I ended up driving to Council Grove around noon today. The article that I was interviewed for last week was in the Council Grove Republican paper today. I stopped and had lunch at Hay’s House and then went to the newspaper office to get the paper. It is a very small newspaper. Front and back of two pages! At least they still publish a paper in print.
Came home and took a chair nap. I have not been sleeping well again and needed to top off a bit today. Why do chair naps feel different than laying in the bed for a nap? Have never figured that one out!
A dear friend is going to call me this evening. I haven’t had a chance to talk to her for several years so it will be a treat to visit with her. Her timing is impeccable. A deep heart to heart conversation is just what I need tonight.
I had a person that had friended me several months ago. She found me through my work with Love in Action. Unfortunately, she is one that has trouble accepting the work I am doing with the Center and thinks I am sleeping with the enemy. We have gone back and forth several times and this time I finally decided to block her. I don’t need her anger and fear on my page. She had sent me an article last night more or less telling me that I can not trust the Captain of the Detention Center as they are all liars.
I understand her passion and her anger. However, when you stay in that state and dump on others without rational thought, I don’t think you accomplish what you are wanting to accomplish. I decided I was worthy of more respect than that and didn’t want to engage with her further.
This current political climate has many of us charged. I think it is our challenge to process those strong emotions and work through them. Only when we can be on the other side of them can we think logically and do meaningful next steps. Staying stuck in anger makes up become part of the problem.
I also think each of us has to choose their own path as to what our action steps will be. Some can handle the long-term focus and help change policy. Some of us need short-term results and choose other projects to focus on. Both sides of it are needed and both sides need to respect the choices others are making.
Tomorrow I will be in Emporia before 9:00 to do another tax session. I don’t think I have any errands to run afterwards. I might stop for lunch in town but otherwise I will come home. Friday I am going to watch Ellexia cheer at a basketball game at the high school that starts at 4:30. I might talk Ellexia into going out for dinner afterwards although she might stay for the next game.
No plans for the weekend. Am starting to feel a bit restless at home. I still can’t do much and I sit in my chair and see things I would like to take care of. Funny how dirt sits and waits for you! I want to send some people information about the singing and drumming for resistance event I am planning for March 28. Maybe I can get that taken care of this weekend.
Still waiting on PayPal to send the two small deposits to my bank so I can confirm they have the right bank account. Hoping after close of business today the amounts will show in my account so I can finally get the Charity Donation account finalized. Nicole helped me get past the picture thing that had me stopped for a bit. Not sure why I struggle with this type of thing. It seems like it should be simple but I usually don’t find that to be true.
I keep forgetting to mention my no spend game that I play with myself every year. Still rolling with it this year. I almost miss the delivery guy that used to bring my Amazon packages. I haven’t seen him for almost two months! I caught myself looking for something the other day and had to ask myself do you really need this? The answer was no and I stepped away. Wonder how long this will go on for this year?
It helps that part of my quiet resistance protest is to step away from supporting big businesses as much as possible. I still buy my groceries from Walmart but that is almost out of necessity in Emporia. We don’t have lots of choices and even with groceries I have cut way back as to what I am buying. When I eat out I try to eat at locally owned businesses and not support the big business companies.
My world feels small today. There is so much chaos and people hurting from wha is happening. My heart hurts and my impulse is to pull in and isolate. I have to find ways to keep myself regulated and not go out into the world below neutral. Blocking that lady will help me do that. I just can’t tolerate people that spread fear and hate right now.
Grateful for the block button and that I know how to use it, grateful for good friends that schedule calls with me, and grateful for chair naps that refresh my tired soul.