We had a beautiful Spring Equinox Ceremony last night. Six of us gathered and welcomed spring to the prairie. We each planted our intentions for the coming months. It is so delightful to have a group of friends where one can be vulnerable and sit with them as each share. I’m so blessed to have each of them in my life.
I haven’t done much today. I got to stay home all day today. I have something on my calendar for the next four days and needed a day at home to prepare myself for the busy days ahead. I usually don’t leave the house that many days in a row. I may be wiped out by Saturday afternoon.
I was surprised that I wasn’t wiped out this morning. Usually being around a group drains me but that didn’t happen this time. Probably because we took some time at the beginning of the ceremony to ground ourselves and set the intention that we would remain grounded throughout. I need to remember to that more often.
I think my central nervous system is finally calming down. I was stuck in Fight or Flight for so long that it was working overtime to keep me safe. I realized last night that I finally felt like “me” again for the first time in a long, long time.
The chicks are doing well. I have tended to them a couple times today and nothing was amiss. They seem to like having the extra space and are behaving themselves. The littlest ones are three weeks old today. Three more weeks before I can move them outside.
It is nice to go into the furnace room and not have water on the floor. Grateful the booster pump got replaced and the source of the water leak fixed.
I still need to get down and clean out the chicken coop. It was too cold to do so again today. We only reached the mid 40’s today. It is to be 75 tomorrow but I will believe it when I see it. I am meeting someone for lunch tomorrow but maybe when I get home it will be warm and I can get the coop cleaned out.
I am meeting a friend in Council Grove tomorrow. I happened to notice the Grove Gardens has fresh strawberries for sale. I may stop and get a case and make some jam, etc. If nothing else, I will freeze them. I love strawberries and like to keep them on hand. I won’t eat the jam but betting I can find someone that would like it. Sounds like it will be a beautiful day to go for a drive to Council Grove.
Sitting in a peaceful place this afternoon. I had a rough part of the day yesterday but I am pleased with how quickly I recovered. It still feels like my soul box is filled with cotton puffs and not something more solid. I deplete quickly at times. It does feel today like something shifted in me last night and the cotton puffs feel a bit more solid today. I’ll see how I do this week with four days of events to attend.
I’m so grateful I have lots of empty space to process my feelings and allow myself this time to heal. I am starting to feel a bit restless and like I need to find a project to do. Maybe when I come back from Vegas in two weeks I will be ready to tackle something more. I need to get back to my death doula work and contact some people and tie up some loose ends from that. Before that felt too big to take on but it feels possible today.
I do have the deck painting project in front of me this spring when it finally warms up and stays warm. That will keep me busy for several weeks. I plan on organizing a painting party one weekend and will get some help to do part of it. It shouldn’t be too much longer before I can start painting.
Grateful for my tribe, grateful for my healing journey progress, and grateful for a quiet day on the prairie.