Sleep was almost impossible to find last night. Got about two hours of sleep from 6:00 – 8:00 this morning. I have struggled to stay awake this afternoon. Betting it will be an early bedtime for me tonight and trusting that I will be able to find sleep.
Finally got a call from the specialist I was referred to. My appointment is October 13. Yes, October! Trusting my bladder won’t fall out before then. Yikes!
Made a quick trip to Emporia to check out something at the rental house. The guy that is cleaning up the yard was there doing his thing. I didn’t bother him and talk to him. Went in the house and checked on what I came to town for and came home.
I didn’t hear from the plumber. He was supposed to show up today. Maybe tomorrow? That seems to be the story of my life lately – people not doing what they said they will do.
My dear neighbor is going to do the washing machine and dryer switch for me tomorrow. Tagen was supposed to have taken care of it but didn’t manage to get it done. Grateful for Phil and his willingness to help me out often.
Tomorrow is Sophia’s surgery. I have to have her at the Vet before 8:30 tomorrow morning. She can’t eat after 10:00 tonight. I should be able to pick her up tomorrow afternoon between 4:00 and 5:00. The plugged sweat gland was drained last week but it is already full again. Trusting surgery will take care of the problem for good.
I was not surprised when I heard the Big Beautiful Bill passed the Senate. Moran backed out and didn’t challenge it. He must want to run again. My heart is heavy tonight as I sit with the possible ramifications of this bill. Trusting the House will have enough dissenters that it will be stopped but am not counting on that happening. Back door deals are being made and egos are involved.
It has been interesting reading others opinions and thoughts about what now. I think we all need to take a deep breath and pause and allow ourselves to feel our big feelings without acting on them. Sitting with this heaviness and anger is hard but an essential first step. If we fall in despair and fear we become part of the problem.
I still think we can’t solve this problem with the same energy that created it. I need to double down on my own inner work and find ways to stay as high above neutral as I can be. A mentor I follow wrote:
This is the work of the new timeline:
to see the light
to amplify the light
to become the light
Light is all around us but when we are angry and fearful we block it out. Finding ways to be the light and then to share the light is the answer. What can I do in my own community to share the light? I saw a list of needs from the local food pantry that I can take to the store and buy things to help them out. I am going to call the local ICE detention center and see what needs the female clients have and take care of those (thinking personal care items like tampons, etc). I need to direct this deep anger into action in love.
It doesn’t feel like enough in the moment yet I know deep in my bones that if everyone would respond in love and share that love in our community we can make a difference and drown out the national chaos. If and when this bill is finalized and the ripple effect starts to be felt our neighbors will need us to lend a helping hand.
I will continue to make my voice heard and protest when I find one. However, I will carry signs stating what I want as opposed to what I am against. Being against something pulls me down to a lower vibration. I want to march for peace and love for all. I want to sing love songs and unite with fellow humans that share my vibration.
I would love to hear your thoughts about the situation and what you plan on doing about it. Together we can rise above this and bring a new way of being to the world.
Grateful I finally have an appointment and trusting I can keep my bladder inside my body until then, grateful things are progressing at the rental house, and grateful for love in all ways and in all things.