I could not find sleep last night. I gave up around 6:30 and got up. I did lay down for a couple of hours late morning but not sure I slept for more than an hour. Man I hate when I go through spells like this. I feel very drained this afternoon. Hopefully tonight I will get lots of sleep and will wake up with some energy in the morning.
I went to Emporia late afternoon to attend a visitation. Halfway to Emporia I could tell it had recently rained lots. It was a pond-filler type of rain as all the ditches were full and the sides of the roads in Emporia were full of water. We only got a brief rain in Cottonwood Falls. About three minutes before I got to the funeral home it started pouring again but by the time I was parked and ready to go in the rain stopped and I got in dry.
The person that made their transition was a dear friend of my parents. Mom and Dad had a group of about six couples that they hung out with. This was the husband of one of the those couples. I think most of the “gang” as they used to call themselves have departed. I got to see his daughter this evening and her beautiful family. My, have we all grown up and gotten old!
Tomorrow I need to bake some cookies for the political rally on Saturday. I haven’t baked cookies for a long time – trusting I still remember how. I will allow myself some extra time just in case. This kitchen is not easy to bake in.
Saturday I am meeting a friend for lunch and then we are going to the rally. She is hosting the water/cookie break table for the rally so I may sit with her and join the rally when it gets to us. We shall see how the day unfolds.
I didn’t make it to the gym today. I didn’t have the energy due to little to no sleep. Hoping I can make it tomorrow. One day at a time – one step at a time – I got this. I need to allow myself some wiggle room and remember this is a journey and not a destination. Perfection is not required.
Feeling a bit empty tonight. I’m sure most of it is from lack of sleep. The weather has been a bit unsettling today too. It feels like I don’t have much solid ground beneath my feet. Maybe it is part of letting go and allowing and accepting there isn’t much solid in this world. Going with the flow and allowing means not leaning on anything solid and trusting in the Universe. I think I can, I think I can….
Grateful for what rain we did get, grateful for the memories of days long gone by, and grateful to be in the flow.