What a wonderful birthday I had yesterday. One of my long-term boarders sent me a bouquet of flowers. We had a delightful dinner last night and two of my Airbnb guests did the dishes for me. They are treating me very nicely! I couldn’t have picked better guests.
Next week a third long-term boarder will start staying. This one is a student at the Vo-Tech in Emporia. She lives in Overland Park. She is in a two-year program so she may be here for a bit. That will give me a full house Monday through Friday every week. Sure feels nice to fill the house up and make use of this space. It won’t feel so lonely when Kathy moves to KY.
I have left open Friday through Sunday nights on the Airbnb calendar but may go ahead and take those off. It is so much easier having long-term guests and not having to flip rooms so much. I’ll see how it goes and decide what I want to do. I may need my weekends free to get a break from having guests all the time. Good news is all three will be gone during the day so I will have plenty of empty space then. I enjoy their company in the evenings.
Am having conversations with four different men from Match.com. Three live fairly close and the other in CO. It is fun to get to know new people. Not sure where any of this is going but reminding myself to stay present to what is and not have any expectations of the future. If nothing else it is good practice for me. The one from CO called me this morning and we talked for about 30 minutes. Still in the small talk phase but touching on deeper subjects occasionally. So far we are like-minded people. He has to come to KC for a business project the end of September so the possibility of meeting him in person is there. We’ll see if we are still talking by then!
Feeling as restless as a cat on a hot tin roof today. Trying to think of some place to go or someone to go visit. Having trouble settling and being today. Knowing what I need to do is just sit with the restlessness and see what it has to tell me.
I was very aware yesterday of a shift that I have done internally again. Not sure how to name it or even describe it. The dinner last night was the easiest dinner I have ever fixed. I allowed my guests to do the dishes and it felt like a gift from them to me. I couldn’t before have accepted it as such. I feel more open to receive and am very aware of the flow of life in a new way. I felt so very blessed and loved yesterday from all the ways people recognized my birthday. Each expression and well-wisher touched my heart deeply.
Maybe I am experiencing a wider range with restlessness on one end and deep abiding happiness on the other? Something has shifted and I feel more wide open and more restless at the same time! I’m sure it will settle soon. This pattern feels familiar in a way. I am stepping out of my comfort level and opening myself up. That has to feel different – right?
Today and tomorrow is empty space for me. Absolutely nothing that has to be done other than daily house-keeping chores. Thinking it is time to do something for fun if I can think of something to do. Anyone want to go do something with me?
Had some leftovers from the dinner last night and I told my guests to help themselves. The fruit salad is already gone and most of the leftover meat loaf is gone. Glad it won’t go to waste. I forget how much healthy men eat! I’m sure I will have more leftovers for them to take care of after our dinner Saturday night.
I hadn’t gotten a bill from the garage door repair so I called to see if they had sent it and I hadn’t received it. He didn’t have the job in his computer so he could bill me. Darn, I should have not said anything – it might have been free! He had the last job he had done in the computer as an estimate and he hadn’t recorded it as being paid. He got that corrected as I had paid that bill from the estimate the guys had given me when they did the job. Hope he gets his record keeping cleaned up so he doesn’t lose any other jobs.
Grateful for breaking another range open, grateful for each and every friend and family member that reached out with a birthday greeting for me, and grateful for the infinite possibilities that lay ahead of me as I learn to open my heart to receive and give love out to the world.