I took a late nap yesterday so was wide awake at midnight. I got on the hot line as they were busy. Ended up staying on until 3:00. Handled 10 texters. Some were fairly easy, routine calls but a couple were the type that stuck with me when my shift was over. I had trouble sleeping afterwards as the calls kept replaying in my head. I also felt guilty getting off the hot line as there were 100 callers waiting to text and only 24 counselors on-line. I just couldn’t take any more callers though.
I didn’t get much sleep last night as a result. I laid down this afternoon for a nap but couldn’t fall asleep. Hoping I sleep well tonight. I’ve had a headache all day.
I knitted this morning as I listened to the church service from Jim’s church in Stillwater. The preacher had a great sermon. She reminded me I am not my politics – I am a child of God. Trust I can remember that in the coming challenging week.
The blanket I am going to mail tomorrow is almost finished. Only have 16 more rows and then I will be able to cast off. I will have to weave the remaining ends in and then it will be done. I will be able to mail it tomorrow. Yay! Seems like it has been on the needles for a long time. I like how it turned out though – I love the colors and trust the birthday girl will like them too.
I need to get back to doing some house cleaning before I cast on my next big project. Hoping that can happen tomorrow. I have been slacking on that project as I prefer to knit.
I am really missing my kids for some reason today. My heart has hurt all day from the ache from not seeing them for so long. Some days are easier than others and today has been a hard day. Part of it is because I am so sleep deprived and emotional. I’m sure after a good night’s sleep I will do better tomorrow. Have been in tears most of the day. One of those days!
We have another quiet week ahead of us. Jim wants to go to Stillwater one day and exchange cars so he can get the Honda titled in KS and bring another load up. I think he is planning on going down and coming back the same day. We will see what he decides to do. Nothing else is on our calendar for the week other than doing an egg delivery on Monday, taking trash to the curb on Tuesday and my hot line shifts on Wednesday and Thursday evenings. We lead such an exciting life on the prairie – ha!
I will give myself two more shots next Friday. The welts on my legs are almost healed from the last shots I gave myself three weeks ago. I wonder if I will react the same way every time. I am to take Benadryl this time 30 minutes before the injections. We will see if that helps lessen the reaction.
Feeling a bit ungrounded today due to sleep deprivation. I will be gentle with myself this evening and go to bed as soon as I think I will be able to sleep.
Grateful for Leah and her beautiful light and soul, grateful the blanket is almost done, and grateful for a quiet week ahead.