It has been a quiet day at home. Felt more like myself today than I have for a bit. I even managed to go outside and take a mile walk. I got some laundry done and managed to take care of an internet thing that had me stumped for a bit.
I haven’t taken the medication that has been bothering me for two nights. I will contact my doctor tomorrow and let him know I need to go off of it. When I read the information about it I learned I am not to go off of it cold turkey so will need to get instructions on how to get off of it.
I have been a bit teary all day. Not sure where that is coming from but it has been a bit since I have been able to allow myself to cry. Know it was long overdue and I am grateful my feelings and emotions are being released.
Tomorrow I have to be in Emporia to do taxes at 9:00. I will need to stop afterwards and pick up some groceries. I didn’t stop and get any last week and don’t need much so it won’t take long.
I get to go back to Emporia on Tuesday and Thursday too this week. Tax season is almost over for the year so grateful I get some extra time to be in service.
I feel like I am slowly climbing out of a dark hole I had fallen in. Not sure how I have been able to both stay above neutral and allow myself to drop down into my own personal hole to dig space out for my emotions to be heard and felt. You can hold both sides in your hands at the same time.
Grateful some things got done today, grateful I feel like I am climbing out of this pit, and grateful for new beginnings tomorrow.