It has been a lazy day at home. I didn’t sleep well last night. My blood pressure thing is wearing me out. It dropped way too low last night and I was dizzy when I would get up to go to the bathroom.
I didn’t feel well this morning. I forced myself to eat something and then took a nap. I have felt better since my nap.
I hate this roller coaster I am on. It reminds me back when I had COVID and took the antibodies and it screwed with my TSH levels. Hopefully next week we will get some answers and figure things out.
I am seriously considering changing doctors. I am upset with my family doctor. When I reported Friday that I am still struggling with my blood pressure he said go to the ED if you have problems. I was in touch with him early in the morning and he could have attempted to help me somehow. Instead he brushed me off. I try not to complain to my doctor every time I don’t feel well but when I do I expect them to hear me and do something.
I will call next week and see if the doctor I would like to change to is taking new patients. I think my current doctor has done as much for me as he can and it is time for a new set of eyes.
I went out to take a walk and was surprised to discover it is sprinkling out. I guess I forgot to check the forecast and I didn’t know we were to get rain today. This house is hard to hear the rain in and I didn’t realize it had been raining.
I still need to go to Emporia and get groceries. I didn’t feel like doing that today again. Maybe tomorrow will be the day. I don’t have anything on my calendar for next week except the rally in Topeka on Monday. Unless I feel much better tomorrow and Monday I probably won’t go. I do need to go to the post office in Emporia one day next week and get Max’s mail forwarding situation straightened out.
This is my fourth day to stay home. I haven’t stayed home that many days in a row for a long time. I haven’t gotten bored or felt the need to get out yet. Wonder how many days I can go before that would happen. My body is tired from the chaos of the last couple of months and has needed this quiet time to reset. Maybe if I allow a few more days it will reset on its own and the blood pressure thing will resolve itself.
Every time something like this happens it makes me realize once again how I can take my health for granted. I do need to become more aware of what I am feeding it and moving it and start doing the things that show my body I care for it. I tend to not practice good self-care when things get chaotic and it is time to get back at it.
My trip to India with Nicole is in a little over two months. That will be here before I know it. It is giving me a deadline to get this medical thing figured out so I can go knowing I can fully enjoy what I am seeing and doing. Right now going that far away seems impossible but trusting that answers will be forthcoming and things will get on a healing path soon.
Grateful for this quiet time at home, grateful for the healing that is headed my way, and grateful I have choices of who my healthcare provider is.