The last time i write 2023. What a year this has been. It started with me in a deep hole but I have managed to climb out of the hole and gain lots of altitude throughout the year. Not a year I want to repeat, but am grateful for all those that pushed me, pulled me, and were by my side every step of the way.
It has been a lazy day on the prairie for me. I took a chair nap after I had breakfast. I seem to sleep better in my chair, than I do in my bed.
It is another cloudy, windy day on the prairie. I sure enjoyed the sunshine and warmer temperatures yesterday. The forecast for the week isn’t looking like it will warm up again anytime soon. So far Thursday looks dry. I trust it will stay that way.
No plans for the evening. I might watch a bit of the New Year’s Eve show from NYC but I may not. I rarely stay up until midnight unless I can’t sleep. After taking a long nap today that might be the case today.. A friend invited me over for black eyed peas tomorrow so will probably go in and enjoy those. I can use all the luck I can get.
Tuesday the shade lady is coming to install the new shades and Thursday I go back to KC. Wednesday I will need to go into Emporia and go to the Chiropractor and take care of any errands that come up between now and then.
I’m grateful the New Year begins tomorrow. December has felt like it has been 90 days long. Time usually flies by for me but sure feels like it has slowed way down lately. I am out of my normal rhythm and routine. Trusting it will return and things will feel normal again.
I don’t make New Year’s resolutions. I do choose a word for the year that guides my intentions throughout the year. This year my word is Grace. I had discovered how important it is to offer myself Grace when things don’t go the way I wanted them to do. Offering myself grace allows for my humanness to do its thing and breaks my addiction to perfection. My self talk has changed as a result and I want to continue that practice into 2024.
When Jim first left the house in November, 2022, my therapist recommended that I learn to offer myself Grace. It felt so foreign to me at the time but I have really come to appreciate the value of it. The only person that can really take care of me is myself.
Grateful for chair naps on cloudy, cold winter days, grateful for a New Year coming and New beginnings, and grateful December is finally over.