I spent a lot of the day on the hotline. I took 8 calls today. Several of them were suicidal and others were going through relationship issues. Oh to be 16 and feel like your world is falling apart and that you will never love again. The hot line is so busy. Some callers are waiting over an hour and sometimes a lot longer to get a person to talk to.
We are broken out into levels that are based on how many calls you have taken. My next level is 6 and I had to take 200 more calls to get to that level. I only need 20 more to reach Level 6. Since we have been so busy it is easy to get lots of calls without waiting. I can pretty much hop on the line anytime and take calls right now.
I made hamburger soup for dinner. It sure makes the house smell good while it is cooking in the crock pot. It was fairly cold today and hot soup for dinner tasted good. We have leftovers for my lunch for the next couple of days.
I got up and weighed this morning and almost fell over. I had lost 4 pounds since yesterday. I have heard of others on this eating plan having that happen but it had never happened to me until today. I kept stepping on and off the scales to make sure it was true. I have taken off ten pounds since I started back on plan November 5. I want to take off at least another 10 and maybe 15. I didn’t think I would take the first 10 off until January so am ahead of schedule. I doubt that i will have another big drop but it sure was nice when it happened today. I set a target date of mid March to reach my next goal. It would be nice if I get there quicker than that but am not betting on it. I am usually a very slow loser.
Actually what I weigh isn’t as important as the fact that I have been able to stick to my lines for almost a month. I am approaching it differently this time as the realization that this is the way I am going to eat the rest of my life. My body will decide what it wants to weigh and stay there at some point. I’m not sure what that point will be. I am eating a bigger variety of foods this time and figuring out how to let Jim eat his favorites and modify the menu to meet my needs too. I feel so much better when I don’t eat flour or sugar. I never get that overfilled feeling and no acid reflux. I am beginning to have more energy and it feels more stable throughout the day. Being off flour and sugar helps keep the thyroid happier and the cancer from coming back – that is my main reason for eating this way.
I am still not able to eat raw foods, dairy, grains or beans. This is new for me since I had C-Diff. My stomach balance has changed and when I eat one of those foods it bloats me and I don’t feel well. I will keep trying small amounts of each group occasionally and see if I can add them back in to what I eat. I am able to eat eggs and small amounts of butter. Milk and cheese doesn’t go down well though. I miss being able to eat salads but the couple of times I have tried it didn’t feel good.
Some yarn arrived today so I now have a project to get done. I have three hats to make and get ready to ship in the next week or so. It is homespun yarn and is fun to knit with. I have to modify the pattern as it is a different weight than the yarn I used before. Once I figure that out they will knit up fast. Still waiting on the other yarn that I ordered so I can get a blanket made in time to ship it to someone for Christmas. All that knitting should keep me out of trouble for a week or so.
It is to possibly snow tomorrow and Thursday. We don’t have any plans to go anywhere so let it snow, let it snow, let it snow. We need the moisture in whatever form we can get it. I just don’t like the cold that comes with it.
Hard to believe it is December and Christmas is only 24 days away. I need to figure out what to get Jim. I think I have everyone else decided on – I just need to get a few more things ordered. I can do this! Sometimes I make too big of a deal out of it in my head and it feels impossible. I have a feeling lots of people are ordering on-line this year so want to allow lots of extra time for things to show up and so I can get them where they need to be on time.
No plans for the rest of the week – actually no plans for the rest of the month. Jim is going to go to Stillwater one day this week unless he changes his mind again. The weather isn’t good for him to travel tomorrow or Thursday. He needs to change cars so he can get the car he has in Stillwater up here so he can get it titled in KS. He didn’t make it to the courthouse today to get the car he has up here now titled but maybe he will get it done tomorrow.
Feeling more settled with my stay at home routine today. Having the hot line to work on during the day helps the days go by fast. With my knitting projects I will keep busy doing that so time goes faster too. I do feel better when I have something to show for my day.
Grateful for my big weight drop this morning, grateful for the yarn that showed up today, and grateful I was able to talk another person out of suicide earlier today.