Damn! My Match guy turned out to be a fraud. I had started getting suspicious a few days ago. He followed the same pattern the other guy had followed. His profile disappeared as soon as we made contact. A quick trip turned into an unexpected additional long trip overseas. Only a brief phone conversation and a delay in meeting face to face. This one was so cute I was hoping my intuition was wrong but I pulled the plug this morning.
I am surprised what I am feeling is relief. I guess my higher self knew what was happening and helped protect my heart. This guy was just too good to be true.
The quiet of the house even feels differently today. There is a peace to it today that hasn’t been here for two or three days.
I reactivated my Match account but not sure it holds much interest to me right now. Thinking I will take a break until I get home from my trip in November and decide then if I want to proceed. I need to figure out why I am attracting the scammers. At least now I know their pattern.
Went into Cottonwood Falls for the Fall for Chase County Event that is being held this afternoon. The sun was shining and it felt good to get out of the house and walk up and down Main Street for a bit. Stopped in at Prairie PastTimes and a lady was singing. I had heard her before and she is really good. Sat and listened to her for a bit until my ass got sore from sitting on a wooden chair. Saw several friends as I walked up and down the street.
Came home and got the two beds made up. I was able to salvage the sheets the dogs opened the package they were in. One of the flat sheets has some light grass stain on it but it is the back-up set anyways that probably won’t get used.
Only got four eggs from my girls today. I need to get the heat lamp hooked up yet today while it is fairly nice outside. We are to get a hard freeze this week and I don’t want to have to thaw water.
While the Match experience is disappointing I did learn some new things about myself. That is always good! I have been surprised at myself that old thought patterns still activate and run when I get insecure. They don’t feel like my truth anymore but they sure can get me headed in the wrong direction for a bit. It is getting easier to stop them and turn them around but I do have to stay awake and alert to do so. I also need to work on some of my insecurities and the way I view my body. Not good enough came back into my mind again. I still struggle to see my new body shape and when I get insecure all I see is the loose skin and wrinkles.
Life is an interesting journey isn’t it? Full of life lessons if I am awake and ready to learn them. Knowing and trusting when I am ready the right partner will appear and I will wonder why I even thought it would never happen!
Grateful for my high self and the wisdom it gives me when I listen to it, grateful for all the friends I have in Chase County and the hugs I got today from them, and grateful for life lessons and the ability to grow and expand my ranges – even when the lessons suck!
Just a question Kay. You have studied extensively in your beliefs and lifestyle and you have many personal guide lines you follow in your life. Is there not a way to meet men in groups, events that follow the same beliefs. Even if you met a man that likes to travel or have long talks, or nights under the stars, etc it might not work out in the long run if he didn’t have the same beliefs. I have been proud of how cautious you have been. Keep up the good work on that.