Got to have a stay at home day today. I didn’t do much and took a day of rest. It was good for my soul. Today was much easier than yesterday for me and I was able to get regulated and hold it for most of the day.
It was another hot day with temperatures in the low 90’s. Sure wonder how hot it is going to be in July and August with it this hot already.
We had our Solstice Ceremony this evening. We worked with the chart of consciousness and learning the types of things that pull us below neutral. We did an exercise that helped us find where we hold the energy of the feeling in our bodies when we fall below and learned some ways of helping it release.
I love this group of people that gather. I believe that if everyone had a safe group like this to gather with on a regular basis the world would be a much better place for all of us.
Tomorrow I have to go to town for exercise at 2:00. They are doing road construction on Highway 50 leading into Emporia. Not sure how early I need to leave in order to get to exercise on time. I hear the wait times can be up to 30 minutes if you catch it at the wrong time. If I remember after I get done with exercise I will go to the Chiropractor and get adjusted. I had to miss my time Wednesday as his office was too busy and I ran out of time to wait. He goes to lunch between 1:00 and 3:00 so I can’t go before exercise tomorrow.
No plans for the weekend. It will be good to stay home again for two days in a row. I am running on low and need more time home alone to get filled up again.
Yesterday I went about as low as I have gone for a long time. When I was finally able to name and claim what I was feeling I was able to release it and start to climb out of the rabbit hole I had fallen into. I had to give myself permission to grieve and release it.
Next week I have to go to Wichita Tuesday for a foot doctor appointment. My left foot has been bothering me. The second toe crosses over the big toe and makes the big toe feel like it has an ingrown toenail which it does not. Not sure the doctor can do anything about it but thought I would see what he has to say. I am seeing the doctor that did the four foot surgeries I had a couple years ago.
I leave for Costa Rica a week from Sunday. Oh my, that is coming up quick. Before I go to Wichita I will check and make sure I have everything I need and if not will take advantage of being in the big city and stop and get what I need.
When I get back from my vacation, I need to figure out what I am going to pick up to keep myself busy. I do better when I have a few things on my calendar each week. I love empty space but too much empty space is not good for me. Finding a good balance can be a challenge for me but I need to dip my toes in the water and start pulling some things in.
I am in a much better space than I was yesterday. I wasn’t sure I would be able to facilitate the group tonight yesterday but I think it went well tonight and am grateful I was able to host the group. Trusting the roller coaster ride I have been on lately will start to slow down and I will be able to stay regulated for a bit. Life sure is easier and more fun when I am regulated.
Grateful for my group of friends and their wisdom, grateful to be on the other side of the chart of consciousness tonight, and grateful for my teachers.