I got up and got the chili cooking. Went back to bed for an hour. Got up and made cinnamon rolls and cleaned up the kitchen.
Jason and his girlfriend were going to come over at 11:45 to eat and watch the KC Chiefs game.
Kathy left at 1:00 to go to our friend’s house to join a group of our dear friends. I stayed behind waiting for Jason to come. He text me around 2:00 and said his fever was back and he had slept all morning. He felt bad that he didn’t come over.
It was a quiet day home alone for me. I watched the game and then took the dogs on a long walk. It was a bit nippy out today but not too bad for the end of December.
Tomorrow will be another stay at home day for me. My third in a row. I still have some house work I would like to get done if the mood strikes.
I have extra cinnamon rolls so need to find a home for some of them. I took a couple of them to a friend that is home sick with the rest of her family. Friday I am going to Council Grove to meet a friend for lunch. I will take some to the friend I am meeting and will go to Emporia either before or after I go to Council Grove and will take some to Jason and Michelle along with Jason’s Christmas presents.
Somehow it felt right that I spent Christmas Day alone. I have worked hard this year to break my co-dependency and people pleasing tendencies. I could have gone to my friend’s house and jointed the fun I am sure they had today but I felt called to be alone. I am more at ease with spending time alone with myself now than I have ever been in my whole life.
For some reason I feel that 2025 will call me to spend even more time alone. I have the internal resources to see my way through whatever the world will throw at me in 2025. I haven’t always felt that way and it feels good to be in this place. I do cherish the time I spend with my dear friends and family and will continue to make that a priority in 2025. However, I need to balance that with an abundance of personal, quiet time. It will take lots of energy to keep myself above neutral with what is headed our way in 2025. I am grateful to be in a place to know what I need to do to stay balanced and above neutral.
Grateful for a quiet day at home alone, grateful I am in a good head space right now, and grateful Christmas is over for the year.