Good news from the retina specialist today. The laser surgery he did six months ago healed perfectly and both eyes had no changes. The cataracts have not changed which amazed him. I don’t have to go back until a year from now.
The best part of the day is they didn’t have to inject me with the dye. They did dilate my eyes but no dye! I hadn’t eaten breakfast as the dye thing upsets my tummy and I do better if I go in fasting. It was a relief not to have that done. I was hungry by the time we got home.
Kathy drove me home afterwards. Since I didn’t have the dye thing I probably could have driven home but it was safer having Kathy do it. I appreciated her taking half her day to go up with me and get me home.
Last night I went to see the movie After Death. I feel the movie confirmed many beliefs I have about what happens after death. I was especially touched when all the people that were interviewed said that you go to a place of almost indescribable, unconditional love. I have felt that in my bones for some time. They also said they didn’t have the words to properly describe where they went. I have felt that when I do energy work – things happen and I can’t find words to describe what happened. It feels out of this world as we know it to me and I can feel the energy of it but find words don’t do it justice.
At some point one of the men said he had been told during his Near Death Experience that his only mission and purpose for the rest of his life was to be love and to love others. He was told there is a ripple effect that happens when you treat others with love that can spread around the world. That too feels like my truth.
I was disappointed that they referred to the great beyond and the voice they heard as He and God. That doesn’t feel true to me. The term God has negative connotations these days. I wish they had used Spirit or All That Is or something less charged. I also don’t believe God is a man or a woman. The use of “He” continues the male dominate narrative that is so strong in our culture these days.
I am grateful a movie like this is becoming main stream and trust that it opens some dialogue. The “church” has preached fear and negative consequences for our choices for way too long. They have many fearing death as many feel they aren’t good enough to get to heaven. I believe heaven and hell are what we create here on earth. I think after death we remember that there is only love and it was our egos, dogma, and fear that created the illusion of heaven and hell.
My eyes are doing well enough that I plan on going to Emporia mid-afternoon to watch Ellexia cheer. I have some Chex Mix to take her if I remember to. It will be good to see her. It has been a hot minute since I have seen her.
I don’t think I have to leave the house again after I get home tonight until Tuesday of next week when I go to town to get my final things to make Thanksgiving dinner. I look forward to several days at home. I have lots of cleaning to do to keep me busy over the weekend.
The weather is a changing. It is only 60 out today but with a 25 MPH wind it feels much colder. A cold front is moving in and we won’t see above the mid to high 50’s for the next week or so. Hoping it brings the rain with it. We are getting desperate for rain again.
Kathy sold 11 dozen eggs for me today! Yay! That cleaned out my extra egg stash. I am getting over a dozen eggs a day so will build up another stash quickly. It is a good day when all the eggs get cleared out. Grateful for my egg customers. I will need to remember to hold a dozen or so back for me so I can have eggs to bake pies next Wednesday.
I still have to do a stool test in December and then I think I am done with medical stuff for this year. I am almost done with my vaccines and have finished all my annual doctor appointments. It takes a lot of appointments to keep this old body going strong.
I got a letter from my house insurance company today telling me they are not going to renew my house insurance next January. I had too big of a loss and they are backing out. I hope I don’t have to go into the high risk category to get insurance next year. Not sure where to start to find new insurance. Any experts out there that can advise me?
Kinda upsets me that insurance companies are allowed to do that. A hail storm is not something that I can control. Now if I had burned my house down by doing something negligent I could understand being cancelled. I have two of my rental properties with this insurance company so will find new insurance for them too. If they are kicking my house off, they are going to lose covering my car and rental property too.
Sitting in a good head space today. Grateful I got a good report from the retina specialist, especially the good news that my cataracts have not grown as he expected they would. The movie last night confirmed many of the beliefs that I hold about what happens after death. It feels like I am on the right path doing what I am meant to be doing. It has been a while since I felt good about where I am and what I am doing. It feels good to be back!
Grateful for a great report from the retina specialist today, grateful they are making movies like After Death, and grateful to be alive in this moment of time.