Another perfect fall day on the prairie. A little warm but I will take it. It is to get colder next week and I will be wishing for the warmth again.
Had trouble sleeping again last night. Finally figured out part of my problem though. We are between a solar and lunar eclipse period and the collective energy is all stirred up. It can cause one to have trouble sleeping, react without pausing, feel like you are on a roller coaster of emotions, etc. Makes perfect sense to me! Kathy said she has been feeling it too.
This is also the time a year ago that Jim and I were going through our breakup. I do believe our bodies store certain memories in them and remind us of things that have happened. A year ago I was discovering some new truths about our relationship and it was one of the hardest times I have ever faced. I am so grateful for those that walked that journey beside me and helped me cross that bridge and get to the other side.
Kathy and I worked on our Health Fair giveaway today. Not sure how many to prepare. We fixed 100 but not sure that will be enough. I sent an email to the coordinator and asked if she had any idea how many people might come. We might need to fix another 100 or so.
I am really starting to notice how early it is when it gets dark now. 60 more days of getting a bit less daylight each day. The last 60 days always feels long and dark to me. I do some of my best internal work during that period but man is it hard sometimes! I look forward to December 21 when the sun begins its cycle towards more daylight.
KU Med Center called me today to tell me the fitness research program I wanted to enroll in has been delayed yet again. They are enrolling men, but not women right now. There is a possibility that they will open it up to more woman after the first of the year but they don’t know for sure yet. I’m grateful they called to tell me. I had been waiting to hear from them as they offered a free gym membership as part of their study. I no longer have an excuse to call the gym in Cottonwood and get my butt moving.
Monday I get my flu shot. I trust it won’t knock me on my ass the way the Covid and RSV shots did. I have a dental appointment Tuesday afternoon that I really don’t want to miss. Since I am going to town Monday, I need to place my grocery order and get it that day. Not sure I need much but will check. My grocery bill has certainly gone way down since the kiddos moved out.
My back pain is all but gone. It gets stirred up a bit when I lift things or move around a lot but quiets right back down. I think my body is telling me I need to start using it or it will protest louder and louder. Time to hit the gym next week! No more excuses!
I’m struggling to think that Christmas will be here in just a little over two months. That means Thanksgiving is only a little over a month away. I will be hosting a dinner again this year and welcome any and all to come. Will post when I know for sure when I am doing it this year.
Still enjoying my empty space. I feel my soul refilling and expanding. Change is headed my way but not sure what that might look like or be. It feels important that I protect this empty space for a bit so I will be fully charged and ready to go when the change appears. I know that sounds weird but that is the closest I can come to describing what I am feeling.
Grateful for this fall perfect day, grateful my back pain is gone, and grateful for my personal growth over this last year. I am in a much better space now then I was just one year ago.