Tuesday, March 17, 2020

Another crazy day! Hard to keep up with all the developments in the Coronavirus outbreak. Schools closed for the rest of the school year, businesses closing or modifying service, lifes disrupted everywhere you look. Hard to process it all.

We spent a quiet day at home. We did go to the OSU office to find out about health benefits to see if I want to change to Jim’s plan. We stopped at Lowe’s for more small parts. We got what we needed and came home quickly.

I spent some time looking at his health insurance package. I pay less for better coverage in KS. Not sure the plan he is offered is at any sort of discount. I need to call and talk to them tomorrow and unless I am missing something I will stay with what I have.

I finally got on-line and saw the results of my blood tests that were done when I went to the ED early Friday morning. There were two that were unusual for me to be off. Not sure why and what they mean. I looked them up but couldn’t really find out anything. I did schedule an appointment with my regular doctor in KS so I can have the level checks again and ask him to interrupt them for me.

I have been restless to get back home. I figured out today that is part of the restlessness I am feeling but the main part of it is my uncertainty with what is happening in the world right now. It is so hard to process the magnitude of what is happening. My heart feels heavy as I think of those that don’t have the financial means to survive this time they are being forced to take off work. I think of the domestic violence situations that many women and children live with and are now being forced to stay in without any way to escape.

I trust that those in need will be able to reach out to some sort of support system that will be put into place. I haven’t heard mention of that in the national news yet but in my small community the first rumblings has started. Have a feeling this will be the type of thing that neighbor will need to take care of neighbor. Jim and I have been brainstorming how best we can do that.

I sent my property manager a text to let him know I will be flexible if any of my renters lose their jobs and need some rent relief. One of the houses has the renters moving out the end of the month and he hasn’t found renters yet. We will see what happens with that.

I never know who reads this blog. But if you are reading it and need support please send me a private message. I will be back in KS next Monday and am wiling to help anyone that needs whatever.

Cancelling a wedding seems so small right now! We will be married Thursday afternoon with little fanfare and celebration. We were laughing at dinner tonight that we won’t even be able to go out to dinner to celebrate.

As often as I could remember today I took a minute and took deep breaths and reminded myself All IS WELL. It helped me keep myself grounded and fully present in the moment. Whatever will happen will happen and I can’t control any of it. All I can control is my reaction to it. Breathing. Grounding. Centering. All is well in this moment!

Grateful for the internet which connects all of us together, grateful for all the angels that are stepping up and reaching out to help their fellow humans, and grateful for mantras and deep breathing that ground and center me.