Craig is settled into Newman Hospital Rehab Unit. I’m grateful there was a bed available as I now think it would have been a mistake to try to take him directly home. He will get the support and help he needs for a bit. Nothing was mentioned as to how long he will be staying. They did three different evaluations on him yesterday. He was one tired puppy by the time they were done.
Empty space has opened for me! Yeah! I have missed it yet it has been hard to relax into it today.
Not sure why it feels a bit uncomfortable to have empty space for the next three days but it does. Guess it is hard to slow down from the craziness of the last week. I keep feeling like there is something important I need to be doing but am not sure what that is.
I am going into Emporia soon to get critter food and to get Craig’s phone back to him. He had left it in Jason’s truck and Jason wasn’t able to get it back to Craig yesterday. Craig feels naked without his phone with him. I also have a medical record I need to take up to the hospital for him.
I’m grateful the skies are bright blue today with not much wind. Kathy mentioned the chicken coop needs cleaned out so when I return from town I will help her get it cleaned out. The chickens need a deep bedding of straw put in to help keep them warm for the cold days and nights ahead.
I need to do some house cleaning today. The dust is thick enough to write your name on the tops of the coffee tables and floors. It will help me move my body to do some cleaning. I’m thinking the restlessness I am feeling has come from sitting way too much over this last week.
I didn’t sleep good last night for the first time in a week. I have a situation I can’t figure out a solution to and I kept waking up thinking about it. I’m trying to see what I need to do different to help repair a relationship I have with someone (not Craig). All I can see is their part in it which I have no control over. Somehow I need to zoom out and see my part which is the only part I can control and fix. There may be nothing I can do to fix it other than to let go and allow the person lots of space. Letting go can be hard sometimes! Especially when you really care about the other person.
It will all work out one way or the other when it is time for it to. I have learned pushing doesn’t help fix anything. I’m not sure they are interested in resolving anything yet. One of the four agreements I refer back to is don’t take anything someone else does personally. What they do reflects who they are so I can’t make it about me. When I can remember that it doesn’t hurt so much.
I have had a headache again for several days. When I get home from town I may need to take a pain pill again. That is about all that will knock it out for a bit. Not sure what is causing my headaches lately but I don’t like them. Probably has to do with the thyroid issues and the additional stress I have been under this last week although they started before Craig got sick.
I have been amazed once again by the outpouring of love and support my friends have been showing me. My wish for the world is that everyone would have a support system like I do. The world would be a better place if everyone could experience that type of love. Thank you to those that have have reached out to me via phone calls, texts, emails, etc. Each contact has felt like a hug and they seemed to come when I needed them the most.
It is a beautiful day on the prairie! All is well!