I don’t think my new sleeping pills are going to work. I got almost no sleep at all last night. I am feeling drugged this morning. Thinking about taking another one and going to bed very soon. I looked the pill up and its primary purpose is to be used as an anti-depressant. Thinking I need to switch to pills designed primarily to make you sleep instead of pills that have a secondary use as a sleeping pill.
Almost have one prayer shawl made with yarn from the tote I brought up from the basement. I forgot how fast I can make one. I did half of it last night and have worked on it off and on this morning. My muscles are out of shape for knitting and I have to stop and rest them. I used to be able to make a whole shawl in one sitting without resting.
Baked a chicken pot pie for my early lunch. I hate turning the oven on for just one little thing but decided that is what I wanted to eat. I’m sure they are not very good for you but every once in a while I indulge and eat one. I needed warm, comfort food today for some reason.
It is a cloudy windy day on the prairie today. Rain is headed my way. I am grateful for any rain I receive. Have a touch of a headache today from the pollen blowing in the air. I’ll be grateful when the rain gets here and cleans the air.
Went down to the barn yesterday and couldn’t find any records to throw away. It is almost time to throw away 2011 but I really need to hold on to them for three more months. Since we had a tax audit for 2011 three years ago I hate to get too quick about throwing them away. The audit was closed with no tax change recommended although the letter allowed them room to investigate further should they decide to do so in the future. Trusting that was just legal language and our case was in fact closed. It was our first income tax audit ever. Grateful it closed fairly easily and they didn’t find anything.
Seriously thought about running away for three days but haven’t acted on it yet. Really can’t think of anywhere I want to go and with the storm coming in I decided to stay home as I don’t like to drive in rain. What I am running away from is myself and unfortunately I have to take myself with me where ever I go. I got really cranky last night and felt very angry. I put myself in time out by going to bed early. It would have been nice if I could have slept it off but that didn’t happen, even with taking a sleeping pill. Not much better today but I can’t do two cranky days in a row. Takes way too much energy to sustain that. What I really need is some sleep but that seems pretty elusive to find.
Have something on my calendar everyday this week. The pest guy is coming to service the house Monday and the heater guy is coming Wednesday. Luckily both are familiar with my house and won’t ask me stupid questions, I usually dislike dealing with service people. They talk a language I don’t understand and I never know if I am getting taken advantage of.
Friday is my appointment with the Endocrinologist to find out what if anything needs to be done for my thyroid cancer. I’ll be glad when the time comes for that appointment. Trusting she has a plan and has read the pathology report and is prepared with some answers for me.
My cell phone contract is up and I need to figure out what I want to do. Kathy has Verizon too so may look at her plan and add a line to her plan. Bet it would be cheaper that way. May have her go to town with me next week and see if that is possible. My phone is an older model that was reworked before I bought it. It is starting to not respond on certain parts of the screen. The fingerprint unlock only works about half the time. Not sure I want to pay $700 or more for a new phone though. I was going to look at Cellular One as they have a device that turns your cell phone into your internet provider. Having trouble finding information about it though. I think I am probably asking the wrong questions and don’t know the right question to ask. I’m not very knowledgeable about these things.
Got another explanation of benefits from my health insurance company yesterday. I have met the out-of-pocket maximum of over $6,000 for the year. I had the two foot surgeries earlier this year and met my $3,000 deductible when that happened. I have a policy that pays 80% after the deductible until I pay over $6,000 and then they pay 100%. Trusting I can get whatever treatments may be required done yet this year so the insurance company can pay the whole bill. My budget was blown in Sept and Oct with the unexpected doctor and hospital bills. I could have taken a nice trip with the over $9,000 I have had to pay from out-of-pocket expenses this year. First year I have used my insurance. Glad I had it. Can’t wait until I am 65 and my insurance premium will be reduced and the supplement picks up most of the cost. Come on August 2018!
Cranky. Tired. Windy. Cloudy. Sleep-deprived. Good thing I am home alone today. And this too will pass. All is well on the prairie today – just don’t call or come see me today! I might not play nice.