My soul has hurt today. I made the mistake of reading some comments on Facebook about the governor of KS being overridden in her orders to limit worship and funeral sizes. The comments were very strongly worded against the governor and included beliefs that if they let the governor get away with this order the next order she would make would be to take away their bibles and guns. Really?
I understand the desire and need to have the right to worship. But during these times we are being called to do things differently for the good of all. I had just read an article about a man that went to a funeral and a birthday party while sick without knowing he had the virus. Three of the people he came in contact with at those celebrations are now dead.
Do people not yet understand you can have the virus and not know it and give it to other people? What is it going to take to wake us up?
I know part of my over reaction today was a response to a note I received today from a church. The church was communicating to me about something and I took it the wrong way. It triggered a negative response in me. It reminded me why I can no longer be a member of a church. It angers me that a church is not a safe place for me in all ways.
My soul hurts!
I know there is a lot of wonderful things happening in the world right now. Many people are doing amazing things to help their fellow humans in ways that were not happening before this happened.
I have learned I need to honor my deep soul hurts and sit with it as long as it takes for me to completely feel the pain and hurt. This too shall pass and my heart will expand and be able to hold both the joy and hurt in equal measure.
I trust I haven’t triggered something in you with my words. Forgive me if I have. That certainly wasn’t my intent. I don’t want to engage in a war of words with anyone. If you can’t relate to what I am saying scroll on.
Tomorrow will be a new day and one that I trust I will see more joy than hurt. Somedays I have to honor the hurt in my soul and this is one of those days.
Grateful for the wonderful ways most humans are stepping up and helping out their fellow humans during this time, grateful for being able to hold pain and joy in my soul, and grateful for the way most people are putting aside their own desires for the good of all.