It has been a delightful day of doing nothing. It is in the mid 60’s out with a bright blue sky. It is very windy though. We have had a wind gust of 48.7 MPH so far today. I have been soaking up the beauty of the prairie today sitting in my favorite chair in the corner of my living room.
I did at least three tax returns last night and I might have done four. I lose track easily of how many I do. We are reviewing each other’s work this year which is a change for this site. That is the way we did them in Oklahoma. It speeds up the process as when we used to only have one person that reviewed them, the people would have to wait a bit to get done. Ran into a few glitches but overall it was an easy night. I enjoy working with the guy that is the moderator at this site. When I make a mistake, he takes the time to teach me what I did wrong so I won’t keep repeating the mistake. I appreciate that.
This has been another low energy type of day for me. I keep telling myself I need to get up and do something but nothing is tempting me enough to get my ass out of my chair and get up and take care of it. Nothing feels urgent enough to bother doing. Have some cleaning that needs done but it seems to be patiently waiting for me to get to it.
I read a Facebook meme from Carolyn Myss which said “The act of forgiveness is the act of returning to the present time. And that’s why when one has become a forgiving person and has managed to let go of the past, what they’ve really done is they’ve shifted their relationship with time.” I keep thinking about that and am finding it very true. Right here, right now, in this present moment, all is well. What happened in the past is no longer dragging me down as all is well, right here, right now. As long as I can stay present to the present moment, all is well. That seems powerful to me in new ways every time I think about it. In this present moment, no one is hurting me, I’m not hurting anyone, and no one has the power to dim my light. All is well. Is that forgiveness? Maybe? I will continue to contemplate this statement and search for even deeper understanding.
I have an abundance of eggs on hand right now if anyone needs some. The girls are appreciating this warmer weather and are laying like crazy right now.
Tomorrow I have someone coming over in the afternoon. Saturday I have the Locksmith coming to fix my back door in the morning and then the Advanced Directives Workshop in the afternoon. Sunday is the Super Bowl and I think Tagen and Lily are coming for dinner and to watch the game. Monday I start my exercise program. I’m excited and nervous to have the first appointment. I trust I will enjoy my trainer and will adapt to exercising without much physical discomfort. It will be weird going to town three times a week and having something on my calendar three times a week.
Still sitting with a major potential life change in front of me. Working on some bits and pieces of it and sitting with what will be the best path forward for me. Sometimes the path feels very clear to me and then I come to a fork and have to sit and wait for guidance as to what direction to take. All is good and all is well. I have full confidence that the best path for me will be made clear to me when the timing is right.
Grateful for this beautiful spring-like day, grateful for new learnings and understanding about forgiveness, and grateful for a new potential path in my future.