Kathy and I left for the airport around 8:35 this morning. We had a smooth trip to and I had a smooth trip home. I stopped at Costco to get gas and then made a quick stop at Chipotle to have lunch. I trust Kathy will have a wonderful week with her family.
When I got home I took each dog for a walk one by one. Kathy had left her cat outside in the dog pen while we were gone. When I got back from walking Sophia the cat was in the carrier and ready to come in.
I did some watering outside this afternoon. I struggled to get the hose going without water leaking out of the connection but I got it figured out. I will do lots more watering tomorrow. Kathy worked hard to get grass planted and it will be my job to keep it alive this week while she is gone. Fingers crossed I can get it done.
I am going to attempt to watch the debate tonight. I am curious to see how long it takes me to get pissed. My goal is to stay above neutrality for as long as I can. Once I get pissed I drop below neutral and join the chaos of the USA. My job will be to remain curious not only about what is said but curious about my own reaction. We shall see what happens.
Phil had some emergencies to deal with today so wasn’t able to work on the front porch much. He is hoping to be able to do so the next three days. His goal is to have most of it done by the time Kathy gets home a week from today. That is ambitious but Phil works fast so we shall see what happens.
Last night was a hard night for me to find sleep. Sophia struggled to get settled down last night. I took her for a midnight walk and she did her business. Roxy was barking at 4:00 this morning. Unusual for them to behave that way. Trusting tonight will be a better night for them and for me.
The house feels bigger and empty with Kathy gone. I have a list of things to keep me busy this week. Trusting I will be able to get all of the stuff done. Most of it is doing some deep cleaning. It has been a hot minute since I have cleaned really good and the house needs it badly. I blame the dogs for tracking in most of the dirt. This house is not air tight and the dust seems to blow in easily.
Tomorrow someone is coming over so I can help them with a tax form. I may run to Emporia and get some groceries. I should have stopped on my way home today but I was ready to get home. If I don’t go tomorrow I will go Thursday. Friday I will go again for exercise.
Sitting in a good head space tonight although the debate hasn’t started. I will turn it off if I can’t stay above neutral. The last thing I want to do is allow myself to dip into the muck pond over something I have no control or power over. I need to stay focus on doing my inner work that allows me to stay above neutral regardless of what is happening around me.
Grateful for a safe trip to and from KC today, grateful Kathy gets this chance to spend time with her family, and grateful for the opportunity to practice listening tonight.