Another rough night. I was up three times running to the bathroom. When I got up this morning I had a rough two hours. I was getting close to waking Jim up to take me to get some help when things finally slowed down. I haven’t gone again today. I told Jim at lunch today that maybe this was my last rough day. He looked at me like I had three heads. I told him one day has to be the last rough day – why not today?
After I got to feeling better I went out and mowed for over an hour. Came in and took a nap and then went back out and finished mowing. It is still pretty wet in places but Jim hand mowed the very wet part of the back yard so I wouldn’t leave mower tracks in the yard. We got her done.
Jim is working on digging a trench to drain water away from the house in the back yard. It is slow and hard work but he is managing to get quite a long trench dug. It is full of water already.
Got a bit more house cleaning done today. I keep working at it and sooner or later – probably much later – I will get this house back into shape and cleaned. I seem to have a small burst of energy occasionally that I can tap in to. I am amazed at how tired I get. I am working to listen to my body and rest when it needs it.
I only ate crackers, toast and chicken noodle soup today. I miss eating vegetables, fat, fruit and protein. If I can get my tummy to calm back down again for two or three days I will try eating real foods again.
The guy that had been renting my barn came and cleared all his stuff out of it. Jim is getting ready to start building his shop and we needed clear access to that space. I wasn’t getting much money for rent and it was more of a bother than helpful to have the guy have it full of stuff. With all his stuff out of it Jim can easily park his second car in the barn and keep it safe from KS thunderstorms.
Being sick humbles me. I realize how much I take my healthy strong body for granted. It is so hard to see things that need done and not have the energy to do anything about them. I don’t like depending on others and feel like that is all I do these days. I never know from one hour to the next what my body is going to feel like doing – if anything.
Grateful I felt good for most of the day, grateful the yard is mowed, and grateful for what I was able to eat today.