Not a good day for me. I fell hard into the muck pond and it took most of the day to climb out of it. I was near tears most of the day. Thinking part of it is what is happening in the world right now but the other part was me throwing myself a pity party. All five kids, Jim’s brother and family and my sister were to have arrived today for our big wedding tomorrow. I was supposed to have been busy today cooking a big dinner for 20 people. I’m so sorry things worked out the way they did and our family couldn’t come be with us.
I have had a headache, a bit of a sore throat, some body aches and chills off and on all day today. I didn’t sleep very good last night and have been very tired today. Don’t think I am physically sick as much as soul sick. I’m sure I will feel better tomorrow after a good night’s sleep tonight.
I did get out and take a one mile walk alone today. Felt claustrophobic all day inside. It was only in the low 50’s today so I had to wear a heavy coat. It felt good to get outside and get some fresh air.
I got the Prius out and got it filled with gas. We are going to hire a transport to deliver it to David in Berkeley sometime either next week or the week after. It will be good to get the car to him.
I am going to KS Monday. Jim may have to wait a day as we need the plumber to come fix under the kitchen sink before he can leave. We aren’t sure when he is coming back or when I am coming back so we had already decided to take two cars in case we decide to come back on different days. I have a doctor’s appointment a week from Monday and Plan A is for me to come back to Stillwater after that.
When we made our plans originally I needed to be back on Sunday so I could do taxes on Monday. Taxes were stopped sometime ago so I don’t have them to come back for. I may decide to just stay in KS. I am so homesick for the prairie. I have been in Stillwater since the middle of December except for a few days here and there back on the prairie. My soul needs some wide open space and to reconnect to the sun and moon.
We loaded all the wedding stuff in my car so I can take it to Strong City. I have more storage space than Jim does. Not sure if and when we will be able to schedule a reception in Stillwater and Strong City so we can celebrate with our friends. It will depend on how long this crisis drags on. Starting to look like it will be fall if we are lucky before it will be safe to gather again. Does anyone drink Fresca or White Grape Juice? I have five containers of each that I won’t be able to use for a bit and not sure it will be good six months from now. I also have two batches of cream cheese mints that need eaten or thrown out. I won’t eat them as they have sugar in them. Holler at me if you would eat them and I will get them to you.
Just got notification that the oven I had ordered cannot be installed. They can deliver to outside my house but not install it. I tried to call them but the hold time was over two hours. I think I will cancel the order completely if they will let me do that. They were to come Thursday to deliver and install it. I certainly understand why they don’t want to come in people’s houses right now to do this type of work. It isn’t urgent that I have a new oven. I sure feel bad for businesses right now and all the adjustments they are having to make.
What a time to be living through. So much chaos and fear. Doing my best to stay grounded and out of fear. Tomorrow will be better!
Grateful to have climbed out of the muck pond this evening, grateful for fresh air and a walk today, and grateful I get to go to my prairie on Monday.