My first experience with San Pedro was mostly amazing. I was only given a half dose and I am grateful. It tastes terrible. It is a slimy, thick liquid.
We had an opening ceremony which was beautiful. After we all drank from the cup we spread out over the beautiful grounds at the Center. I laid on a blanket near the stream that winds through the property.
I was a lot nauseated for most of the day. I never purged though. I could feel my senses start to heighten after about an hour.
The nausea became my touch stone for my body as when I could feel the nausea the shaking stopped for a bit.
After about two hours I started shaking. My head started first and then one or both legs would shake. I knew it was old energy unwinding and releasing. No story with it except every once in a while I would know what it was from. A lot of it was energy I was holding that wasn’t mine.
The Shaman cane by to check on me about every hour. He reassured me I was safe and gave me advice if needed. At some point he told me to start drinking sips of water. The only problem was my water bottle was five feet away and it took me a bit to figure out how to stand up and get it.
Mid-day they set out a plate of fresh fruit. The Shaman let me know it was there. I had to cross the stream to get to it and that was a challenge for me in my altered state. I finally staggered over to the fruit but was only able to eat one bite of banana.
There were times when the energy that I was releasing was painful – especially in my head area. I would make these primal sounds to help it release. I chanted tonal sounds at times too.
I couldn’t figure out the rain. I think it rained part of the day but I am not sure. At one point I was the rain!
Somehow I was able to verbalize where I was at when the Shaman came to check on me. I was very aware of observing my physical body with my higher self. I kept telling myself to breathe, allow and surrender.
It didn’t fully wear off until late afternoon. The last couple of hours were hard as I was exhausted and my body felt like it had been through a wringer washing machine. I just wanted it to stop.
Around 5:00 we had a closing ceremony which was beautiful. We had stayed in silence until then.
They fed us dinner around 6:30. I couldn’t eat much.
This morning I feel a bit weak and have a touch of diarrhea. We are going to the market at Pisac today so trusting some food at breakfast will help settle my system.
We don’t have any hot water so haven’t been able to shower yet. I told them about it yesterday but it didn’t get fixed yet. I tried to warm up a kettle of water so I could wash my hair but the gas didn’t work. Trusting that will get fixed today. I need a hot shower!
Today is a fun day. Tomorrow night we have out first experience with the next plant medicine. Trusting that will be amazing too.