. I eat when I am not hungry and I am not eating on plan. This evening I feel icky. Maybe this feeling will motivate me to stick to plan tomorrow. Enough with the junk foods I have been eating. I had a weak moment at the grocery store last week and brought home some stuff that I normally don’t eat. Now I remember why I don’t eat it.
During a conversation with a friend today I pulled out the divorce papers to look something up. I found what I needed and finished the conversation with her. I then decided I needed to clean out that file as it was thick and full of papers that I no longer needed to keep. In the papers were a bunch of emails that Jim and I had exchanged with each other when we were having issues. I read a few of them and then decided I didn’t need to hold on to the energy the papers represented and threw them away.
As I was reading them, I felt detached from them in a new way. I immediately saw the pattern in them that I had failed to see at the time they were written. Each one was the same issue, different verse, same response, different verse. I keep asking myself why it took me so long to see the pattern at the time. That question will never have an answer! Grateful I finally saw the pattern and was able to get help identifying what was really going on.
Had a phone conversation with another friend this afternoon. It is a friend that I hadn’t spoken to for several years. I am really enjoying getting back in touch with friends and family members that I haven’t talked to for a long time. I do believe that some people come in to your life for a reason and many do not stay active in your life. Some were really important to me at some point and I cherish the memories of the times we had together.
Feeling a bit restless and lost this evening. My tummy is not happy with me and I am not happy with myself that I caused my tummy to be upset. Trusting I will feel better in the morning and will treat my tummy with more respect tomorrow.
I didn’t get any house cleaning done today. Maybe tomorrow I will feel up to it. I still have nine days before company comes so have plenty of time. I work best when I am on a deadline.
Riding the roller coaster of life. Up one day, down the next. I never quite know what the ride will be like from day to day. Grateful I am allowing myself to feel what ever comes up and sit with it for as long as I need to so I can hear what it needs to tell me. There is beauty in the depths of emotion that can be hard to find sometimes.
Grateful for a quiet day at home, grateful for friendships I have had over the years, and grateful this cold snap won’t last long.