Happy birthday to my brother Chad. He turns 68 today. Maybe this will be the year he gets to retire.
This has been another quiet day on the prairie. This is the third day in a row I haven’t spoken to another person. So far I am not bored or missing people. I do have to go to town tomorrow for tax prep training so will break my streak then.
I went 35 minutes on the bike today. My legs were a big wobbly when I walked upstairs afterwards. First time that has happened. May stay at 35 minutes for another day or two before I add more time. I’ll see how I am feeling tomorrow when I ride.
I had trouble finding sleep last night. Makes for a long night when that happens. One of these days I am going to figure out why I can’t sleep. Miracles do happen – right?
Picked out a paint color for the furniture pieces downstairs that I am going to paint. I will pick up the paint when I go to town tomorrow and start painting them on Tuesday.
I didn’t paint on the deck today. It was too windy. I checked to see at what temperature I could paint at and that part was good but while I was reading about temperature it mentioned wind speed. Anything over 15 MPH they recommend not painting outdoors as the paint dries too fast. The wind today has been well above 15 MPH most of the day. Hard to find a day on this hill when that isn’t the case.
I have felt kinda flat all day today. Thinking it is because I didn’t get much sleep. Some things came up for me today emotionally and I spent some time allowing them to run through me. Feels like I am on the other side of them now which is a good thing. But it is physically draining when I do that. Good thing I had a quiet day at home and could allow the feelings to be what they were. They pass through me much quicker when I can allow them to be and not be in resistance to them.
Not too motivated to do much today. I am reading a good book and that has helped pass the time today. Somedays are meant for good books and doing nothing else. This was one of them!
A week from tomorrow I go back for my last counseling session. She will be available in the future if I feel I need her again. Not sure how I thank her for her help through all of this. It made a world of difference to me to have her advice and support. Sure wish mental health services were easy and cheap to access for all. I got lucky finding one that had an opening when I needed it and even luckier to find one as good as she is.
Grateful for my brother Chad, grateful I was able to allow my emotions to run through and out of my body, and grateful for something on my calendar for tomorrow.