Quiet day at home today after all the fun Sunday and Monday. I had trouble sleeping last night and have felt slow and foggy today. It is cloudy outside which suits my mood inside today.
Haven’t gotten much done today other than making a phone call to straighten out a bill situation. The company had been notified by the post office that I had moved and sent the bill directly to Kathy’s new address. What a mess this is turning into. Haven’t received the packet of bills Kathy mailed back to me and am still not receiving much mail here. My mail is caught up in limbo. Trusting I can get it all straightened out before I leave Friday.
Still processing the 24 hours I spent with my Match guy. He has a lot of good points going for him. I haven’t been with someone before that can hear me like he does. He can listen to me express myself and then feed it back to me in a way that I know he heard what I didn’t say too. My mentor can do that for me. The two of them are a lot alike in other ways too.
We can sit in silence together without it feeling awkward which I also appreciate. We both need silence in our day so we can fill out own souls. Nice to have someone that allows silence.
He has a wicked sense of humor that makes me laugh. He can laugh at himself too.
He is a mainly retired college professor and is a deep intellectual man. He thinks – I feel. We are on opposite side of the range on this one. I appreciate both sides of it and see the value in both. We are both on the liberal side of politics. He is more engaged in being aware of what is happening in the world than I am.
Not sure where or if we are going in all of this. Time will tell. Maybe it is a good thing I am leaving Friday and will be gone almost three weeks to give us both time to decide if we want to take another step together.
I am so new to all of this dating stuff. It still feels a bit awkward to me and am not sure of myself. It will all become clear what the next steps are – or aren’t over time. Another good lesson in patience and trust for me.
Feeling a bit queasy today. I did manage to eat most of my lunch. I was tempted to skip lunch but decided to try to get down as much as I can. I have lost another pound and really don’t want to lose anymore weight. If I lose much while I am in Australia I will have to go see my doctor when I get home. Trusting I won’t do so. I didn’t lose any weight while I was in Italy this Spring although I lost six pounds very quickly after I got home from that trip. I don’t have six more pounds to lose this time. Who knew stopping the weight loss would be such a problem? At least the first round of blood tests all came back showing I am healthy with no immediate medical needs.
Need to get busy and get some items crossed off my to-do list. Just don’t have any motivation to get anything done today. I get up to go do something and forget what I got up to go do. Just one of those non-productive days I guess. Maybe I will go take a nap and forget about getting anything done today. I still have two more days to get things done – right?
Grateful for a day full of empty space so I have time to process the last 24 hours, grateful for all the love my friends have been sending my way, and grateful for non-productive days as they remind me to stop and listen to my heart.