Starry night on the prairie

Another long day with two trips to town. I was in town by 9:00 this morning and did a tax shift at the Senior Center this morning. It was a relatively easy day and we were done by 11:00.

I went by Affordable Room Groups and bought a new bed. My bed frame will not survive a move and the mattress had failed sometime ago. Not sure if they are going to deliver to this house or to the new house. I am checking with the family buying this house to see if they want the old set or not. They had requested any extra beds I have be left in the house. Went and did my exercises at the Fitness Center and then headed home.

I took a short nap in my chair this afternoon after I had lunch. I didn’t want to get up this morning when my alarm went off and I have felt sleepy tired all day. Got up and did the chicken chores and then went back to Emporia.

I stopped at the Chiropractor and got adjusted and then went to the Credit Union for my evening tax shift. It was another easy shift and I got out before 7:00.

Came home and plan on doing nothing the rest of the day. I am still feeling sleepy tired so may take my bath and go to bed early. If I can find sleep I will take advantage and sleep.

Tomorrow I am going to Council Grove with a friend and we are having lunch. Tagen texted me and said he could come out after school tomorrow night to clean out the chicken coop so will help him do that and then feed him dinner.

Friday afternoon I have to go back to Emporia one more time this week for exercise. Hoping I can stay home this weekend. I need a down day or two or three.

I do need to get over to Cottonwood Falls to take some measurements of the existing garage that needs to be torn down as well as the foundation of the garage that has already been taken down. I also need to take some pictures of the building site for my builder. I need to get that done and to him by Friday afternoon. If I get up in time I will try to get over and take care of those things in the morning. If not I have time to do it on Friday morning.

So far next week is only a four trip to town week. I don’t have to do taxes Wednesday as someone is covering for me since I covered for her a couple weeks ago. I will have to go to town on Wednesday for exercise and the Chiropractor but that will make a much shorter day for me than today was.

We had a lovely Spring Equinox Ceremony last night and a fun little birthday party for Kathy before hand. I love gathering with my close friends and sharing our lives with each other. We try to celebrate the good times and hold each other during the hard times.

Moving day is six weeks from today. I still need to get downstairs and declutter all the rooms down there. The books will take the most time as I need to downsize them and I have lots to sort through. Most I got at the library book sale so I will return the ones I am not moving to the library. I may end up buying them back at some point. When books are $5 a grocery bag full I tend to not be too picky about what I bring home.

Sitting in a good head space tonight even with being tired. Last night was rejuvenating for me and filled my heart with joy and love. Still having the feels from that today. The tax returns today were easy for me and I enjoyed visiting with the people as I did them. They are usually very appreciative of our service and are patient with us while we work our way through everyone.

Grateful for the friends that gathered for Sacred Ceremony last night, grateful for short afternoon naps in my chair, and grateful I can go to bed early tonight.

Happy birthday to Kathy today. We will be having a little party for her later today. She had to work today with her hurt finger but managed to keep it dry. Trusting that this year will be a good one for her.

Tonight some friends are coming over to help celebrate Kathy’s birthday and then we are going to have our Spring Equinox Ceremony. I love this time with these friends and look forward to them every time we gather. The world would be a different place if everyone had a small group they could gather with and share their hopes, dreams and fears.

I met with the house builder. He is young but I liked him. He did a great job hearing what I asked for and figured out a way to make all that I asked for happen. We changed a couple of things while we were talking. Amazing to watch him make a few changes on his computer and like magic a wall moved. I am to take a couple days and make sure the plan is what I want. He is to start gathering prices from the subcontractors and give me a rough estimate of costs once I approve the final plans.

I have found two more changes I want to make and then I think I will be good to go with what he came up with. It will be small as it is only 1,200 square feet but that is what I want. I’m glad I will be living in the rental house for about a year before the new house is ready as that will help me get used to small.

His computer program showed me a 3D image of what it will look like inside and out. That helped make it feel real to me. I like the way the outside of the house looks in his plan better than the plan I gave him as a starting point. The inside works better too.

Seeing the actual floor plan makes it start to become real for me. It will be a long year waiting for it to be built but time goes by quickly and I will be in it before I know it.

He gave me a better idea of how the financial part will work and what I will be responsible for and what is included in his cost. I will be busy shopping for flooring, countertops, door handles, doors, cabinets, appliances, etc. in the coming months. I am not a good shopper so will have to figure out a way to shop without draining myself. Not sure I look forward to all the decisions that will have to be made but I will make them one at a time and work my way through them. When I hit overwhelm I will stop and give myself a break and go again. I can do this!

Doing some laundry and cleaning this afternoon. I took another car load of trash down to the curb for tomorrow. The pile in the barn keeps shrinking and I should be able to get it all gone before closing day. There are some big pieces I need to figure out how to make go away or maybe I will leave them for the next owners.

Tomorrow will be a long day as I have to go to town twice to do taxes. I’ll do exercise class after I get done doing taxes in the morning and then stop and see the Chiropractor before my evening tax shift. Thursday I am going to Council Grove for lunch with a dear friend and then Friday I have to go to Emporia for exercise class. No stay-at-home days for me this week.

The EFIS supplier reached out to me this morning. He knew about the missing filter thingy in the overhang and said the guys told him they needed some more time to do a bit more touch ups and clean up. He will let me know when they are coming back for the last bit of work. I appreciated him getting hold of me and letting me know he knew about the missing filter thingy. He has a good crew that works for him and they did a nice job.

The guttering is to be done next week sometime. I haven’t been told yet what day they are coming. Gosh it will feel good to get that done and have the hail restoration project completed. It took over seven months to get it all done. The insurance adjuster told me he was impressed I got it done that quickly.

We are having a family day March 30. Jason asked me what I was fixing and I told him I hadn’t got that far in planning and he offered to fix the main dish. How nice is that? Love when the kids surprise me with things like that. That will make that day even more fun for myself.

It is a beautiful spring day on the prairie today. Temperatures reached the mid 70’s. It is windy on my hill today though. Funny how the wind isn’t such a factor when I am in town. I must say the one thing I won’t miss about living here is the wind. Somedays the sound of it almost drove me over the limits of my sanity.

Sitting in a good place this afternoon. I’m excited a big step was taken towards building a house today. I liked the builder and feel like we are off on the right step together. This move will be a huge change for me on many levels but it feels so right that I am making this change. Time to simplify my life and downsizing will help do that. Sometimes I have to step outside my comfort zone and head in a new direction. I feel so supported by the Universe right now that I know this is what I am to do.

Grateful to see floor plans today that match what I want, grateful for this beautiful spring day, and grateful to get to celebrate Kathy tonight.

It turned into a two trip to town day. Kathy came home from town with a cut finger. She had fallen at iHop and cut it. It was rather deep and in a place that was going to have trouble healing without being held together. I took her to the hospital Urgent Care Clinic.

The waiting room at the Clinic was standing room only when we got there. It took them two hours before they called Kathy back. It only took about 20 minutes once she got taken back. They used Super Glue of sorts and then put Steri-strips on it and gave her a tetanus shot.

She may be sore tomorrow from both the shot and the fall. We shall see how she does. A kind couple that was going in the restaurant and saw Kathy fall, stopped to make sure she was OK.

We didn’t get home from the Clinic until after 1:15. I ate breakfast and then got ready to go back to town for my 3:00 exercise session. Exercise went OK today. It was only 37 minutes. I did stretches using a towel today. Something different for me and the time went fairly quickly.

After I finished exercises I went to Walmart to pick up a few groceries and somethings I needed for tomorrow’s ceremony. Got those and came home and put everything away. Went down and took care of the chicken chores. The girls gave me 22 eggs today. I have a big stash of eggs again if anyone needs some.

Tomorrow my special tax session got moved to next week due to a location unavailability. I do have to go to town though as I am meeting with my house builder at 1:00 to see the first draft of the floor plans. I sure hope they are close to what I want. Not sure how this whole process works so I will take a long list of questions for the builder. I do better when I understand a process and what to expect.

Tomorrow is Kathy’s birthday and our Spring Equinox ceremony. We are having a little party for Kathy before our ceremony so it will be a fun evening.

I realized today that Jim and I were married on March 19, 2020. That feels like a different lifetime ago to me now. I have moved on and have put that little (or big) mistake in my rear view window and try not to look back. I can’t change what happened but I can take the lessons I learned about myself and make myself a better person as a result.

Wednesday I have two tax shifts and an exercise class. It makes a long day to do two shifts in the same day. I’m grateful I enjoy doing taxes and the time goes fairly quickly. I prefer the days we are busy and don’t have time to sit around waiting for people to show up. You never know what type of day you are going to have until it happens.

Had trouble falling asleep last night. Finally got up and took a second hot bath and that did the trick. I got some good sleep after that. Didn’t feel rested when I got up this morning but was grateful I was finally able to find a bit of sleep.

I had done some Tonglen last week when I came home in a bit of a distressed mood about a tax situation. I was telling Nicole about it today and realized I hadn’t held on to the negative feelings I had experienced. Usually I have trouble letting those go. Tonglen had really helped me release them. I need to remember that and use it more often.

Grateful Kathy got her finger taken care of today, grateful groceries are put away for the week, and grateful for the practice of Tonglen.

The EFIS guys worked until 8:00 last night. They had arrived here around 8:30. A second crew joined them late afternoon. I can’t imagine working those types of hours week in and week out.

They showed up this morning around 8:45. I think there are five or six guys here today and they are finishing up this project. They have the east side cleaned up, down below cleaned up and are finishing up the west side now. They still have a couple hours of clean up to do and then they will be gone. So grateful that project got completed. Now to get the guttering guys here and the hail restoration will be complete.

I took a nap in my chair today. I had trouble getting going today and felt tired so decided to rest my eyes for a bit. Slept longer than I expected to but woke up feeling rested.

It is a windy day on the prairie today. Only reaching the low 50’s today with 25 MPH plus wind. At least the skies are bright blue and clear.

Haven’t done a thing today other than take a nap. One of those lazy days I guess. Don’t have anything pressing that needs done so decided to call this my lazy day and not even think too hard about finding something to do. Have a busy week coming up and I needed to take a day and rest.

Tagen hasn’t come out yet today to clean out the chicken coop and I have a feeling he won’t be out today. No worries, it can wait. I don’t really have to have it cleaned out before I move. I can add some material to the nesting boxes and call it good if needed.

Tomorrow I will go to town for exercise in the afternoon. I need to stop and get some groceries while I am in town. I also need to go to the rental house in Cottonwood Falls and measure the foundation of the old garage to see what needs to happen with that. Not thinking it will work but you never know.

Tuesday late morning I am doing a special tax session with a couple that needed some extra help. After that I am meeting with the house builder for the first time to see the first draft of floor plans. I’m excited to see what he came up with and am hoping they are fairly close to what I asked for. Tuesday evening is our Spring Equinox ceremony. I need to give some thought about what I want to do for that.

Wednesday I go to town twice to do taxes with exercise in between. Thursday I am going to lunch in Council Grove with a friend and Friday I go back to Emporia one more time for exercise. I won’t get a stay at home day all week.

I will send the guttering guy an email and let him know the EFIS guys are done. I had told the guttering guy any time after March 25 just to be safe. Not sure if he can move it up a week or not. Guess it doesn’t matter as long as he gets here and gets done before May 1.

It is nice to be able to see out the windows again and go out any door in the house I want to. It was starting to feel a bit claustrophobic in this house with all the windows and doors covered. I need lots of natural light to keep me grounded and centered. The sound of the plastic over the windows blowing in the wind was getting on my last nerve.

Having the EFIS guys here was good practice on holding two opposing thoughts at the same time. I was grateful they were here doing the work and I was wishing they were done and gone. The disruption in my quiet daily life was annoying and yet I knew it had to be done. When I would get especially worked up over the noise and discomfort of them being here, I would remind myself of how good it will feel to get the work done. It helped reduce my frustration and kept me better grounded.

Feeling a bit out of sorts today. Realizing this in-between-time is wearing on me. I am ready to get this move over and done with. Still over six weeks to go. Time is going by quickly and I am staying busy but I am ready to have it done and over with. I am an action type gal and sitting and waiting is not my strength. Good practice for me to have to wait and see what comes up for me during this time.

Grateful the EFIS project will be done today, grateful for Sunday afternoon naps, and grateful I can have a do nothing day when I need one.

It was fun listening to Ellexia and her friend giggle into the night last night. I managed to keep them fed and they had a good time. I attempted to fix s’mores for them but the marshmallows were way past their fluffy days and were hard as rocks. They ate the chocolate bar and graham crackers. When I don’t have regular visitors some things don’t get replaced. Ooops.

I deep cleaned the refrigerator today. I took it all apart and washed everything. It was way over due to have a bath. I should have taken a picture of it before I removed everything but I managed to get it all back together again with no parts left over. It was nasty dirty. It sure looks nicer now. Don’t know why I put off cleaning tasks like that but I seem to be able to do so. I still need to clean the freezer part out but I don’t think it is so dirty. I’ll see if I manage to get that done today or not.

I fixed the girls pancakes and scrambled eggs this morning. One got chocolate chip pancakes and the other got blueberry pancakes. They both ate well and cleaned up their plates when they were done. I was in the middle of cleaning out the refrigerator when they came up for breakfast so they had to eat around refrigerator parts.

The EFIS workers showed up around 8:30 this morning. I saw one of the dogs act like someone was here so I looked out the kitchen window. One of the workers was watering one of my little trees in the front yard with yellow water. A car drove by while he was in the act. They do have access to a bathroom inside but going outside must feel good! Oh well! To be honest I have done the same thing when I am out mowing before. At least they came and are working hard at finishing up this project.

They had a bit of a disagreement about something this morning. Their voices were rather loud and sounded angry. I don’t speak Spanish so not sure what was behind it all. They seemed to have worked through it and are back to normal voices this afternoon. It will be nice when they are done.

For a bit this morning they were scrapping the sides of the house by the living room. It sounded like fingernails on a chalkboard. Yikes. I had to do something to distract me so I cleaned out the refrigerator. Grateful to have gotten that project done. Sometimes things happen in strange ways around here.

Sometime later this afternoon I will need to take the girls to town. I may stop and get a few groceries while I am in town. I had grabbed a few when I went to Council Grove early last week but didn’t get all I needed. I shall see what mood I am in and if I can handle Walmart today. Some days I can, some days I can’t. I have to go to town Monday for exercise and can get groceries then if I decide to wait.

I went to Cottonwood Falls Friday to deliver the application for the shed at my rental property. I drove by the rental property to eyeball the spot where I want the shed put. I realized there is an old foundation from where a garage used to be still there. I need to go measure it and see if by chance the shed can sit on the old foundation or if I need to find someone to remove the foundation. Things seem complicated to me sometimes. I had forgotten I have an old boat that is parked back there that needs to go away. I tried to find someone to take it away before and didn’t have any luck and then I forgot about it. I’ll have to add that little project to my to-do list and get that taken care of before the shed gets delivered.

Tagen may come out tomorrow to help me clean out the chicken coop. If he comes, I need to figure out something to fix for him to eat. I’ll lay some chicken out today so it will be ready to be cooked if he comes. This will be the last time I have to have the coop cleaned out. The chickens are staying here and the new house owner will be the proud owner of 25 chickens and one rooster. I will miss the fresh eggs but not the cost of the feed and the daily care of the chickens and I will not miss having to clean out the coop.

Feels good to have gotten something done today. It feels like it has been a hot minute since I have done something productive. I have gotten too good at doing nothing most days. Going to town four or five times a week is taking it out of me right now. I’m looking forward to when tax season is over and I only have to go three times a week for exercise. Even three times a week is too much but it will feel like less since I have been going five or six times a week lately.

Less than seven weeks to go before close. Sure hope things proceed without a hiccup. Not sure what I will do if by chance the buyer backs out. He is to have some inspections done and has the right to back out if they find something serious he doesn’t want to deal with. Can’t imagine that will happen but one never knows. He already knows I’m not paying for anything the inspections find. If he backs out, I will still attempt to find a buyer and I will still move to the smaller house. It would just complicate things for a bit.

Grateful the EFIS guys are here and getting this project completed, grateful the refrigerator is clean and grateful Ellexia and her friend spent the night and filled the house with youthful laughter.

Seven weeks and counting. Time is flying by. May 3 will be here before I know it. The decluttering project is almost done. Now I have to wait for some more time to pass before I can start packing.

Went to Emporia for my 2:00 exercise class. Stopped at Cottonwood Falls to drop off my permit application so I can put a shed on my new property. I won’t hear back until after April 1 if it was accepted. Not sure what I will do if it isn’t.

Exercise was OK. There was another student in the class with me as well as the trainer. He is quiet and we don’t talk much when he is there so the time goes a bit slower. We do the same exercises three days in a row so by the third day they are rather familiar. I’ll have a new set to learn next week.

Picked up Ellexia and then we picked up her best friend. They are spending the night. We made a stop at Panda Express for lunch and then a quick stop at Casey’s for chips. We are home for the night and they are getting settled. It will be fun to have them here for the night. I am fixing them hot dogs with macaroni and cheese for dinner and they want pancakes with eggs for breakfast. I don’t have many snacks in the house so hopefully I can keep them from starving while they hear.

I remembered to park down at the barn when i got home. The EFIS guys are to be here again tomorrow morning and I wanted to be able to get my car out to take the girls home tomorrow. I haven’t heard from the EFIS boss guy yet confirming they are coming but am expecting them here. I’ll be disappointed if they don’t come. Hoping it will be a full crew and they can get that project finished up this weekend. I’m tired of my doors and windows taped up with plastic. I miss going out the doors and being able to open windows.

I plan on staying home most of the weekend. I will take Ellexia and her friend home sometime tomorrow but other than that I think I get to stay home all weekend. Don’t have much on my to-do list but there is always cleaning that needs done if I get to looking for something to do. Time seems to pass whether I am busy or not.

Next week I have to go to town Monday for exercise, Tuesday to help a couple do taxes and then I will get to go see the floor plans for the new house. Wednesday I go to town twice for taxes, a Chiropractor visit and exercise and then I will have to go back one more time on Friday for exercise. It will be a five trip to town week again. I spend way too much time in my car these days.

Tuesday is Spring Equinox and some friends are coming over Tuesday evening so we can have sacred ceremony. That is always a treat for me and I look forward to our gathering. Next time we meet after this one will be at my new house.

I sure could take a nap this afternoon. I actually got a good night’s sleep last night but as usual when that happens I am sleepier the next day than normal. I need to walk down and take care of the chickens. Maybe that will wake me up a bit and I can stay up until bedtime.

Sitting in a peaceful valley this afternoon. Things seem to be falling into place and things are moving forward with the move. It was such a relief to hear from the house builder yesterday and to have a date to see the floor plans. I will be really happy when we are able to break ground for the new house. He told me it can take several months to finalize the floor plans as he doesn’t allow changes once we start building. I hope he is on the right track with what he has come up with and we can reduce that timeline.

Grateful Ellexia and her friend are spending the night, grateful the permit application got turned it today, and grateful for the sleep I got last night.

Went to Council Grove with a dear friend and had lunch. The time spent with her was a balm for my soul today. I really need to remember to do this more often. I thrive on heart-to-heart conversations with women I deeply care for and love.

The drive over to Council Grove was lovely. That is a wonderful drive through the Flint Hills and I enjoy it every time I go. Not much traffic and the open vistas are a sight for sore eyes. Spring is busting forth on the prairie. The trees are leafing out and the spring flowers are blooming.

We dodged the thunderstorm last night. There were tornadoes and huge hail to the north and east of me. Grateful to have been spared all that this time. I need the rain but sure don’t need the damage the high winds, hail and tornadoes can bring.

Haven’t gotten much done today. I woke up at 5:30 and couldn’t go back to sleep. I’m tired this afternoon so may need to take a nap. It is nice out today so probably should go clean out the garage today. It would be a good day to do that project if I can find the energy and motivation to do so.

Tomorrow I have to go to Emporia for exercise at 2:00. Not sure I have anything else to do while I am in town. Ellexia might come home with me and spend the night. We shall see if something more exciting came up for her or if she still wants to come spend the night.

No plans for the weekend. The EFIS guys should be here and hopefully finish up the project this weekend. They still have to coat all the west side and a small part of the east side. It will depend on how large the crew is if they can get done or not. The guttering guys are coming the week of March 25 so hoping the EFIS guys get done before that or I will have to postpone the guttering crew.

Feeling a bit more grounded today after having lunch with my friend. I think I came up with a solution for my problem from last night. We shall see what happens next week. Feeling better about it all though. Will give it my best shot and see what happens.

Have a bit of a headache today. Probably from lack of sleep and not eating right but the unstable weather pattern adds to it too. Gotta love KS in the spring time. Spring allergy season has arrived early on the prairie this year. Wonder if the mosquitos will arrive early too?

Tagen may be coming out Sunday to help me clean out the chicken coop one more time before I move. I told him I would fix him lunch if he would come out. We shall see if he remembers to come. I can bet what he will want me to fix to eat – chicken strips, macaroni and cheese, and a pudding dessert thing.

I am meeting with my house builder next Tuesday to see the first rendering of the house plans. I’m so excited. Hopefully the builder understood what I am looking for and will have something close to what I want. Anxious to get the house building process started and plans finalized. It will make it feel more real to see actual plans.

Things do fall into place and get resolved sooner or later. I have to keep reminding myself that time is an illusion and to not get hung up on “my time table”. Life flows better when I can let go of expectations of when and how things might unfold.

Grateful for lunch with a dear friend, grateful we dodged the thunderstorm last night, and grateful for a meeting with the house builder.

Another long day with two trips to town. Went in to Emporia this morning and dropped ten more boxes off at Salvation Army. Then went to the Senior Center and did my tax shift.

I was five minutes late getting to exercise at noon today due to a complicated tax case. My trainer was understanding and we got through my exercises. My heart rate was lower at the end of doing exercises than it was when I started. I was a bit stressed when I got to the gym.

Took Ellexia out to lunch when I finished up exercising. I hadn’t seen her for a long time and it was great getting some one-on-one time with her. She has grown up lately and we had a good conversation over lunch.

Came home and took a short nap in my chair. I was exhausted again this afternoon.

Took care of the chickens and then went back to town. Stopped at the Chiropractor for my weekly adjustment and then went to my evening tax shift. Had a hard shift tonight with a very complicated case. Came home with a heavy heart.

So far it looks like we have missed the severe weather that is north of us. Trusting it stays away from us. I have scaffolding on the east side of the house and I would hate for high winds to blow it over and into the house. I really would love to have this house hold together for seven more weeks.

I may go to bed early tonight. I am exhausted tonight. Not sure if it is because I was around people today or the hard case I had this evening or the lack of sleep last night. Maybe a combination of all three. I sure trust I can get some good sleep tonight and wake up feeling refreshed in the morning.

Tomorrow I am having lunch with a dear friend. Good timing of that as my heart needs a lift. Friday I go back to Emporia one more time this week for exercise in the afternoon. The EFIS guys are coming back this weekend to hopefully finish up this project and I think I get to stay home all weekend. I need to refill.

Next week I will only do taxes on Wednesday twice. Doing them four tines this week was too much. I don’t do well when I have to go to town twice a day on two different days a week. I need more down time than that allows. I will still have to go to town three times next week but that is much better than five or six like I have done last week and this week.

Feeling a bit out of sorts tonight. The inequality of the world hit me in the face tonight and I don’t understand why our system is so broken. I wish the politicians would have to face some of the people that bear the consequences of the actions they take. It is easy to not see the hidden members of society and the domino effect that happens when policy changes. It makes me very sad and angry. We have a record number of millionaires and billionaires and yet we don’t have the resources to provide a basic safety net for those less fortunate. I’m not sure how to process all this and what to do about it. I will do some Tonglen tonight and see if I can move some of this heavy energy out of my body.

It’s been a hard day. Felt good to come home and do some deep breathing and release some of the pent up frustration at a system too big for me to wrap my head around. I don’t have the power to change it but there has to be something I can do as an advocate and voice for those that have no voice. The question of the day for me is what to do now?

Grateful for the time with Ellexia today – it was a bright spot in a hard day, grateful for a short afternoon nap, and grateful that the storm has avoided us so far.

Another night where sleep was hard to find. I finally feel asleep around 5:00 this morning. I was sleeping pretty good when my phone rang around 9:30. Four and one-half hours of sleep is better than none – right?

The garage door people came to fix the remote for the garage door opener. The only problem was the lock button on the wall opener had gotten turned on. I had never notice there was a lock button on that opener. Dang it anyways. That was an expensive service visit to teach me that lesson. It will be nice to get to use my garage again.

I haven’t gotten much done today. Another low energy type of day. Still waiting on the internet repair guy to come. The internet has started working on and off today. The wind is rather brisk and it must have blown the receiver back into position. I’m going to let the repair guy go ahead and come and maybe he can fasten the receiver down a bit so it will stay in place.

I was waiting for the funds for the painting of the deck from the insurance adjuster. I finally got hold of him today and he told me he paid those out when the claim was first filed. Uhm…. I’ll have to go back and verify that. I hadn’t realize that if that was what was done. Good to know I have already received them though. Not sure why he didn’t tell me that two weeks ago when I sent him an email asking if he had received the bill.

I called my house builder but haven’t heard back from him. He was to be working on drawing up the floor plans and was to have gotten hold of me a week ago to make an appointment so I could see what he has done. I haven’t heard from him. If he doesn’t get back to me soon, I may have to choose another builder. He may be showing me who he is and how he works by his poor communication. I tend to give people too many chances and this guy has been anything but prompt in responding to my messages.

It has been a good day to stay home. I am still a bit cranky and would not be able to people well today. I have another long day tomorrow as I have to make two trips to town to do two tax shifts and exercise in between and I need to recharge a bit to handle that.

I have eight more boxes ready to load up in my car to take to the Salvation Army while I am in Emporia tomorrow. I still want to get a closet cleaned out in the laundry room and may find another box or two to add to the pile. I can’t believe how much stuff I am finding to get rid of. Good to have it gone. I don’t think I could tell you too many things I got rid of and know I won’t miss any of it. Makes me wonder why I hadn’t gotten rid of it before.

I need to take the trash to the curb and load my car up with bags from the barn to take down with it. I love seeing all that stuff leave the barn and free up space and energy. The trash can isn’t very full this week so I might be able to get a few extra bags taken to the curb today. Still have seven weeks to go so should be able to get it all taken care of before close.

Realized today part of the crankiness I am feeling is from sitting in the in-between space. I have an underlying sense of urgency inside that makes me feel like I need to be doing something right now but I can never figure out what it is that is urgent that needs done. I am in really good shape with the decluttering project and there really isn’t anything urgent that needs done. It is my sense of being uncomfortable with this in-between space that is causing the urgency. Reminding myself that is what is behind this feeling helps me to relax and allow it to be what it is. May it be so!

Grateful for a full day at home, grateful to cross some pending issues off my list, and grateful for figuring out what is behind my crankiness.

A long day today. I had to be in Emporia at 9:00 this morning to do my first tax shift of the day. We weren’t too busy and I got done early. On my way to the Senior Center this morning I dropped off 10 boxes at the Salvation Army. I took a box of homemade face masks to the Senior Center. They were glad to get them as they have some Seniors that want to wear them but can’t afford the disposable ones.

After I got finished doing taxes, I went to Walmart to pick up a prescription and a few groceries. The Tirosint that I take for my thyroid has gone up to $158 a month this year. Last year it was $75 a month. Yikes. My body doesn’t absorb the Synthroid pill so had to switch to the liquid form. Dang! My prescription insurance doesn’t cover this drug.

Came home and put groceries away. I called the internet people and they did some troubleshooting but couldn’t fix the problem. They are sending out a repair guy tomorrow late afternoon.

I took a short nap in my chair and then went back to Emporia. I did exercise for 45 minutes today and then grabbed dinner and then did another tax shift. All the returns tonight were super simple and we got done early.

Came home and am going to crash. I am really tired tonight. I slept better last night than I have for several weeks – finally! Hoping it is a sign of more good sleep to come.

I have two repair guys coming tomorrow. One to fix my garage door opener and the other to repair the internet. I think I have the morning free so will try to get back to the decluttering project and get another closet or two or three cleaned out. I need to clean house too. I noticed when I came home tonight how dirty the house is. I haven’t cleaned it for quite a while and it is reaching the point where I have to do something about it.

Wednesday I am doing two tax shifts again with exercise in between shifts. I will come home for a short break but then go back to town again in the late afternoon. Thursday I am going to lunch with a friend and then Friday I will go back to Emporia in the afternoon for exercise. Hoping to be able to stay home this weekend. The EFIS guys should come finish up that project.

I got the bill for the booster pump replacement today. Yikes! It was another reminder as to why this house needs to be in the hands of someone else. It is taking all my money from me to keep it going. The bill was about twice what I expected it to be. Hoping this booster pump will last much longer than the other brand did although I guess that won’t be my problem as long as it lasts until May 3.

I have a couple of phone calls to make tomorrow if I am in the mood to make them. I never know if I can make calls or not. Since I get to stay home all day I might be able to.

Feeling a bit cranky tonight. It was a long and busy day and I didn’t have much down time today. I’m so tired of having to get repair people out here and that seems to be what I spend a lot of my time doing these days. Sure hope that decreases when I move to the next house. I’m about at my limit of repairs.

It got up to the low 70’s today. Another beautiful spring like day on the prairie. Winter seems to have receded for the year. We still could get one or even two more blasts of cold weather before it is gone but days like today sure give me faith that spring has sprung.

Grateful I get to stay home all day tomorrow, grateful for the 10 boxes of stuff that is out of the house, and grateful this long day is coming to an end.

I won’t get started on my thoughts about daylight savings time. Doesn’t do any good to bitch about the stupidity of thinking you can increase the hours of daylight by rearranging the clock. Sometimes the thinking power of humans amazes me in not a good way!

Got my bedroom finished up decluttering today. Also finished up the living room and the kitchen. Went through the drawer full of warranty and instruction booklets and sorted out the ones I will need to take and the ones that remain with the house. Have eight more boxes ready to go to town but my car is full so they will have to wait until I take the load I have in my car now. Hope to do that tomorrow.

The EFIS guys were here at 8:00. I was still in bed but heard them and got up in case they needed something from me. They waved at me through the window but I haven’t talked to them today. They are finishing up the east side and doing the top of the house and the north side today. They haven’t gotten to the west side yet so doubting that they will finish up today. They will need at least one more day if not two. Maybe by the end of next weekend they will be finished.

They had to take down the internet receiver. Trusting they will be able to replace it and it will work without having to call out the service guy. I’m using cellular data to get on the internet this afternoon. Good thing there isn’t a football game on that I wanted to watch.

Think I will bake a batch of cookies and share with the crew for their afternoon coffee break time. They left for an hour for lunch and went somewhere to eat. They usually stop around 3:00 or so and take a 15 minute afternoon coffee break.

It is a beautiful day on the prairie today. It has reached the mid 60’s today. We have some wind but not too brisk. The guys are enjoying the warmer day we are having.

Got a bit more sleep last night than I have been getting but still feeling a bit tired this afternoon. I am so far in sleep debt that it would take several weeks of good sleep to get me out of this hole. Maybe last night was the start of a new way of sleeping for me. I was up and down quite a bit last night but did manage to get more sleep than I have been getting.

I have to be in town at 9:00 in the morning to do taxes. I have exercise at 3:00 and then another tax shift at 5:00. I will come home in between taxes and exercise but will stay in town between exercise and my second tax shift. I can find something to do for an hour or so. It will be a long day though. I’m working tomorrow for one of the ladies that needed to take care of some family business.

Thinking about driving to OK or TX to see the solar eclipse in April. I want to go to a place that will be 100% in the path of the eclipse. It is about a six hour drive to the two places I am thinking about so might make it an overnight trip. Driving over 12 hours in one day doesn’t sound like too much fun. Anyone want to ride along?

I remember when I hired a bus and took 15 friends with me to celebrate my birthday several years ago. We went to Atchinson to the Abbey to view the eclipse. It was a rainy day but we had so much fun.

I realized yesterday that I have become too focused on moving and am forgetting to stop and smell the roses and take some time for fun. I am almost done with the decluttering project. Only have the garage as my last big project and then some rooms downstairs. Waiting on someone to come visit us for a long weekend before I can finish up downstairs. I need to take some time to relax and catch my breath before the big move.

Sitting in gratefulness that the EFIS project is about 70% done. One more weekend and that can get crossed off my list. Then the guttering guys can come and finish the hail restoration project up. With the booster pump fixed that will complete my list of things I was responsible to fix before the sell. Yay! I will be even more grateful when I get the last payout from the insurance guy for the deck and guttering.

In a bit of a dark head space today. Not sure what that is about yet. I think I need to take a step back from all that is happening and allow all parts of my body to catch up with each other. Hard to keep myself in balance and in sync.

Grateful for the movement on the EFIS project this weekend, grateful the giant decluttering project is well underway, and grateful I know what I need to do to take better care of myself.

The EFIS guys showed up as promised at 8:00 this morning. They are applying product to the east side of the house as I type. They had lots of prep work to do today before they could start that. There were only four on the crew today. They are to have a bigger crew tomorrow and there is an outside chance that they will get finished tomorrow but I wouldn’t bet the ranch on it. The west side is big and they have the upper back west side to do too. Grateful for the progress they made today. It will be nice to be able to go out the doors of the house when they get done.

I took a nap this afternoon and got a bit more sleep. I slept some last night but not enough yet. I am very sleep deprived right now and I will take sleep whenever I can find it. I feel more rested this afternoon after my nap then I have for over a week.

I got the results of my thyroid TSH levels back and they were spot on. I think they were 2.7. My goal is 1.5 – 2.5 so very close to goal. It is almost impossible to hit goal so anything close to it is good. It is reassuring to know that Covid without Paxlovid didn’t affect my levels. I have been using up some boxes of medication that range from 100 – 112 – 125. Each box costs me $75 and I didn’t want them to go to waste. I am finally on my last box and will need to get some more ordered. Feels good to have used those others up and know that it didn’t bother my levels.

I cleaned out my cedar chest today and found several boxes of things to get rid of. I have a couple more boxes to fill up from stuff in the cedar chest. I scratch my head and wonder why I was saving what was in there. I also cleaned out the under the window storage box and got it emptied out. A little progress made today on the giant decluttering project. I will keep at it and by May 1 will be done. The biggest rooms are done and now I am down to the little spaces.

I need to spend an hour tomorrow carrying boxes from the living room to my car. I bet I have at least 20 or more of them to take to my car and then deliver to the Salvation Army. I’m getting tired of looking at them and want them out of my house. I got behind on taking them a few at a time and now have to pay the price and do a huge haul off.

Less than eight weeks till moving day. I made a list of all the places I still need to declutter. While the list is long, the spaces are not big and each one won’t take more than an hour at best. It feels doable to me. It sure will make packing easier to know that everything left gets packed and I won’t have to sort and pack at the same time. Wish I had a better sense of what I will have room for. I’m purging pretty deep as it is but guess one can always get rid of even more things. I can purge as I unpack if needed.

Tomorrow I plan on staying home all day again. I couldn’t get out today as the guys put scaffolding behind my car in the garage. I wanted to go to the Chase County Craft Fair today but didn’t think to get my car out of the way before the guys started. It felt good to stay home today and it will be good to stay home again tomorrow. Monday will be a two trip to town type of day and a long one at that. I get to stay home next Tuesday but then I have to make two trips to town on Wednesday. I will stay home Thursday and only have to make one trip to town on Friday.

I feel myself disconnecting a bit from this house with every box I pack. I saw a post on Facebook from a guy I follow that said giving away your personal items is good practice of learning how to let go. I look back to 20 years ago when I started my journey into minimalism and I hadn’t connected the dots before but I have to agree with him. It is much easier for me to let go of most everything these days be it materialistic things or emotional baggage. I had never thought of letting go of material things as practice for letting go of emotional things before. Grateful I began this journey years ago and realize it is not a journey that has an end point. Letting go is a daily practice.

It has been a beautiful day on the prairie today. It was a bit cold this morning but it has warmed up to the lower 50’s with bright blue skies. Tomorrow it is to warm up to the mid 60’s. The trees are starting to bud out and the spring flowers are blooming where they are planted with some protection from the wind and cold. Spring has sprung!

Grateful for a long afternoon nap, grateful the EFIS project is being completed, and grateful I got to stay home all day today.

Eight weeks from today I will close on the sell of this house. Tick, tick, tick. The time is ticking down. Eight weeks sounds like a lot of time but time seems to be flying by. I think I can. I think I can.

The plumbers showed up with the new booster pump this morning. It gave them a run for their money to get it installed (or maybe a run for my money) but they got it done after two trips to town for parts. Grateful to be able to cross that off my pending list. It had been on there for over five months. I was getting tired of having water on the floor of the furnace room. Fingers crossed the new one will hold together until after May 3.

The EFIS boss let me know he is only sending four guys tomorrow to work on the house so they will not be finishing the job this weekend. He may send a full crew on Sunday but doubt that they will get it done even if all 10 show up Sunday. What’s one more week – right? We shall see how far they can get.

Last night the guy from Wichita showed up to buy one of the solid core oak doors. While I was waiting for him to show up I finished sorting the barn stuff and have the small pile I am taking from there all stacked and ready to go. Michelle will need to come get her stuff out of the barn and get her camper and then the barn will be done. Felt good to cross that project off my list. I still have lots of bags of trash to haul to the curb every Tuesday between now and May 1 but I will get it all down there sooner or later.

I packed a few more boxes of stuff from the pantry and I think the pantry is ready to be crossed off my list. It sure looks like there is a lot of stuff in there to pack but what is left is all stuff I use. I have a feeling I am going to run out of cabinet space at the small house but we shall see. The house has a back porch that I plan on storing anything that isn’t temperature sensitive.

Went to town this afternoon for exercise. Got part way to town and realized I had forgotten my Fitbit so had to turn around and come back home to get it. Stopped and had a blood draw done to check my thyroid levels post Covid and then went to exercise. Another participant from the research study joined my lesson today. It took 48 minutes for our video today and the time went fairly quickly. Came home when I was done as I wasn’t in the mood to run any errands.

I haven’t gotten the results of the Thyroid levels yet. Usually they have them to me before I get home but they must have gotten busy in the lab and haven’t gotten to them yet. I had my levels checked early in February when I had my semi-annual visit with my family doctor. I wanted to see if they had changed much since my bout with Covid. I didn’t take Paxlovid this time but was curious to see what my levels did after having Covid.

I think I get to stay home for the next two days. I’m tired of going to town once or twice a day all week long. Next week I will have to go twice a day on both Monday and Wednesday and then once on Friday. Hoping I can stay home on Tuesday and Thursday next week. I do better when I don’t go to town everyday of the week.

Didn’t sleep very much again last night. I slept for an hour or two but woke up around midnight and was up until around 4:00. I woke up at 7:00 and at 7:30 decided to get up. I knew the plumbers were coming and I wanted to be up and dressed for when they got here. They didn’t come until after 9:00 so could have tried to sleep for another hour. Maybe tonight will be the night that I get lots of sleep. I am way overdue for a good night’s sleep.

It was too cold today to take the boxes to the Salvation Army. I will get them loaded up this weekend and take them Monday. Not sure they will all fit in one trip but I will take a car load when I go in to do taxes Monday morning. I have to go back to town Monday afternoon so can take another load if needed then.

It is only 38 degrees out right now. It has gotten colder as the day has gotten longer. It is windy out too which makes it feel even colder. I don’t look forward to going down to see the chickens in a bit. I am tired of cold weather and so ready for spring to come and stay. It has been cloudy today but we didn’t get any more rain. Tomorrow the sun is to return and it is to warm up to the mid 50’s. It will be even warmer on Sunday. Sounds like it will be a beautiful weekend. Grateful I get to stay home and enjoy it.

Feeling a bit ungrounded and just about to cross over into cranky land this afternoon. I’m tired and having another low energy type of day. I don’t feel like I have gotten much done this week yet I look at the piles of boxes that need to go to the Salvation Army and know that I have gotten some things taken care of. Maybe what I am feeling is a bit of overwhelm again. Eight weeks till closing day and it feels like there is a lot left to do before then. I learned some time ago though that it isn’t in my best and highest interest to push myself when I am not feeling it. I’m sure if I could get some good sleep my energy levels will come back and I can get a lot done in a short amount of time.

Grateful to be able to stay home this weekend, grateful one of the oak doors is gone, and grateful the booster pump is fixed.

Rainy day on the prairie. Not sure how much we have gotten as my rain gauge is down. There are nice puddles everywhere. I’ll have to wear my muck boots when I do chicken chores in a bit. The sun has come out this late afternoon although it is still partly cloudy. Nice to see the sun for a bit today.

Went to the Vo-Tech to have my teeth cleaned this afternoon. Abby did a great job. It took almost two hours but she stuck with it and got them done. She graduates in May so I will have a new person next fall.

I filled eight more boxes to take to the Salvation Army. These boxes hold treasures (or junk) from my master bedroom closet. I still have some more to go through to get the last of it out of that closet and then I have the other closet in the master bedroom to go through. Yikes! I thought I had scaled down before. Finding lots to get rid of.

I found a full box of face masks I had made back in 2020. I will send them to the Salvation Army but am thinking they will probably throw them away. Maybe I should just do that for them. I made over 1,500 of them back in the day when we couldn’t find disposable ones. No one wears homemade masks any more though. Wonder if museums are collecting some of the homemade ones to save to show future generations of what we did to survive in 2020?

I didn’t do much this morning. I didn’t sleep much again last night. I finally fell asleep around 3:30 this morning and I slept until 7:00. Not enough sleep has me feeling a bit off today. I’m so tired but am unable to find sleep. I really wish I could find a solution to my sleep issues. I’m starting to get a bit desperate for a good night’s sleep.

Still need to do my 12 minutes of exercises for the day. After I do chicken chores I will get those done. Not feeling very energetic today and am going in slow motion.

Tomorrow afternoon I have to go back to Emporia for the sixth time this week. I will do exercises and then I have an errand to run if I am in the mood for it. I need to get my car loaded with boxes to take to the Salvation Army and get them out of my dining room. I feel like I am being displaced by boxes. Hopefully I can take those in tomorrow.

Truly hoping I can stay home all weekend. I need a couple days of staying home. Not sure if the rain we got will prevent the EFIS guys from coming this weekend or not. Sure would like to see them show up Saturday morning and get that project completed. We shall see what happens.

Next week I am doing taxes twice a day on both Monday and Wednesday. I am filling in for someone that has to go out of town. That means I will get to take at least five trips to town next week. So far it looks like I will get to stay home Tuesday and Thursday so that will help.

The guy that wants the solid core oak door messaged me asking if I would be home around 5:30 tonight. He might be able to break free to come get the door. He said he would let me know. 5:30 is about an hour from now and I haven’t heard from him yet. Not sure what is up with this guy but not really expecting him to show up.

I need to get brave and complete the paperwork so I can get a permit to have the shed at the house in Cottonwood Falls installed. I don’t like doing paperwork like that as it feels like it is written in a language I don’t understand. I will have to do it three times as I will also need a permit to tear down the garage that is on the property as well as a permit to build the new house. Those two permits can wait a bit as they are only good for 90 days. Too early to apply for them.

On the verge of being cranky today. I think I am more sleepy than cranky but it wouldn’t take much to push me into cranky territory. I don’t like low energy days when I have lots of stuff to do. Maybe with the sun coming out it will brighten up my day and pull me out of this funk.

Grateful my teeth are cleaned, grateful more boxes are filled and ready to leave this house, and grateful for the rain on the prairie today.

Busy day. I was in Emporia by 9:00 this morning to do a tax shift. I didn’t get done until 11:45 and should have stayed a bit longer but I had to get to exercise at 12:00.

Did exercise for 45 minutes and then went to the Chiropractor. I stopped for lunch and then came home. By then it was almost 2:30. I fell asleep in my corner chair and didn’t wake up until 4:00.

I quickly did chicken chores and went back to Emporia for my evening tax shift. We had a busy evening and I was done around 7:30. Came home and collapsed. I am worn out from the day and not getting good sleep again last night.

I stopped at Sutherland’s and got a new tool box. The other one I had was a bag and a strap on it broke and it was hard to manage. Got a box this time – we shall see how long it lasts.

I forgot to take the boxes to Salvation Army today so will try to remember to do that tomorrow when I go back to Emporia to go to my dental appointment. My appointment is at 1:00 and I probably won’t be done until 3:00 or after. I go to the Vo-Tech and they take a long time to clean my teeth as they have to get their instructors approval after each step.

The garage door people texted me today to tell me they will be out on March 12 to fix my garage door opener. Dang, sure wish they could come sooner but I guess I will take them when they can get here. I miss parking in my garage.

Still haven’t heard from the plumber about the booster pump. He was to have come last Friday to install it but didn’t show up. Guess he will come when he can. Sure wish he would let me know when that might be.

Hoping tomorrow morning I can get back to the decluttering project. I haven’t done anything on that project since Monday. Time is clicking down and I need to get that project finished up so packing will be easy and quick. I have a little over eight weeks to go and time is slipping away fast.

Friday I go back to Emporia for the sixth time this week for exercise class in the afternoon. Sure hoping I can stay home all weekend. I’m worn out from going to town everyday this week. I’m hoping the weather is warm enough and dry enough that the EFIS guys can come back and finish up that project this weekend. We shall see if they can come and if they come if they can get it all finished up. That will be a huge relief to get that project completed.

No plans for the weekend except lots of decluttering. It will feel really good to stay home for two days in a row. The biggest adjustment I have had to make with the exercise program is making three trips a week to town to do them. Doing taxes adds to the number of trips a week too. It’s a big change for me as I used to only go to town twice a week at most. I am a routine type of person and love staying home.

Even with all the busyness of the day, I was able to stay above the neutral level. Taxes are fun for me this year and it is easier for me to ask for help when I don’t know something. Time goes by fast when I am doing them and the people are so appreciative of the service we are providing. I am humbled by them and wonder how people survive on so little income.

I’m really tired tonight even with taking a nap today. Sleep has been very hard for me to find lately and the lack of it is catching up with me. Every night I think tonight is the night where I will get lots of sleep and that hasn’t happened for a bit. Sure wish I could fix my sleep issues.

Grateful to have been in service to others today, grateful for an afternoon nap, and grateful for the sleep I am going to get tonight.

I went to Cottonwood Falls this morning to vote and to check about the permit situation for a shed. Only one vote on the ballet and that was for the President nominee. That was quick and easy.

I stopped by city hall and it turns out I do need a permit to put a shed on my property in Cottonwood Falls. The guy that sold me the shed yesterday told me to check. I got the paper work and will get it completed and turned back in. I hate filling out that type of paperwork. They ask things I have no idea how to answer. Will do the best I can and let them figure the rest out. It costs $10 for the permit. I also asked about building a new house – that permit is $50. Grateful the shed guy tipped me off on this need as I wasn’t aware I needed one. I will get it filled out and returned later this week so I will be good to go when the shed gets delivered in April.

Went to Council Grove to have lunch with a dear friend. It was so good for my soul to have lunch today with her. I need to remember to do this more often. This friend is the type that really sees and hears me and we can go deep together. Love those conversations. As a bonus, two other friends came in for lunch and I was able to get a hug from each of them. Great way to spend part of a day.

I stopped at the grocery store in Council Grove to get the few groceries I needed this week. That was easy and now I don’t have to make a stop in Emporia tomorrow.

The drive to and from today was beautiful. The sun is shining and it has warmed up to the mid 60’s today. A delightful day to drive through the hills.

I called the door guys to come fix my garage door opener. I’m not sure when they are coming. They told me they would text me a time but I haven’t gotten a text yet. You don’t realize how much you depend on a garage door opener until it doesn’t work. Guess I better get used to it as I won’t have a garage to park in at the house I am moving to May 1. It will be nice to have one again when the new house gets built and I get moved into it.

Still need to do my exercises for the day. They only take 10 -15 minutes so not a big deal. For some reason my FitBit is not sending data to KU so will need to get that figured out when I have the patience to do so. Not impressed with the FitBit. This is the second issue I have had with it and I’ve only had it for less than a month. I would think they would work longer than that.

My friend took six dozen eggs today and another friend requested three dozen for tomorrow. I had given 12 dozen away Sunday to the EFIS workers so my egg supply is finally low. Glad the eggs found a home and I didn’t have to waste any. They will pile back up again in a week or so.

I haven’t heard from the plumber this week. He told me he would come out last Friday to install the new booster pump but didn’t show up. Any bets as to when he will come? Sure wish there was some communication when things change. I can deal with change but it makes it easier to do so when someone tells you about it. I don’t like guessing when someone will show up.

Tomorrow will be a two trip to town day. I will do taxes in the morning and then go to exercise at noon. I will go back to town at 5:00 for an evening shift doing taxes. I have a couple of errands to run when I am in town. Not sure if I will do those the first or second trip. I’ll see how I am feeling after exercise. If the tax shift gets done early I might be able to get them done before exercise.

Thursday I go to the Vo-Tech in the afternoon to have my teeth cleaned. Friday I go back to Emporia for exercise. Six trips to town this week. Maybe I will get to stay home this weekend.

Kathy took the trash can down to the curb so all I have to do is load up the car with the bagged trash from the barn and put it by the trash can. It feels good to get more stuff out of the barn and gone. I have six boxes ready to load in the car and take to town tomorrow to the Salvation Army. I’m sure I will have a bunch more to take as I declutter more rooms. I keep thinking the end is in sight but then think of more places to go through. I will get to the end someday soon.

I’m tired this afternoon so not sure I will try to get much done today. I didn’t sleep well again last night although I got a bit more sleep than I had the night before. One of these nights I will crash and get sleep. Just wasn’t last night. I may have to take a nap this afternoon. Not sure I can stay awake until bedtime.

Sitting in a good head space today. Having a deep conversation with a dear friend is medicine for my soul. It feels good to take a day off and let things be for a bit. I will be busy tomorrow with taxes and exercise so won’t get anything done then either. I will get back at it Thursday and declutter some more spaces. I have eight weeks from Friday to get it all done. The clock is ticking down, down, down. I can do this.

Grateful for a wonderful lunch and conversation with a dear friend, grateful the shed guy told me about the needed permit, and grateful for the privilege of voting.

Another night of little sleep. I would fall asleep and wake up 15 – 20 minutes later. Stay awake for an hour or two and then sleep for 15 – 20 minutes. Makes for a long night when that happens.

At 6:15 this morning someone texted me with questions on an item I had listed for sell on Facebook Marketplace. I have two oak, solid core doors listed for $50 each. The guy wanted to know if I would sell only one – I said yes. He then asked the price for one. I told him $50. He then asked $50 for one or both. WTF! Then he wanted me to meet him in El Dorado as he is from Wichita. I told him no. Then he said since he has to drive all the way to Strong City would I take $40. I said no. He ended up saying he would take one but not sure when he can get here. Any bets as to if and when he will show up? This was not a good way to start my day. Take it or leave it guy – I don’t care. Just be smart about it.

Got up after all that. Sleep was hard to find before I got riled up and would have been impossible after that.

Around 9:00 someone said they wanted the live animal traps and could come get them right now. I went down to the barn and did some cleaning while I was waiting for them to come. I got to talking to the guy and ended up giving him a weed eater and a compost shifter thingy. Good to get those gone. That was easy and the way it is to work.

Another person wanted the animal containment pens. She lives closer to Topeka but said she had a friend that could come get them. I told her when I would be home today but never heard back from her. I was taking a nap and heard a man’s voice coming from downstairs. I got up and went to see why a man was in my house. The doors on the main level are all covered with plastic and the only open one is through the garage. He had walked around to the lower level and came in those doors. He was here to pick up the pens for his friend. No one had told me he was coming.

I think I am done trying to use the Marketplace. I find too many people that don’t understand basic communication. Out of five things listed, two of them have been easy. Not good odds. I think I will just give the rest of the stuff away and not deal anymore. I have reached my limit.Not sure the stress of selling was worth the $50 I made today.

Went to Emporia at 1:45 to deposit a check and to do exercises. It felt good to be back doing exercises. We used stretch bands today for some of them. The time goes by fairly quickly and I did feel better afterwards.

I drove out to the Amish Woodwork store when I finished exercise class and ordered a storage shed. I had bought other things from them through the years. The guy remembered me and made ordering a shed easy. I’m glad I went out today as the lead time for them is 4 – 6 weeks. By ordering today, I should have no problem having it in place when I move in May 1. I paid extra to have them do the prep work needed to put the shed on. The overall cost was lower than I feared it would be. He also sells lawn mowers but the smallest one he had was too big and too expensive. I’ll have to look elsewhere for that.

I sent an email to the guttering guy and he responded and told me he would put me on the schedule for the last week of March. That will give the EFIS guys three more weekends to get that job done. They should only take one more but with KS weather in March you never know if they will be able to work.

I sent a text to the mover and asked to be put on his schedule for May 1. He replied with three responses – all were emojis. I will have to have him confirm with words that I am on his schedule. What is with people these days? I seemed to have found some today that pushed my buttons. Can we be grown ups and use words please, or is that too much to ask?

Can you tell I am a bit cranky today? Lack of sleep did a number on me today and I woke up cranky after that exchange with the guy from Wichita. It was one of those days that most things were not easy for me.

I do feel like I got most of what I wanted to get done today taken care of. The shed guy made it easy for me to get that ordered. That is a relief to know that the shed will be there when I move in. One less thing to have to take care of another day.

Tomorrow I am meeting a friend for lunch at Hays House in Council Grove. That will be good for me to get out and do something fun. I love our lunches and the way we can go deep with each other and share. My soul needs a lunch like that.

Wednesday I have two tax shifts to do with exercise in between. I need to stop and get some groceries while I am in town. I also want to look for a new bed frame. The headboard set I have now is falling apart and I don’t think it will survive a move. I want to just get a frame and no headboard. Makes it much easier to make a bed. One of these days I need to get a new mattress set but that may wait for a bit. I am reaching decision overwhelm and am not sure I can make a choice of what I would want right now.

Got most of the barn sorted through and have started the cleaning project. Still have a few more things to sort but it is almost done. That feels good to have that big project almost completed. I will soon run out of rooms to declutter. I do have a big load to take to Salvation Army. It will be good to get that big pile of boxes out of the house. I have lots of bagged trash to take to the curb each week between now and when I move. Hope the trash guys don’t mind the extra bags each week.

My garage door opener stopped working. Jason changed the battery for me but that didn’t fix it so I will have to call someone to come out and fix that. Dang. Can things please hold together in this house for eight more weeks? Maybe that is asking too much? I know the Universe has been telling me it is time to move on. I got that message loud and clear – enough with the messages!

Cranky a bit today – can you tell? A good night’s sleep will fix what is wrong with me today. All in all it was a productive day – just not an easy one.

Grateful the shed is ordered, grateful for the stuff that is leaving without me having to haul it away, and grateful tomorrow is a new day.

Very windy day on the prairie today. Wind gust of up to almost 40 MPH today off and on. Sustaining wind is between 25 – 30. Hold on to your hat!

It has warmed up to 76 and may reach 80 before the afternoon is over. Unseasonably warm temperatures for early March. Spring is in the air!

The EFIS guys were here around 8:30 this morning. The wind is making their job a bit rough today. They moved around to the lower back and got it coated. With it being a walk-out they had a bit of protection from the wind.

All the doors and windows on the main level are covered in plastic. I can only enter and exit my house from the garage door. It is a bit warm in the house today as I can’t have any windows open to let air in.

The dogs decided to come inside to nap today. The noise from the repair guys was scaring them and they kept sneaking in when the guys would leave the door open. I decided to go the path of least resistance and let them stay in.

They won’t get finished this weekend as they still have the west windows to trim out and then it all needs coated. The front, north and south sides of the house are ready to be coated. They haven’t gotten to the very top of the west side of the house yet either. Thinking they have one more weekend of work to do.

I got down to the barn yesterday afternoon. Don’t have a lot left to do down there but I do need to clean it out when I finish getting stuff out of there. There is a bunch of stuff I’m not sure what to do with. Some I would like to take but not sure I really need to. Got a bit overwhelmed and had to stop. I have the trash bagged for this week and maybe the following week. I try not to overwhelm my trash guys with extra bags. I don’t have a lot more to bag from the barn but will fill several more at least. Found some things I need to try to sell. I’ll probably have a bunch of stuff to giveaway too.

Finding more and more things that I would like to keep. Getting a storage shed is becoming more urgent. I hope to get to town this week and get that found and arrangements made for it to get delivered. I can have it delivered early if they are able to do so.

I walked down to the mail box today and got a closer look at my front yard. Due to the drought we had last summer and fall, the grass is very short this spring. I think I will have the guy skip burning this spring. There just isn’t enough fuel to burn. He had mentioned that he wasn’t going to burn his pastures this year for that reason. It does the soil good to miss a burning season here and then.

I hit overwhelm today and haven’t gotten anything done. Sometimes I need to stop and let it all be for a bit and then I can go at it again. I think I reach decision overload and can’t make anymore decisions for a bit. Good thing I have a little over eight weeks to go. I still have time to take some days off and let it all sit in my mind.

My goal for this week is to get the mover confirmed, call the guttering guy and get on his calendar for early April, get the booster pump installed, find and purchase a storage shed, and get some things listed on Marketplace. I will also continue to find things to declutter and remove from the house and barn. I have to go to town everyday this week so will have to budget my time wisely to get things done. May 3 will be here before I know it so need to keep at it.

Sent a note to the buyer and got the propane and trash sorted out. I didn’t want to have the propane tank filled again if the buyer was not going to continue using the same supplier. He is going to use the same supplier and he will pay me for the value of the propane in the tank on closing day. Sent that information to the closing company so that can be included in the final settlement. Same with the trash guy. The trash is billed quarterly and I have paid through the end of May. The buyer will reimburse me for May at closing. Good to get some little things settled. I’m sure there will be a bunch more little things that come up between now and May 3.

Moving sometimes feels complicated. I am dealing with three houses right now – this one, the one I am moving into, and the new one I am having built. Seems like there are lots of little things at each project that need resolved. Most are fairly easy but keeping track of all of them and keeping the communication lines open with all involved seems to be a challenge. Too many moving pieces and too many players involved. It will get easier once I move and only have the new house to contend with.

Still feeling relieved that the EFIS project is getting done. Trusting that the guttering guys will show up in early April and then the hail restoration project will be complete. That will simplify closing for the sell of this house. I don’t like unfinished business and have had to deal with a lot of that lately. Waiting patiently for someone else to do something has never been a strength of mine. Have gotten lots of practice doing so lately and I am better at it than I used to be but still don’t enjoy it.

I’ve been able to hold myself above the neutral level except for one little dip last week. I will take that as a sign of personal progress. I have learned when I hit overwhelm like I did today, to take some time and let things be. It doesn’t last long and I am ready to go again and get things done.

Grateful for the sound of workers around the house today, grateful for to-do lists that keep me on track, and grateful for life lessons that help make transitions easier for me.

I had one of those nights last night where sleep eluded me. I doubt that I slept more than two hours combined last night. So frustrating to be tired but not able to sleep.

The EFIS crew started showing up at 7:35 this morning. By 8:00 the boss showed up and they had a meeting for about 30 minutes. By 8:30 they were working away. They took a lunch break and then cranked up the music and are hard at work this afternoon. They are fighting the wind a bit. I told them wait till tomorrow when we have a wind warning for the day. Otherwise, they are loving the warmer temperatures this afternoon and the bright sunshine.

They are over half way done prepping the main level. Each window needs lots of time and attention and then they have to prep the sides of the house filling in holes and putting a skim coat on. They have to do the west lower level and the upper part of the house yet. Those will go faster as the lower level didn’t have windows replaced and the upper level only has three windows to deal with. Sure hope it isn’t too windy for them to spray the actual EFIS on tomorrow. We shall see.

I am so relived they are here and this project is getting done. The hail storm was August 13 so I have been waiting over six months for this repair. The house will look brand new when they are done. I’m anxious to see the color of it. The existing finish is no longer available so they are having to do the entire house. Not sure what the final product will look like. They have to cover all the windows with plastic so the house is gradually getting closed off to the outside.

I told Kathy I am holding two opposite thoughts today at the same time. I am rejoicing that they are here working and this project is getting done. I am also holding the peace and quiet that will come when they are gone. It feels a bit like my world has been intruded today and it is noisy. There is a crew of 10 guys working so lots going on at the same time.

I got the furnace room done this morning. Found two more boxes of stuff to get rid of and found two more tubs of stuff that I will keep. May need a bigger storage shed than I thought I would. I did the hallway closet and went through all my winter hats, scarfs, gloves and jackets. Got rid of some of them and reduced the amount I had. I had way more scarfs and hats than I will ever use. Had too many jackets too.

Slowly working my way through the whole house. Have lots more to do but have made good progress. The barn still is waiting for me to spend lots of time in it. I might get down there this afternoon to work. It is so nice out it would be a good day to be down there.

Monday I want to get the mover lined up and booked. I also need to call the guttering guy and give him a heads up that he can get me on the schedule to get the guttering replaced. I’ll know by Monday morning when the EFIS crew might get done. They said there was an outside chance that they could do it all this weekend. With the high wind forecast for tomorrow I’ll be surprised if they can finish but I don’t really understand the EFIS process so may get pleasantly surprised.

I didn’t hear from the KU people about being released to do exercise Monday afternoon. Hopefully they will get hold of me Monday morning and let me know. Sure would like to resume my exercise program. That would help me know I am fully back to normal. I haven’t coughed much today even when I was going up and down the steps. Progress!

I took a nap late morning and was able to sleep for about an hour. Sure hope tonight I can find sleep and get a good night’s sleep. It is hard to function when you are sleep deprived.

Need to get a few things photographed and put on the Facebook Marketplace to sell. I only like to have two or three things listed at a time so I can easily track them and keep things straight. If things don’t sell, I will have to find a home for them a different way. Lots of things to get rid of yet. I don’t have a lot of patience selling things or waiting on people to come take giveaways. Too many people don’t tell me what is going on and flake out on me. Most stuff I am just taking to the Salvation Army and getting rid of it easily.

I wonder how long I can handle having stuff piled in the dining room. It has become my sorting place and I have empty totes, boxes that need to go to the Salvation Army, empty boxes, packing paper, tape, etc. Clutter like that drives me crazy after a bit but it is too much work to clean it up everyday. Bets on how long I can let things stay out without driving me over the edge? Less than nine weeks before closing date. I can do this!

One day next week while I am in town I want to go look at some storage sheds. I read on one website that it can take them six to eight weeks to deliver. I am in that time line so need to find out if that is normal and if so, get one ordered. Phil recommended using cinder blocks or gravel to put the shed on. I’ll have to find out if I am responsible for getting that prep work done or if they can do it when they deliver the shed.

I am a bit naive when it comes to construction stuff. I don’t know about lead times and what needs to be done in what order. Grateful I have Phil to ask questions to and get somewhat educated. I can make things happen when I know what needs to be done when.

Sitting in a good head space today. So excited that the EFIS job is getting done. That takes a bone of contention away from the sell of the house. It was yet another lesson for me from the Universe on patience. Things happen – just not always on my timeline.

Grateful the EFIS restoration job is happening, grateful for this beautiful day for the workers to work in, and grateful for late morning naps.

It has been a productive day on the prairie today. I am almost done cleaning out the furnace room. Still have two more totes to go and that project can be crossed off my list. I reduced the number of totes from 10 to four. Found three boxes of stuff to take to the Salvation Army and got one big trash bag full to throw away.

The extra Fiesta Ware got picked up today and is gone. Yay! The Lincoln logs are to be picked up this afternoon. Someone was to have picked up the legos but they didn’t show so put them back up for grabs.

I went to town and got a banking issue taken care of. Stopped and had lunch while I was in town. Didn’t have any other errands to do so came home. My picking up Ellexia got canceled so I didn’t get to do that.

We are moving the closing of the sell of this house up to May 3. Nine weeks from today! Oh my, that will be here before I know it. Grateful to have a working date so I can make some things happen now. I will get a mover lined up next week. That will make things feel real!

The renter will vacate the house we are moving into April 30. That will give me a day to clean it out and then move in on May 2. Closing on the 3rd will give me a day to play with in case things need adjusting at the last minute. Jason’s house will be available May 1 so we will both be moving at the same time.

I got confirmation that the EFIS guys are to be here bright and early in the morning and work both Saturday and Sunday. There is a chance they will get that project done this weekend if things go as hoped. Wow! What a relief that would be. Then I can call the guttering guy and get them out in a week or two and the hail project will be complete.

I don’t have any plans for the weekend. I will continue to sort and get rid of things. Still have several rooms downstairs to work on and I can always go out to the barn and work on it. I hear the clock ticking in my head now that we have a firm closing date.

I sent a note to the exercise coordinator but haven’t heard back yet to know if I can resume exercises Monday. I might not hear until Monday. I will plan on going unless I hear different. It will feel good to get back and move my body. My cough is almost gone although movement can stimulate it. Trusting by Monday that will be gone too.

Kathy went to the doctor today and she may have long Covid. The doctor said she should very slowly continue to heal but it may take lots of time. She is still having shortness of breath, weird tingling, brain fog and forgetfulness, coughing, and she had Covid toe this morning. She has to take a baby aspirin to help prevent blood clots. Dang it anyways. Trusting she will make a full recovery sooner rather than later.

Next week is looking pretty clear. Tuesday I am meeting a friend for lunch in Council Grove. We had to reschedule when I got Covid. I will do taxes on Wednesday twice and I have a dental appointment on Thursday. Add in going to Emporia to do exercises three times next week and my week starts to look busy. Will still have plenty of time to declutter and continue that project.

I realized yesterday I haven’t cleaned house for days. I got started on the decluttering project and have been avoiding looking at the floors and thinking about cleaning. One of these days soon I will need to stop and do some cleaning. It is reaching the point of no return. Sure will be glad when I have a smaller house to keep clean.

I should hear from the guy that is drawing up plans for my new house next week. I’m anxious to get a first look at what he is putting on paper. Hoping he understood what I asked for and is close to putting down what I asked for. He told me this is the part of building a house that can take the longest as he wants to make sure we are both 100% on the same page. He can change anything I want changed now but once we get started, any changes cost time and money.

The plumber didn’t call so evidently the booster pump didn’t arrive today as hoped. Maybe it will come in next week and he can get out here and get that installed. That little project has been on my list for over four months. Sooner or later they get crossed off but man it seems to take a long time sometimes.

Selling this house is starting to feel real now. I don’t think I have fully come to terms with it but setting a date for close sure helps. I have a few dinners and gatherings I want to host before I move so need to give those some thought and get some things on the calendar. Hosting groups will be more of a challenge once I move. Hard to know yet how many people the new house will be able to comfortably hold.

Sitting in a good head space today. I’m excited that things are moving along and grateful to be moving stuff that no longer serves me out. I feel freer inside with the stuff moving out. One can’t take on new things if they are still holding on to old things. I’m ready for a new way of being and new things to hold.

Grateful for a closing date, grateful for the things that are leaving this house, and grateful the EFIS guys are coming tomorrow.

I came home exhausted from doing taxes last night. We usually have four or five workers and last night we only had two with one more joining us late. We do eight returns each session. One was a no show last night so we did seven. I stayed very busy all night. I learned a few new things again which I always appreciate. I was pleased that the guy in charge was stumped for a bit with the situation but he figured it out. He is good about teaching me how to do whatever I didn’t know how to do so next time I can do it.

I took seven more boxes to the Salvation Army when I went to town late morning. That makes a total of 15 boxes I have dropped off there so far. Many more to come.

Jason forgot something he needed so I ran that in to him. I then went to McDonald’s to get another load of fry boxes as my supply was getting low. I got another big stack so should be good to go for the weekend. I’ll need more boxes on another day when I start to pack for the move. I am using all the boxes so far to put stuff in that I want to get rid of. Fry boxes are the perfect size for me to handle. They are nice sturdy boxes and I can lift them rather easily when they are full. Using all the same size boxes makes it easy to stack them. The best part is they are free.

Phil came and fixed the faucet in the garage. I had turned it on yesterday for the first time since the great freeze in January. The faucet worked but I couldn’t get it to turn completely off and it dripped constantly. He ended up having to replace the faucet. He tried repairing it but that didn’t work. Grateful he was able to come today and get that taken care of. I so appreciate him. Wonder if that will be the last unexpected repair I will have to do to this house? Wouldn’t bet on it. Things keep popping up around here that need fixed.

I didn’t get much sleep last night. I was overly tired and could not fall asleep. For some reason my left hip hurt and I had trouble getting comfortable. Finally got some sleep around 5:00 this morning. Got a text before 8:00 that woke me up and I couldn’t go back to sleep. My hip is still sore but not as bad as last night.

I have emptied six totes from the furnace room so far. Still have about six or seven more to go through. Progress is being made but it feels slow. Good thing I still have two months before we more. Hoping I can get the furnace room done this weekend and then I will move on to the rest of the rooms in the basement and get those taken care of. Still have a couple of rooms to do upstairs too. I forget how big this house is until I have to go into every room and clean it out. Some rooms won’t take near as long so I should be in good shape.

Haven’t made it down to the barn yet to fill a couple more trash bags for next week’s trash pick up. I will get to it before next Tuesday. May need to hire someone to come haul some things off for me that are too big and awkward to take to the curb. I can always leave things too although that doesn’t feel fair and I don’t want to leave unusable things for the buyer to have to deal with.

Looking like we may get to move the first week of May. I will know definitely by Monday. I would very much like that to happen. I don’t want to drag this out any longer than necessary. I will give myself a couple of days to get moved once the rental house is vacant so the process will be less stressful. If all goes well, we should be able to close May 3. Yikes! Two months to go. I can do this!

Tomorrow I need to go to town to pick Ellexia up after school. When I go to town I need to open a new bank account somewhere for a partnership thing I am doing with Jason. Hope we can get that taken care of tomorrow. We shall see if Jason can get free when I am in town. I’ll probably have a couple more boxes to take to the Salvation Army while I am in town tomorrow. If I take a few every time I go to town, they don’t pile up and overwhelm me so much.

No plans for the weekend. The EFIS crew is to be here both Saturday and Sunday to begin that project. Sure hope they show up as promised. I will feel very relieved once they get here and get started. The weather is to be good this weekend for them to work.

The water booster pump may get delivered and installed tomorrow. That has been on my pending list for several months. It will be good to get that crossed off the list and taken care of. Things seem to be falling into place and getting done.

Hoping next week I can resume exercise. I will find out tomorrow. I may have to wait one more week as I still get a cough if I move around too much. It is much better and decreasing each day but still hanging around. The program’s protocol calls for me to be symptom free for seven days before resuming. Not sure what they consider to be a symptom so not sure what they will advise me tomorrow. If I don’t have exercise next week I will only have taxes on my calendar for next week so will have lots of time to declutter.

Feels so good to be moving stuff out of this house. The house feels lighter to me and I like that feeling. I sure thought I had done a good job of decluttering before but am realizing I still had a long ways to go to get to where I want to be. The disadvantage of having a big house is you have the room to keep stuff you don’t need.

Grateful the garage water faucet got fixed today, grateful seven more boxes full of stuff are gone, and grateful my box supply got refilled.

Tested negative again today. I am confident now that Round Three of Covid is over. Feeling better everyday and getting close to being back to normal. Still have a lingering cough and am coughing up stuff but not near as much as I was earlier this week. Thinking by the weekend the cough will be gone and I will be fully back.

Went to Emporia and went to the Chiropractor. I had coughed so hard that I had several ribs out of place. Felt good to be put back together and aligned up. We shall see how long it lasts.

While I was downtown I dropped off five more boxes at the Salvation Army. Seven boxes so far and still packing….

Went through the car wash and went to Walmart. I needed one more Covid test package and some more Mucinex. Got those and came home.

The tax coordinator called last night and checked in on me. She had been unable to find someone to take my place doing taxes for tonight. I agreed to go in this evening if I tested negative today. I did so I will. Wasn’t up to doing a morning and evening shift but I will try the evening shift tonight. Trusting I won’t have a coughing fit as they wear me out. As long as I don’t talk too much I should be OK. It will feel good to do something somewhat normal.

I haven’t gotten anything else packed up yet. Taking it easy today since I have to go to town this evening. Grateful I have lots of time and don’t have to push myself hard. I do want to get what I have pulled out packed as it will begin to drive me crazy to have stuff on my kitchen counter and kitchen tables for much longer.

Friday I will talk to the coordinator of the fitness program and see if I am cleared to resume exercise on Monday. She wanted me to be symptom free for seven days. Not sure what she counts as symptoms. I’m afraid if I wait until my cough is totally gone it will be another two weeks before I can resume. We shall see what see says.

We missed the snow last night. It came close but stayed away. It is in the mid 30’s today but is to warm up tomorrow. Felt weird having to put a heavy sweater on when I went to town. Sure like the spring like days better. At least the sun is shining today so it doesn’t feel so cold.

I got the egg incubator sold. They are to pick it up tomorrow evening. Little by little things are leaving this house. I will list something else on the buy sell or trade site and keep moving things out. Most of the stuff I am donating but there are a few things I will attempt to sell first. As long as it is easy to sell, I might as well try.

Friday I am picking Ellexia up from school. Not sure where or when but she is to let me know. Michelle got to go to Dallas for a prize trip she won. She will be back Friday so it was a short trip. It will be fun to see Ellexia for a hot minute Friday. I miss those kiddos since I don’t get to see them so much now. They are busy and don’t have the time to come see me so much.

No plans for the weekend except to continue the great downsizing project. I will continue to find stuff to move out and will get it packed up and taken out. I may need to stop and get some more boxes soon. I got 30 last time and know that won’t be enough. Wonder how many boxes I will fill of stuff that I am giving away?

I should know this weekend when the moving day will be. That will make things easier when I know that date. I have a few decisions to make about a few things and need a date in order to proceed. I haven’t contacted a mover yet as I need a date for that. I will feel better when I get a mover locked in and can plan from there.

I want to get the furnace room cleaned out this weekend. Lots of treasures in there and lots of yarn. It will be good to get it gone through and cleared out. I reduced the amount of yarn I had several years ago but now need to reduce it even further. I had saved some thinking I might go back to making prayer shawls but that didn’t happen. Time to move that yarn out of the house and into the hands of people that will use it.

Feeling more and more excited about moving and downsizing. It is time for me to make this big move while I still can. Having a smaller house to keep clean sounds wonderful to me. I know I will desperately miss the views this place has to offer but the cost of the views has become higher than I am willing to pay. My energy is worth preserving and I want to focus on other things in the future. Simplicity is calling me and making this move will help let that happen.

Grateful I am on the mend, grateful I was put back together again today, and grateful to be able to do taxes tonight and resume the real world.

Kathy and I both tested negative today. We will retest in 48 hours to confirm but am hopeful this round of Covid has been put to bed. Kathy continues to have brain fog and shortness of breath. I am full of snot and am worn out from attempting to cough it up. And this too shall pass – maybe like a kidney stone, but it will pass.

Grateful we are both negative and the healing has begun. It has been a long week for me since I tested positive and Kathy is well into her second week. We are both ready to get on with our lives and are looking forward to regaining our energy and being able to get out and about at will.

I am cranky today. I told Kathy a bit ago that I wished someone would call me and give me a good reason to go off on them. I feel like I could bite someone’s head off and have it for lunch. Not sure why I am so cranky but it is one of those days.

Got another email from my new insurance company. They keep trying to charge me extra for my house insurance. I have the Class 4 shingles and qualify for a discount. My agent tells them that, it gets corrected and then the decision gets reversed and they change it back to the higher rate. Not sure why they can’t figure this out. This is the second round of this. Not sure what I will do if we go for round three but enough is enough. Not today, folks!

I have five more boxes ready to take to the Salvation Army next time I go to town. Probably have two more boxes of stuff pulled out but not put in a box yet. I have put two boxes full in Jason’s room for him to take to his new house. I am almost done with the pantry and kitchen downsizing project. Have a couple more cabinets to go through and I want to go over the pantry one more time and I will be done. I’ll probably find a few more things when I actually pack but at least most of it has been pulled out. It will make packing much easier knowing I want to take all that is left.

I may work on the coat closet this afternoon. I have a basket full of hats and scarves that need reduced. I also have too many jackets and coats and won’t be taking all of them. I will have a much smaller closet at the house I am moving to and seriously need to reduce what I have. I hate a too full closet as it makes it hard to find what you want.

I have the two guest bathrooms and bedrooms downstairs that I need to go down and see what is in them. There is a chance Kathy’s daughter and granddaughter are coming for a weekend visit soon so will wait to get rid of extra things until their visit is over. I still have plenty of time before the move to do it but am wanting to get as much done as I can ahead of time. That will make moving week much less stressful.

The biggest project left to declutter besides the barn is the furnace room. I have lots of tubs of yarn, family mementos, etc. in that room and need to go through everything and drastically reduce what I keep. I’m ready to part with the yarn so that part will be easy. Anyone want yarn? I have a bit of this and a bit of that and a lot of that. I rarely knit these days and will get new yarn if the urge hits again.

I have two massage tables and only need one – if I decide to keep one. I appreciate having one when I need it but rarely use one. Not sure which way I will go on that one. Anyone need a massage table?

I am seeing the disadvantages of having a big house. I had room so I kept more than I needed. I am appreciating this chance to declutter and reduce what I have. I am all for simplicity these days and reducing the amount of stuff I have to take care of works for me. Betting I won’t even miss anything I have gotten rid of so far. I thought I had been doing a good job of decluttering but since I had extra space, I could justify keeping things I rarely used. Can’t do that in the new space.

Someone picked up my surplus of knitting needles yesterday. I put them on the Chase County Cares site and someone said they would put them to good use. They came and got them promptly. That encourages me to try that site again and give some more things away.

I listed the egg incubator for sale on a Facebook site. If it doesn’t get any takers, I will try giving it away. Surely someone wants to have the fun of hatching some baby chicks. I only used it once – it worked. I won’t be having chickens again so won’t be doing that again.

Took the trash down to the curb earlier. Took two big trash bags full from stuff from the barn. Hope it doesn’t blow into Morris County tonight. The wind is mighty strong today and in a big hurry to get somewhere. There is a cold front moving in that might bring some snow overnight. It is close to 80 today so that will be a big drop in temperatures. It is to warm up again by Thursday.

The EFIS guys are to be here Saturday to start that project. I sure will feel better when I see them here and working. Part of me still is wondering if they will show up as promised. The hail damage was over six months ago and the restoration project is still not done.

No plans for the rest of the week or weekend. I’m not doing taxes tomorrow out of Covid precautions. I sure don’t want to pass this crud on to someone else. I will continue the downsizing project and see how many boxes I can fill of giveaways. I’ll need to get back down to the barn and get the two bags filled for next week’s trash pickup. I am starting to see the reduction in stuff in the barn. Still have lots of bags to fill but progress is being made. Once I get rid of everything I then will need to clean up the barn. It is disgusting right now.

March will be here this week. February flew by. I’m sure March and April will go by fast too. Moving day will be here before I know it. Still don’t know if it will be early May or June 1. Should know later this week. It will be good to have a firm date in my head.

Think I will spend the rest of the day in time-out as a public service to my fellow human friends. One of those rare days for me where I am below the neutral level and struggling to rise above it. I will get there soon. Evidently I have some emotions that need to be heard and then released. They can pull me down sometimes. I will take some time to listen and hear what they have to tell me. When I can do that, I find they release rather easily.

Grateful for the negative test results for both Kathy and I today, grateful for all the things that are leaving my home in trash bags and donation boxes, and grateful that this mood will pass soon.

Woke up with some energy this morning. Yesterday I went through some of the kitchen cabinets and pulled out extra stuff. I sorted it into three piles and then decided to sleep on it overnight.

Got three boxes filled this morning – one for Jason and two for the Salvation Army. Still have a table full of stuff that others have let me know they are interested in.

Decided to run some errands and go to Strong City and Emporia. I invited Kathy to ride along so she could get out of the house for a hot minute. She stayed in the car while I went inside places as she is still testing positive for Covid.

I took a big pile of egg cartons to the elementary school in Strong City. Then we went to Emporia. I picked up my taxes and dropped off the two boxes of extra stuff I had to give away at Salvation Army. We then went to Walmart as we needed more Covid tests and some packing tape.

Came home and tested myself one last time. It was positive. Talk about a life plot twist! Read that you can have a bounce back case even if you don’t take Paxlovid. Dang it anyways. I don’t feel symptomatic this time except for a lingering cough. I am coughing up lots of phlegm. No fever, body aches, diarrhea etc. I sent a note to my doctor asking if I need to isolate again for five more days or what he recommends I do. Not sure if I got two false negative tests, this one was a false positive or if I have a rebound case.

I sent a note to the tax coordinator telling her I wouldn’t be in again to do taxes Wednesday. I also sent a note to the coordinator of the fitness program and gave her an update. Thinking this will knock me out of fitness again all of next week too as I have to be free and clear for seven days before I can start again. If I isolate for five days that puts me to the end of this week before I can test again.

Dang it anyways. Good news is I don’t feel bad and I got some errands run today before I go back into house arrest. Bad news is I am bored and sick and tired of staying home. I can get dangerous when I get bored and restless. Trusting I won’t feel sick this week and will be able to get lots of things sorted and packed to give away.

Grateful I don’t work so am not having to call in sick. Kathy had already decided not to work this week and the way things are going she may not be able to work next week. I’m grateful she cancelled her trip that she was to have gone on next week as I’m not sure she would have been able to go. Covid is so weird and unpredictable. Never know what curve ball it is going to throw at you.

Having to reset my mind back to being under house arrest. It may take me a day to get caught up with this life plot twist. Felt so good to be free for a hot minute today. Grateful I got to do that and get out. I’ll have to get some more Covid tests when I start testing myself again later this week. I didn’t pick up enough this morning for this little change in plans scenario.

Funny how life happens when you are busy making plans. Sometimes the path I want to walk on closes and I have to adjust. Grateful I am better at that than I used to be. I know and trust the universe has my back and is giving me another week at home for my highest and best interest.

Grateful I am feeling well despite the positive test today, grateful I have a beautiful house to ride this out in, and grateful my errands got done today.

Finally got more sleep last night. I was way overdue for a good night’s sleep. As is normal for me, when I get more sleep I am more tired the next day. Grateful some good sleep found me.

I tested negative again this morning so feel comfortable that round three of Covid is done. Feeling almost back to normal today. Still have a bit of a lingering cough but it isn’t bad. I am coughing stuff up and sometimes that takes effort, My rib cage is sore from that. I hate when stuff gets stuck and won’t come up. Several times I have felt like I am drowning in snot.

It is a beautiful but windy day on the prairie today. It is in the mid 70’s today – in February! This weather is a bit crazy. The spring flowers will be budding out soon, Hope they don’t get froze off when the cold weather appears again.

Jason is picking up a grocery order for me. I gave Walmart his phone number but they didn’t text him to let them know the order was ready. I got an email notification. When Jason picked up the order, they had it under his name and my phone number. Dang, why are things so hard sometimes. Grateful they got it fixed and Jason was able to pick some things up.

Went through my Covid tests and had to throw a bunch away as they were way over the expiration date. We looked them up to make sure they were way over. I have one more test left. I’ll have to get some more when I go to town this week. Kathy is still testing positive and will need a couple more tests this week. I used to be able to get them for free but I don’t think that is available any more. I have gotten my limit from the free ones that come in the mail.

Went through the drawer that I store my pan lids in. Found five lids that I don’t need and will get rid of. Not sure how that happened and where some of them might have come from. Slowly but surely I am starting on the great downsizing project. I will not have room for anything extra so anything I rarely use will go out one way or other. I will either donate, sell or give it away. Come see me if you want to go shopping!

I went through my skillet pile and found a couple of skillets to get rid of. There have been days when I used two or more skillets at a time but it doesn’t happen often enough to keep extras. Out the extras will go.

I think I am going to reduce the amount of plates and silverware I have to what I think I will need. I will hold on to the extras and see how we make out and if we can get by with less. There are three in the house right now and when we move there will only be two. If I can get by with three people, I know I will have plenty for only two.

It will be a quiet week this week. My exercise got taken off my plate so that freed up some time for me. I will go to town twice on Wednesday to do taxes but other than that have nothing on my calendar this week. I will have to run a few errands Monday but they won’t take long.

My egg supply is overwhelming me right now. Kathy didn’t work last week and she is my egg distributor. If anyone needs eggs, let me know. Sure wish I knew of some place I could donate some to. I hate to see them go to waste.

When I do chicken chores today I will stop at the barn and gather up two more big trash bags of trash. I am taking two big bags down every week when I set my trash at the curb. I am having no problem finding enough to fill two bags a week at this point. Still lots to get rid of down there.

Hard to believe it will be March next week. February went by very quickly for me. I hope March goes just as fast. The move will be here before I know it at this rate. Still feels a long ways off but I know that is an illusion of time. I will keep doing something everyday to get ready for it and hoping by the time it gets here, it will go smoothly and easily and I will be ready.

Grateful my groceries are restocked thanks to Jason, grateful for a second negative test, and grateful for lots of empty space this week.

Got an email from the exercise program coordinator yesterday afternoon. She informed me the program protocol has me not resuming exercises until I am symptom free for seven days after having Covid. I’m not there yet so that means I won’t be going to the gym or doing home exercises next week. This is a well regulated research program I am in and they have to follow strict protocols in order to have the results be valid. I sent a text to my trainer to let her know I wouldn’t be in next week. Hoping I can go the following week but that won’t happen unless I am symptom free by tomorrow and doubt that happens. We shall see.

I didn’t sleep much again last night. I doubt that I am getting more than three hours of sleep a night right now. Just can’t fall asleep and if I fall asleep I can’t stay sleeping. Not sure what is up with that.

I am having a good day. My first no temperature day since Wednesday and my cough is better. The sneezing is less each day. Still have some nasal congestion but even that is getting better. I am on the mend. I will test againtomorrow. I tested yesterday and I was still showing positive.

I’m a bit worried about Kathy. She still tested positive today and her cough sounds much deeper to me. I hope she isn’t having a rebound case. She should be much better by now. I will force her to go to the doctor if she doesn’t get better soon. She did call and let her work know that she won’t be in next week. Grateful she did that.

I was cleaning my bathroom this morning. I used it a lot earlier in the week and it was disgusting. I cleaned the toilet and swept the floor. I didn’t get on my hands and knees to mop but got it mostly clean. Felt a bit weird so checked my O2. It was 78! Yikes. I sat down and rested for a bit and it came right back up to the upper 90’s. I think my body is telling me I still need to rest some more and only work in short bursts and not try to do much yet. I really am feeling better and it is hard to pace myself. Covid sucks and I am getting really tired of it.

This has been by far my best day since I tested positive. I truly think I am on the mend and will continue to pace myself and should be over it early next week. I am ready to get on with my life. This has definitely been my easiest case of Covid of the three. I know that it still may whack me a bit more before it is gone but trust it will be a gentle whack if it happens.

Wrote a long letter to my two remaining aunts (my mother’s sisters). I love them both dearly and I needed something quiet to do. That fit the bill. They seem to enjoy reading my letters and it gave me something to do for an hour or so. Had lots to tell them with the upcoming sell and move, etc.

It is a windy day on the prairie today. I need to walk down and take care of the chickens soon. The temperature is in the mid 60’s again today. Still having trouble remembering this is February with these temperatures. Sure hope March isn’t winter type weather. One never knows what to expect in KS these days.

I managed to get three loads of laundry done today. The clothes are even folded and put away. Who would have thought that doing a bit of laundry would make me feel like I did a day’s work?

Since exercise got taken off my schedule for next week I have lots of empty space open up. I may or may not do taxes Wednesday, depending on how I am feeling Tuesday. If this trend continues, I should be able to do them. I won’t hesitate to not go if I am still testing positive or have a set back in any way. I will not take any chances of passing this crap on to someone else.

Starting to have a list of errands I will need to run once I get released from house arrest. I’ll have Jason pick up a few groceries for me Monday if I can’t go to town by then. I’m almost out of yogurt and will need some more soon.

Kathy ate some of the spaghetti and meat balls I fixed for dinner last night. I was kidding her and told her I bet it was absolutely the best she had ever eaten. She has lost her sense of taste and smell. I could have burned it and she would have eaten it. I guess there are advantages of no taste but it kinda takes away the enjoyment of eating.

Tagen’s girlfriend is coming out tomorrow night at sunset to get some senior pictures taken. I told her she will need to stay outside and not come into this virus infested house. I sure don’t want the kids getting Covid again. I will watch from inside as she gets her pictures taken. Not sure how contagious we still are but am not going to take any chances. I wish they could come in and have dinner with us but can’t let that happen.

Life slows down when one gets sick. Nothing on my calendar and not much I can do. I sure have compassion for those that are chronically ill and can’t do much. Life gets real quiet and slow when that happens. I am about at my limit of tolerance for doing nothing. Hard to imagine how hard it is to live like this all the time.

Still feeling excited that the EFIS project is finally going to get done. They are to start it next weekend. I will feel even more excited when I see the workers show up and start work. Last August feels like it was a long time ago. I will be ever so glad when the hail restoration project is complete.

Things still feel like the universe has my back is arranging things in my best and highest interest. I love when I notice the little things that are happening on my behalf and things feel easy. That is my confirmation that I am on the right path and making the right choices.

Grateful to be feeling better, grateful for another spring-like day in February, and grateful the end to many things is in sight and new beginnings are coming.

I woke up this morning and couldn’t go back to sleep. Finally got up and came out to my favorite chair. I opened the blinds and discovered an almost full setting moon to the west and the sun rising to the east. One of those magical days on the prairie. Since I am moving soon, I especially enjoyed it and attempted to load it into my memory banks.

Day whatever with Covid. Not sure how to count days. Tuesday I started showing symptoms with a day of explosive diarrhea but tested negative. Wednesday the fever and cough started and I tested positive.

Still having periods where I feel like it is over and then when I least expect it I get whacked over the head and crash. This is such a roller coaster. I’m never quite sure what to expect next. Felt good most of the afternoon yesterday. Had trouble sleeping again last night and woke up feeling crappy again. Finally am feeling better early afternoon.

I was running around a 100 – 101 degree temperature this morning but it has broken and is back to normal now. The sneezing is less although still violent when it happens. All in all I am on the mend. The cough comes and goes with no apparent pattern or reason. My oxygen levels have been staying above 95 so I am good there. I figure if everyday the good times get longer and the bad times shorter, I am good.

Kathy and I decided this morning we are done – just stick a fork in us and pull us out of this. We are both tired of being tired and sick and ready to get on with our lives. Kathy gets to come out of house arrest tomorrow if all continues to go well with her. She still has times of coughing and feeling short of breath. She got symptoms on Saturday and tested positive on Sunday so she is three days ahead of me. I have had a bit milder case than she had though. Crossing our fingers and toes that Jason doesn’t come down with it too.

Grateful for this beautiful weather so we can get outside in the afternoon and get some fresh air. We have been airing out the house every day so it isn’t germ invested.

Heard from the EFIS guys and there is a chance they will be here over the next couple of weekends to do the job. What a relief that will be to get that job done. As soon as they get done, I will have the guttering guys come and take care of that and the hail restoration project will be complete. Thank heavens! The EFIS guy is working with me to get this taken care of and I appreciate that.

The tax lady called me yesterday to tell me my taxes are ready to be picked up. I was surprised they got them done this early. I had called last week to see if they got my email and never heard back so I wasn’t expecting them to be done this early.

I started a to-do list I am calling “When released from house arrest”. I need to find some humor somewhere in my day and that makes me smile when I see that list. The first thing on that list is to pick up my taxes. I’m anxious to see the results. I usually get a refund but I never know from year to year how well the rentals do and if I have to pay or not. I didn’t have a good year for the rentals last year so should get a refund.

Still haven’t managed to do any exercises. Not sure how hard to push myself. Thinking it is better to rest than to do them right now. I will get back at them soon. I was sure yesterday I was going to be able to do then today but then I had the rough morning and decided not today. Maybe tomorrow? We shall see.

Having trouble tracking what day of the week it is. When you do nothing for several days in a row it is hard to sort things like day of the week out. Time does pass regardless of how I spend my time.

I got my trash service bill. He bills quarterly and I realized it may be the last one I pay if we close June 1. The reality of the move is starting to seep into my awareness. It still feels too big to absorb yet. Have my fingers and toes crossed the close will proceed as planned and no big hurdles or hiccups will happen that will delay or stop it.

I was sitting with a moral dilemma for a bit today and decided I had to do the right thing as I couldn’t live with myself if I didn’t. Someone did something upsetting to me a while back and I could have paid them back big time. I truly believe the universe balances those things out on its own and I only need to worry about doing the right thing from my perspective. It sure was tempting for a hot minute though but I couldn’t do it. Just not made that way. Sometimes I wish I could but I can’t play that game.

Still able to hold myself at or above neutral level. Staying home does help that as I am not dealing with many people these days. Covid is reminding me once again that allowing things to come to me and not pushing them works. It has taken me a lifetime to get to this point and I still have a habit of pushing sometimes. Grateful for another reminder today about allowing.

Just found out I have the mower sold for sure. That is a relief. They will get it around the time of the move. One more thing that was easy to take care of. Grateful!

Grateful Kathy and I are improving, grateful it looks like the EFIS project is going to be completed soon, and grateful for this beautiful day on the prairie.

Day three with round three of Covid. Running about a 101 temperature, have a cough and a headache. My eyes get tired very quickly and I am sneezing an ungodly amount of times each day. I have short periods of time where I feel pretty darn good and then I crash and burn for a bit. Still grateful this appears to be a mild case so far. Thinking the worse will be over in another day or two. Another lesson on patience for me. This is a roller coaster ride of sorts – up and down, round and round, where it stops, nobody knows.

My Facebook memories reminded me that it was two years ago this week that I had round one of Covid. That was by far the hardest case I had. It took six to eight weeks to recover from that round and I was very lucky I stayed out of the hospital – it was close. The second round recovery got slowed due to the thyroid reaction. Third time is a charm and it is time for it to go smoothly and quickly this time.

I’m so grateful for the vaccines that help my body fight this off and make each case less severe. Grateful I have the time to stay home and not worry about not being able to do something important.

I didn’t sleep very well last night. I kept waking up coughing. Hard to find a comfortable spot to sleep in. I may take a nap in my chair in a bit. Thinking that might be easier as I seem to cough less when I am sitting up.

Haven’t been able to eat much today. I’ll try some chicken noodle soup in a bit and see it that will go down. Nothing sounds very good and my tummy is a bit nauseous today. Thank heavens the diarrhea has slowed down. Doing my best to drink lots of fluids so I don’t get dehydrated.

Kathy is doing better. She still has brief periods of relapse where her cough comes back and she doesn’t feel good but the good times are now much longer than the hard times. She has lost her sense of smell and taste. That hasn’t happened to me during any of my rounds of Covid. Finger crossed it doesn’t. One good thing about loosing your sense of taste is the Paxlovid doesn’t cause a bad taste in her mouth as she can’t taste anything.

It is another beautiful spring-like day on the prairie today. It is to reach over 60 again. I will go outside and sit for a bit this afternoon and get some fresh air and let the sunshine help heal me. Trying to keep the house open a bit too so the icky germs can escape and leave this house.

We are forecast to reach the low 80’s a couple of days next week, however there is a cold front coming in and the temperature will drop to the high 30’s the next day. Crazy weather these days. Hard to remember it is February with these warmer temperatures.

Feeling a bit humbled with being sick again. Each time it reminds me how I take my health for granted. My body is missing working out. I haven’t had a period of time where I have felt good enough long enough to get a work out in. Hoping that may happen tomorrow but we shall see. I sent a note to the coordinator of the exercise program to let her know I had Covid and wouldn’t be working out for a couple of days at the gym. Hoping I can get back next week but we shall see.

My mower got brought back home yesterday afternoon. It is good to have it all cleaned up and ready to go for mowing season. I have someone interested in buying it. We shall see where that goes. I told them I would need to keep it until much closer to closing date on the sell of the house. If something happens to the closing, I will have to back out of selling the mower.

I have a couple of phone calls I need to make but hate to make them right now. If I start to talk much, I start coughing. None of them are absolutely urgent and all can wait till next week.

My wrapping paper to wrap dishes in came in today so if I should feel like it, I can start packing up things. Not sure the best way to handle somethings as I want to give some stuff away, sell some stuff, and take some stuff. I guess I will figure out a system for it all sooner or later. A bit early to start packing things to take but I can start getting rid of things. Still need to decide if I just want to donate things or try to sell them first.

Grateful I am having at least brief periods of time where I feel better, grateful Kathy continues to heal, and grateful for this beautiful day on the prairie and the fresh air that is coming in the house.

I tested positive for Covid this morning. Third round of it for me. So far it seems to be a fairly mild case. Fingers and toes crossed that it remains that way. I was getting suspicious yesterday when I had diarrhea as that is the way round two started. I felt really tired and shaky this morning and kinda knew I had it then. It didn’t take long for the test this morning to show a positive.

I sent a note to my doctor and we both agreed that I would not use Paxlovid this time. Last time it caused my thyroid TSH levels to jump to 22. That was worse than the actual Covid for me. It took six months for things to level out. I really don’t want to go through that again.

As long as things don’t get severe, the doctor was OK with letting it ride for a few more days and not do anything. I have until Friday to change my mind if things take a downward turn.

Most of the time, I don’t feel too bad. My temperature got to 101 briefly once today but most of the time it is around 100.5. The cough wears me out but it isn’t too bad most of the time. I’m not very hungry but that is normal for me when I’m not feeling well. I did manage to eat half a serving of my normal breakfast this morning. I made a batch of hamburger soup if I get hungry later. We shall see if that happens.

Good thing I had lots of empty space on my calendar this week. I had let the tax coordinator know yesterday that I wasn’t going to come in today. That way she had time to try to find a replacement for me. I cancelled with my trainer for today and Friday. We will see how I am feeling come Monday. I haven’t done my exercises for the day but I may try to do them later. It is hard to find that balance between pushing yourself and letting yourself rest. My body will tell me what it needs if I listen to it.

The EFIS guys came this morning as promised. They walked around the house with me and talked about what they need to do. Not sure I understand all of it but they are going to spray the entire house. They said the house will look brand new when they are finished. They are going to try to work it in soon, we shall see what Mother Nature does. What a relief it would be to have that project done. He is to send me an updated bid sometime this week. I think I am still within the range that insurance will pay for all of it.

While those guys were here, the window guy came and put a weather strip on one of the bathroom windows. Snow had blown in sometime in January and that was their solution to that issue. Good to have that little project crossed off the list too.

The good news of the day is Kathy is feeling much better. She seems to have turned a corner and is on her way to recovery. She still has a bit of a lingering cough but it is less frequent and doesn’t sound as deep. Fingers and toes crossed she doesn’t get a bounce back case from the Paxlovid. So far Jason is the last man standing in this house. Hope he continues to avoid it. My biggest fear with Covid is the risk of having long-term Covid afterwards. Dang, that would be bad.

I need to go down and do the chickens. I am grateful I carried a bucket of feed down yesterday so today I only have to take water. When I’m not feeling good, it can feel like a long walk down there and back up again. It is fairly nice out today so it will be good for me to get out and walk for a hot minute or two.

I am under house arrest through Saturday. After that I will wear a mask for five days if I get out. No real plans on getting out even then. I would feel really bad if I gave it to someone so will play it safe and stay in for 10 days at least. Hoping by then I will be feeling back to normal. It is easy for me to stay home for extended times so it isn’t much of a hardship to stay in. Jason said he could pick up things from town for me as needed. Grateful I just bought groceries Monday so I am all stocked. Funny how that worked out- I don’t usually do that on Monday.

Jason and I had dinner together Monday night. He was out last night and I didn’t see him yesterday. Hoping I wasn’t too contagious Monday and he will avoid this crap. He needs to work and not miss. Grateful I am retired and am not missing out on work.

Another curve ball the Universe threw me. It reminds me to slow down and allow things to unfold in their own way, at their own time. If I was going to get Covid again, now is a good time for me to have it. Not much on my calendar and not much that needed to be done urgently. I can do this!

Grateful for a mild case so far, grateful Kathy seems to be recovering well, and grateful the EFIS guys showed up today.

Not feeling the best today. Have had a bit of diarrhea today. I was worried for a hot minute as last time I had Covid, it started with a day of diarrhea. So far I have tested negative so here’s hoping that trend continues. I still have a sore throat and a bit of a cough but that hasn’t changed since late last week.

I’m hoping it isn’t the start of C-Diff round 6. I had to take an antibiotic when I had my root canal in January. I don’t have cramping or a fever so trusting it is my IBS and nothing more. It has been a bit stressful putting together the house deal and I am guessing my tummy is telling me to relax now.

Kathy is feeling better today with the Paxlovid. Have my fingers and toes crossed she doesn’t get a rebound case. She is going on vacation in early March and I would hate to see her trip cancelled. She has looked forward to this trip for a long time.

It is 74 on the prairie this afternoon. Spring has sprung! One of those rare February days that make you think it is April. Bring it on. I am so ready for spring this year. It feels like it has been a tough winter. I am betting Mother Nature will slap us at least one more time with more winter weather but today reminds me if she does, the cold won’t last long. Kathy opened up the windows downstairs today to air the Covid germs out of the house. Good idea on her part!

Out of an abundance of caution, I told the tax coordinator that I won’t be coming in tomorrow. I really don’t think I have Covid, but I have a tendency to test negative longer than most and don’t want to take a chance and give it to someone in case. I will make a decision about going to exercise tomorrow morning. My trainer won’t be able to fill my spot anyways so she doesn’t need to know until last minute. Telling my coordinator today gives her a chance to find someone to fill in for me.

The EFIS guy is to come in the morning to check out the job so he knows what supplies to send with his crew when they come to do the repair job. With this warm weather, it might get done sooner than later. What a relief that will be when that project is done. The only thing still pending from the hail restoration is the EFIS and guttering. The damage happened last August. It feels like this project has consumed my time and energy since.

Got the signed copy of the contract to sell the house today. That makes it feel somewhat official. Still have some potential bumps in the road until closing but feel pretty good about the deal. It sure will uncomplicate things if the EFIS and guttering can get done before close. The buyer is going to have some inspections done so trusting those won’t turn up something that will cause the buyer to back out. He has the right to do so. He already knows I am not paying for any repairs that the inspections may uncover. I can’t imagine what they might find but one never knows.

I am trying not to get too far ahead of myself just in case this deal falls through. If it does fall apart, I will find a realtor and list the property on the open market. It is time for me to move on and downsize.

Need to go take care of chicken chores and take the trash to the curb. I filled two big trash bags in the barn and will take those down today. Slowly but surely the barn is getting cleaned up. Still have lots more to throw away but I can only take two bags a week to the curb. If I stay with it, I should be able to have it all thrown away before I move.

Not much going on the rest of the week since I’m not doing taxes tomorrow. I may or may not go to exercise tomorrow. I may skip the Chiropractor this week if I don’t make it in to exercise. Hoping by Friday I will be back to normal and can make it to town for exercise. We shall see what happens. No plans for the weekend. Love having this empty space right now, especially with the weather so nice.

Still able to hold myself at or above neutral level. Having a quiet day at home always helps. Trusting I will get to feeling better soon and will be able to get some things cleaned up and downsized. I have plenty of time so no need to rush.

Grateful for a beautiful spring-like day on the prairie, grateful Kathy is feeling and looking better today, and grateful the EFIS guy is coming tomorrow.

It has been a two trip to town day. I went in this morning after Kathy’s doctor’s office returned her call and told her they called in her Paxlovid. While I was in town this trip, I stopped and got chicken feed and washed my car.

I got pellets instead of crumbles for the girls. Hope they will eat the pellets. It was my mistake. I realized when the guy loaded them into the car – they looked wrong. I will try a bag and see what happens. I might have to take them back and exchange them if the girls are picky.

Sent a few texts and made a few phone calls. No one has called me back though. I get frustrated when that happens. Customer service sure isn’t what it used to be. It seems rare to find a company that will communicate promptly these days.

Went back to town this afternoon for my exercise class. We are doing a stretching class this week. I used a towel for most of the exercises today. I’m still struggling to think what I am doing is doing any good. They feel too easy for me. There are a series of 16 different types of exercise and we rotate through them doing one type each week. When we get to the end of the 16 we rinse and repeat. Maybe when I go through them the second time I will discover they are working?

Pickup up my Walmart order when I was done with class. They were out of cottage cheese and yogurt again. I forgot that most every Monday I can’t get the yogurt I like as they are out of it. It must come in on Tuesday because they usually always have it on Wednesday. Came home and got everything put away. I didn’t need many groceries this week so that didn’t take long.

Kathy is doing a bit better today. She ran a pretty high temperature last night but said it had broken this morning. Hoping the Paxlovid will help her turn the corner and she will start feeling much better by tomorrow. Her cough will probably hang around for a bit though. She had to take this week off from work. She is hoping she will be able to go back to work next week but we shall see.

Tomorrow I get to stay home all day as far as I know now. I will do my 15 minutes of exercise and hope to get down to the barn to sort and clean. I ordered some wrapping paper to wrap dishes in today. When that comes in I can start downsizing the kitchen and start the give away process.

I took a Covid test this morning just to be safe. I still have a touch of a sore throat but it doesn’t feel like a Covid sore throat. This feels more like sinus stuff. I talked to the tax coordinator to see what the protocol is for me doing taxes Wednesday since Kathy is sick. She told me to test Wednesday morning before I come in and to wear a mask. I can do that. I took a mask to exercise today but the trainer said she was OK if I didn’t wear it. I sure don’t want to give Covid to someone.

Trying to figure out the best way to get rid of the items that I no longer will want/need. I don’t want to have a garage sell but some of the items are more valuable and I would love to recoup some funds. For example, I have a heavy and tall extension ladder that is in like-new condition that I will not be taking. It is too heavy for me to use. Several contractors that have done work for me found it useful and used it. I would love to sell it but not sure the best way to do that. I have had limited success using the buy, sell or trade sites on Facebook. People are interested but seem not to show up or hound me with unlimited questions and then don’t do anything or respond to my answers. Suggestions anyone?

Jason grilled steaks for our dinner last night. We only ate two and I had thawed four so we will have the other two tonight/. I like steak but it isn’t my favorite meal. I asked Jason if he could manage to eat steak twice in row and he said he thought he could manage that! Tough situation to be in – right?

I realized today that the next two to three months will feel like the in-between stage for me. This used to be very uncomfortable for me but it is easier for me now. I feel a bit like I am caught between worlds. It can create a sense of urgency to do something – although I am never quite sure what it is that I am to be doing. I will need to remind myself occasionally that I am in the in-between stage and there is nothing that needs to be done urgently. Time will do its thing and moving day will arrive soon. I will enjoy every sunrise, sunset, moon rise and moon set between now and then. I feel like I have a fresh set of eyes looking out these days as I know the time I have with this view is limited.

I heard of another friend that made her transition this weekend. She was younger than I was. Dang! Gone much too soon and much too young. Life sure isn’t guaranteed to any of us. A good reminder to live big – in all ways and at all times.

Grateful for Paxlovid and trusting that it will help Kathy have a smooth recovery, grateful for exercise class that gets me up and moving, and grateful to have to eat steak two nights in a row. I am blessed and privileged.

It has warmed up to the upper 40’s so far today. Warmer than forecast predicted. I’m grateful! It almost feels like a spring day on the prairie.

Kathy has Covid. This is the first time she has had it. I heard her coughing all night. She had gone to bed before 4:00 yesterday afternoon. So far it appears to be a mild case but we shall see what happens. If she has to come upstairs, she wears a mask. Grateful for this big house so we can stay apart.

I woke up with a bit of a sore throat but it hasn’t gotten worse or better all day. Crossing my fingers I don’t get Covid for the 3rd time. When I had it last time Kathy didn’t get it so here is to hoping we can repeat that pattern.

I made a batch of chicken noodle soup and put it in the crock pot and took it downstairs. Grandma’s chicken noodle soup can be healing – right? She was able to eat a bit of it earlier. I’ll let it stay downstairs all day and she can eat on it when she feels like eating.

Last night I laid out some steaks for dinner tonight. Jason said he would grill them for us. I laid out four thinking Kathy would join us for dinner. Don’t know if she will feel like eating steak or not later. When I am sick I have the hardest time eating but I don’t remember what Kathy does. She rarely gets sick.

Haven’t gotten much else done today. I will go down and take care of chicken chores in a bit. I’m grateful I won’t have to put on my winter gear for the walk down and back. The rest of the week is to be even warmer.

Got the bill for the damper replacement. Ouch! I will be grateful to be out from under this house and the seemingly never ending things to fix or replace. Jason and I were going to run some pressurized water through the line downstairs today but since Kathy has Covid decided not to spend time downstairs today. We will do in next weekend. It is to be warmer next week anyways and will be a better day to do it.

Don’t have a busy week ahead. I will go to town for exercise Monday, Wednesday and Friday and I have two tax shifts on Wednesday. Other than those trips, I don’t have anything on my calendar. I might be able to get started cleaning out the barn and bagging up trash. I have lots to throw away down there. I will also start a big giveaway or donate pile.

I won’t know for another couple of weeks if we are going to close sometime in mid May or wait until June 1. I have lots of time, either way, to get things organized and downsized. One day next week when I am in town I will stop and get another car load of boxes from McDonald’s so I won’t run out of boxes. I love using fry boxes to move. They are the perfect size for most things and I can handle them full easily. Best part is they are free. I also need to get some paper to wrap glass things in.

I am going to be working to reduce the amount of stuff I have in my freezers and grocery supplies on hand. The house we are moving to doesn’t have a pantry and I won’t be able to keep as much on hand. I will attempt to use what I have on hand and not buy much new. I only want to take one freezer so will work hard to get one empty. I may fix some weird meals around here for the next couple of months to accomplish that. I can deal with that!

The EFIS guy is to stop by one day this week and look at the project. Hope he doesn’t come on Wednesday as I will be gone most of that day. It will ease my fears to see his face here and know that he will do the job. EFIS repair guys are hard to find and I don’t know what I will do if he flakes out on me. The first guy I found I have never heard from again and his phone is full and won’t accept messages. Guess after June 1 it won’t be my problem!

It is starting to sink in that I will be moving soon. I almost wish we could move April 1 but I have a renter under contract and I can’t do that to her. Jason’s place will be ready May 1 so we can’t leave until then at the earliest. It feels like a long time away but life goes on and time moves by quickly.

My goal for this week is to push my plumbers into doing something about the booster pump. I let them know it was leaking again over two months ago and they haven’t been able to get the supplier to do anything about it. Thinking we need to find a different brand of pump and just be done with this brand. They are not good pumps as they only work for about four months before they start leaking. I’m tired of having water on the furnace room floor.

I’m hoping my mower comes home this week. I have two different people interested in buying it but I need some information off the mower to give the interested parties. I sure would like to know that I have that sold soon. I will keep it until we get closer to close as I will have to use it a couple times this spring to mow. I won’t start looking for a smaller one until closer to moving time as I will want it delivered to the new address.

Wonder what the lead time is on getting a storage shed delivered? When I am in town this week I will stop and look at some and find out. Timing is everything – right?

Still being able to stay above the neutral level. There is a lot going on but I have been able to find some quiet times in the midst of the chaos to refill myself. I keep going back to that day in January when I realized in a big way that the Universe has my back and things will work out in my best and highest interest. I truly am feeling and believing that. All is well, in all ways, all is well!

Grateful for a beautiful spring day, grateful Kathy’s case of Covid is mild so far, and grateful for an empty space day.

Lazy, cold day on the prairie. We are only going to reach the low 30’s today. Burrrrr……. Grateful spring temperatures will be here next week.

I haven’t done a darn thing today. Decided to take a rest day and allow myself to do nothing today unless something pulls me in to take care of it. I did clean out the ovens and made some new files for my desk organizer. Both of those little projects had been bugging me and I happened to think about them and got them taken care of. Other than that, I have been sitting in my corner chair today.

I started thinking about what I want to take and what I want to get rid of. I get a bit overwhelmed and can’t do much. I did start a list on my iPad so I can stay organized about it. I’m afraid I will promise the same thing to two different people. Do come see me soon and see if there is anything I have that you want. Lots of kitchen items, some furniture, and lots of miscellaneous things.

Hoping next week I can get down to the barn and start going through that. Lots to throw away in there. I can at least get it bagged up and take it to the curb two bags at a time each week. I won’t have much storage space for a bit so will get rid of most of it. I have a couple of like new live animal traps that I would love to find another home for. Who knows what else I will find down there.

I am tired today. I still may go take a nap. I didn’t sleep very well last night. I kept waking up and thinking it was time to get up. Finally gave up around 7:00 and got up. It is going to take me some more time to let all the emotion that I am holding release so I can calm down and relax completely. I keep reminding myself all is well, right here, right now, all is well. Bumps in the road will certainly happen but I don’t need to worry about them until they are here.

I will have to put on my winter overalls to do the chickens today. I don’t like getting cold these days and won’t enjoy doing chores today. At least the sun is shining and the wind has calmed down a bit.

I was looking through my kitchen cabinets to mentally make a note of what I need to get rid of. Found a 12 egg incubator. I won’t be taking that with me. Anyone want to hatch some baby chicks? I used it once and hatched two chicks with it.

I have a quiet week ahead. I will go to town three times for exercise and twice to do taxes. Other than that, I have a rare week where I have nothing else on my calendar. I need a quiet week to give me lots of time to process the sale of my house and mentally prepare myself for the big moves. I am starting to make lists of things that will need to be done. It may be a long three and half months before the move though. It is way too soon to do too much sorting and packing yet. One time I moved with six days notice – I kinda like that type of move better. This one feels very drawn out. The time will pass quickly though and I will be moved before I know it.

One day next week I need to stop and get chicken feed. I am down to my last bag. The girls go through a little over one bag a week. Won’t miss paying for that but I will miss having unlimited fresh eggs. I am leaving the chickens with the house. The new owners were excited to get chickens again. They have had them in the past so the chickens will be in experienced hands.

The locksmith came today and fixed the back door. I’m grateful to cross that little project off my pending list. Now if the EFIS guy will show up as he said he would next week. Fingers crossed he does. It would really ease my mind when I know he has seen the job and then he can give me an approximate start date. I sure would like to get that repair project done soon.

I really need to figure something out about the booster pump. I keep nagging the plumbers and nothing seems to be happening. I have to have the booster pump fixed before close. It has been several months since it started leaking and nothing has been done about it. May need to find a different plumber for a fix if things don’t get going.

I’m going to get a storage shed of some sorts for the new house. I may go look at those next week to see what is out there. Not sure if I need to have a concrete pad laid to put it on or not. I want to get one big enough to hold a riding mower and all the other stuff like ladders, etc. I won’t have a garage at the Plum St house for a bit and will need somewhere to store that type of stuff. Not sure where to look to find one so I will have to start looking.

I will also need to buy a smaller riding mower. The one I have is way too big for city mowing. I will sell it and then use that money to buy a new, smaller one. The one I have now is a John Deere and the local dealer doesn’t sell small ones. I’ll have to look up ratings and see what I want to get.

Maybe it is a good thing I have three months to get these things done. I can take my time and find exactly what I want with no time pressure. I will have to have both the storage shed and the mower delivered so that will add a complication to the buying process. I’ll have to figure out the timing of delivery too. It will all sort itself out sooner or later. All is well – right?

I’m surprised I have been able to stay at or above neutral lately. I got really angry for a bit yesterday and dipped below but was able to climb back up fairly quickly. I will call that a win! I still am feeling some anger today but have made a plan on what I need to do until close to protect myself. I will have to operate in a way that feels foreign to me and that will feel uncomfortable. Grateful the hard negotiations are done and contact should be minimal.

Grateful for a lazy day at home, grateful for to-do lists that will keep me on track, and grateful for all the upcoming possibilities.

This has not been an easy day. Hit a snag with the final contract negotiations but we got it fixed – kinda. Not sure how I am feeling at this point. I am angry and disappointed in the other side. I got pushed to my limit today and had to push back. I don’t like having to do that but when I reach my limit it starts to feel like it isn’t a choice. It may be a long couple of months before this deal is complete. I am going to have to change how I treat the other side in this deal until then so I protect my own interests. Dang, I hate that.

I signed a contract to sell my house. We will close June 1. Kathy and I will be moving into my rental property in Cottonwood Falls and live there while I build a new house. The new house should be completed early spring if all goes well. It will be a big change for me. I have absolutely loved living in this house but it has become too much for me to handle. The hail damage restoration helped me see that taking care of stuff like that is overwhelming and I am getting too old for that. I want easy these days and that project has been anything but easy.

I have started working with a contractor that will build the new house. He is drawing up plans now and I hope to break ground this summer and move in sometime spring of 2025. The new house will only be about 1,200 square feet with two bedrooms and two full bathrooms. I’m looking forward to having a more manageable size house to take care of.

I have four pending to-do lists going. One for the sale of this house, one for the move to the Plum street house, one for the building project of the new house, and one for my regular life. Yikes! I have a lot on my plate right now.

The deal to sell this house came out of the blue for me. I had seriously been considering selling but was waiting until the EFIS and guttering projects got completed before I put it on the market. The buyer contacted me the end of January and we were able to put together a deal. It started out fairly easy but this last week or so has felt complicated- in my opinion, unnecessarily so. I sure hope I don’t come to regret doing it the way I choose to do so. We are using a title company to write the contract and did not get a realtor involved. I now see the wisdom of using a realtor to do the negotiations.

The good news is the buyer has agreed to handle painting the decks so that project got taken off my plate. Hallelujah for that!

I went to Emporia this afternoon for exercise class. I have done the same set of exercises all week and it felt very easy for me today. The time went by quickly and I was able to do all of the exercises without breaking a sweat today. Next week I will be doing a new set of exercises for the week. Other than having to go to town three times a week for them, I am enjoying this program.

I ordered a different band for my FitBit. My trainer figured out how to put it on and I like the Fitbit much better with the new band. I had to get six bands in a package – they didn’t sell the one I liked as a single band. I will keep a spare one and am going to take the others to the trainer. She is working with another Comet student and will offer one of the new bands to her. I would rather find a home for the new bands than just throw them away.

I was going to stop and pick up a few groceries while I was in town but it was cold and I was cranky so came home instead. I really didn’t need anything urgently and I will be back in town Monday for exercise class and can get them then. We had a very light snow this morning – it made the deck partially white but didn’t stick around very long. It has been windy all afternoon and we only got to the mid 30’s today. Warmer temperatures are coming back next week.

It does feel good to have a signed contract. I was beginning to think that might not happen. If this deal falls through for whatever reason, I will list the house on the open market and go that route. It is time for this house to have a new owner that has the energy to take care of it.

The next three months will be full of me making decisions about downsizing big time. Moving from almost 5,000 square feet to a house that is less than 1,000 square feet will cause me to make some hard decisions about what to keep and what to get rid of. I’m grateful I have lots of time to sort things out and find homes for the things I don’t want to take. I refuse to get a storage unit to keep things in until the new house gets finished.

I will start a pile of giveaways. Be careful if you come see me, I will force you to go through it and take stuff home with you! Ha! Jason will be able to furnish his new house with stuff from this house. Perfect timing for both of us on that deal as he will take some pieces that I won’t have to find another home for. I will not be doing a garage sale as I don’t have the energy for that. If you have been in my house and are interested in a piece or two or three, let me know and I will let you know if it is available. If you know of someone that needs things, let me know that too.

I currently have a set of dishes for 16. I will only be taking enough for 8. I use FiestaWare so if you like it, let me know. I have lots of extra wine glasses, two twin beds with nightstands, extra bedding and pillows, an extra kitchen table with four chairs, extra chairs, extra bath towels and washcloths, extra serving dishes, a bookcase or two, and that is just the stuff I can think of off the top on my head. Please let me know if you can use any of it.

I’m thinking I need to host several more “last parties” here at this house between now and June 1. I know I have several friends that have enjoyed coming to this house and loved the views it had to offer. Hit me up if you want one more visit before it is gone!

Lots going on in my head these days. I think I will be able to take a deep breath tonight and take a few days to let it all sink in and then begin the giant downsizing project. I can do this! I’m grateful I am not a saver and don’t have lots and lots of stuff to sort through. A lot of what I won’t take is stuff I got for this house when I had a retreat center and fed lots of people every weekend. I won’t have the space to do that in the new house so won’t need crowd sized kitchen stuff.

Today tried hard to pull me off center. Thanks to Kathy and Nicole for letting me vent to them. They both allowed me to vent and both reminded me to zoom out and see the big picture of when this is all over with. I appreciated them and their quiet presence and witness to me today. It makes this whole thing easier knowing they are there for me.

Grateful the contract was signed today, grateful for new beginnings and possibilities and grateful for all the wonderful memories this house has given me.

Had trouble finding sleep again last night. I’m getting kinda tired of this. It makes for a long day after a night of little sleep,

I did manage to get two tasks on my to-do list done today. That is all I have gotten done today but it felt good to get those done.

After I took my morning pills this morning it felt like one of the pills had gotten stuck in my esophagus. It is slowly going down but occasionally I get a sharp pain that radiates from where it feels like the pill is. Ouch! I looked it up and there is a medical name for it. It can take hours to several days for it to pass. Yikes! This is not very comfortable and I trust it will move on down very soon.

Still haven’t gotten the contract that I need to sign. I know it is finished but the lady that sends the document sign things out had to miss work this morning. I was told to expect it this afternoon. Maybe it will still come today – we shall see.

Still need to do my exercises for the day. They only take 12 – 15 minutes so won’t take long to do. I’ll go down in a bit and take care of the chickens and get the mail and then come in and do them.

My body feels like it is stuck in fight or flight mode this afternoon. I have this urgency feeling that there is something important that needs to be done NOW but there isn’t anything. And this too shall pass! It has been a crazy couple of weeks around here and I think I need some down time to process it all and allow whatever feelings I have to come up and be released.

I tried to take a nap this afternoon and managed to sleep for a little bit but struggled to stay asleep. I sure wish I knew why sleep is so hard to find sometimes.

The wind has finally calmed down today. It was blowing like crazy for a bit last night. We have a chance for some snow showers tomorrow morning and then it is going to warm up for next week. February has been very mild after such a tough January. Here is to hoping that March will be mild too.

Tomorrow I have to go to Emporia for exercise at 2:15. Should be able to stay home all weekend. I haven’t gotten any groceries this week but not sure I need any. I’ll check before I go to town tomorrow so if I do need a few things I can get them and not have to go back to town. So far next week looks to be a quiet week except for three trips to town for exercise and two trips to town for tax prep.

Going to town three days a week for exercise feels like a lot to me. I think it is compounded by doing taxes right now too. I used to only go to town twice a week so making five trips to town in one week feels like overload. I’m sure I will get used to it sooner or later and tax season only lasts till early April. I am reminded how habitual of a person I am and any time I break my “normal” pattern, I feel it in my body.

Grateful for a day at home to refill, grateful the wind has calmed down, and grateful I have gained awareness of my body so I understand what it needs.

It was a long day. I was in town by 9:00 this morning to do taxes at the Senior Center. I got done around 11:45. Ran a couple of errands and then decided to come home as I didn’t have any thing else to do until 3:30. Came home for two hours and then went back to town to go to exercise.

We did the same video we had done Monday at exercise class today. It was easier today as I knew what to expect. The time goes fairly quickly and we get lots of rest in between sets of exercises. They don’t want my heart over 100 so they don’t work me too hard.

I stopped and got a little something to eat and then went to the Credit Union and did another tax shift. I lose track how many returns I do and how many I review. I had a bit of a challenging one tonight but I asked for help and got through it.

Finally got home for the day a little after 8:00 tonight. Grateful I get to stay home tomorrow and refill.

Stopped by John Deere to pay the mower service bill. They still haven’t delivered the mower and the guy that delivers has a personal emergency and won’t be back until next week sometime. Good thing I don’t need the mower right now. It will get home someday soon.

I was hoping to sign the final contract today but I didn’t get it yet. I know it got revised today as they called to ask for a clarification on something. I will get it tomorrow and get it signed. That will be huge for me and a real relief.

It was another beautiful day on the prairie today. The temperature hit 68 today. It was windy though so it didn’t feel that warm but I didn’t have to wear a coat down to do the chickens. I will take a day like this in February anytime. It is going to cool down a bit through the weekend and then heat back up next week. We may hit the low 70’s next week.

I have a couple of little projects to work on tomorrow. None of them are urgent but I would feel better if I got started on them. I’m hoping the locksmith will make it out tomorrow or Friday and get the back door fixed. I don’t like when little projects get dragged out longer than I think they should. I have no control over when the repair guys show up. Must have needed another lesson on patience.

Still holding myself above the neutral level on the consciousness scale. I’m amazed I have been able to do that. Lots going on around here and most of it is hurry up and wait. I don’t do that well.

Grateful this long day is over, grateful I have a rest day tomorrow, and grateful for a spring like day on the prairie.

Had another night of very little sleep. If I managed to fall asleep, I didn’t stay asleep very long. Doubt if I got more than two hours total last night. It has been a long day! Both Kathy and Nicole told me today that they didn’t sleep well last night either. Something is going on that is pulling us all off center. Curious minds want to know what!

Got two huge trash bags full of trash taken down with the usual load of trash today. Some came out of the garage and some of it came out of the barn. I will continue to fill a couple bags a week until I get rid of what needs to go. Feels good to get that process started.

The girls gave me 22 eggs today. Two were in the nesting boxes laying when I was gathering eggs. If I had waited, I might have gotten 24 eggs today. Wow! That would have set a new record for this group of hens.

I got hold of the EFIS repair guy today. He has to go to Wichita next week and said he would stop by and look at the project so when they get ready to do it there won’t be a delay. I sure hope that project gets done soon. I am so tired of dealing with this hail damage restoration that started way back last August. I’m grateful he is actually coming to look at it. He bid it using pictures I had sent him and measurements the window guy provided. Once he gets that done I can have the guttering guys come and then I can close out this insurance claim.

I’ve been in negotiations on the contract most of the day. I think we are close to getting a document to sign. What a relief that will be when that happens. It still may happen today. Once I get the contract signed I will spill the beans and let everyone know what is going on behind the scenes in my life.

The John Deere people were to have delivered the mower this morning but so far they haven’t shown up. They did this last time it was in for service too. After about a month of waiting for it, I had to call and remind them they still needed to deliver it. That is why I try to get it taken care of early so it gets home before I need it.

Still need to do my 15 minutes of exercise for the day. I was going to do them before I ate lunch but I forgot so now need to wait for lunch to settle a bit before I do them. My tummy has been feeling a bit off today and I don’t want to give it a reason to go gangster on me anymore than it is already. I was not sore at all when I woke up this morning from the exercise I did yesterday. Hooray for that. That was one of my biggest concerns with this program and that didn’t happen.

Jason was impressed with what they had done with me yesterday at exercise. He said most injuries happen when people jump in too hard and fast when they are beginning an exercise program. He really liked that they took it slow and gentle. I will have to find some patience with this program and trust that what I am doing will pay dividends for me down the line.

Tomorrow will be a long day in town. I will be doing taxes at the Senior Center from 9:00 – 12:00. I have exercise at 3:30 and then another tax shift at the Credit Union from 5:00 – 8:00. I have a couple of errands to run in between so not sure if I will come home for a bit or not. We will see how long the errands take.

Other than exercise at home on Thursday and in Emporia on Friday, I don’t have anything on my calendar for the rest of the week after tomorrow. It will be good to have several quiet days at home. I have some things I need to work on and that will give me several days to get a good start on them.

Sitting in a good place mentally today. There has been a lot going on but I have managed to stay on top of most of it so far and not let it pull me off center. Sure hoping I get a good night’s sleep tonight. It is hard to think straight when I am sleep deprived and now is not a good time for me to miss something.

It has been a beautiful day on the prairie, although it has been a touch windy. We have hit 63 so far today and the forecast only called for 37. I’ll take 63 over 37 any day!

Grateful for no muscle soreness today, grateful for a beautiful spring-like day, and grateful the clean out garage and barn project got started.

It has been a long day. I met someone at 8:00 this morning in Cottonwood Falls. I had a list of things I needed to talk to them about and we got it all covered and were done with our meeting by 8:30.

I came home and went back to bed. I had trouble getting a nap in though as my phone kept ringing and I kept getting texts and messages. Gave up and got up and got a few things done.

Had a phone conversation with the people that are drawing up the contract I have been working on with someone. Good to get to this point in the process and am hoping to see a rough draft later this week. That will feel good to get that signed and enter into the final stages of that legally.

I left the house a little after 1:00 this afternoon to go to my 1:30 exercise class. The coordinator from KU came down and met with me and my trainer. She had trouble getting my new Fitbit to work so that meeting lasted about 30 minutes longer than she expected it to.

Once I got through all the paperwork and learning how to use the Fitbit and track my exercise time, the trainer and I did my first workout together.

We watched a video of exercises and did them along with the video. The trainer did them too – kinda. She coached me once or twice but otherwise we just watched the video and did what they said to do.

It was a simple routine. I was told they start me off slow and gradually increase the intensity of the exercises we do. I don’t think I will be sore tomorrow as it didn’t feel I got a very hard workout in. I sat in a chair or stood by the chair during today’s exercises. Hard to think what I did today will do much good but I don’t know much about this type of thing.

I worked out for about 40 minutes today. I have exercises I have to do at home tomorrow that they said would only take about 15 minutes. I go back to the gym on Wednesday afternoon and then again on Friday. I only have to do 150 minutes of exercise per week to meet the goal they have set for me. With doing the gym for 30 -40 minutes three times a week I won’t have to do much at home to get the 150 minutes.

After I was done at the gym I went and had lunch. I then stopped at McDonald’s and picked up 30 fry boxes. I was out of them and like to have them on hand. They come in handy many times. I am going to clean the garage out tomorrow and then work on the barn and needed some boxes to put stuff in to give away.

I headed over to do taxes. It was a slow night as two people called and cancelled and two others didn’t show up. I much prefer nights when we are busy. I don’t like to sit and visit and wait. I only prepared one return but I checked three returns. I got done early and was out of there by 7:30.

Tomorrow I have a free day at home. I will have to do my 15 minutes of exercises but have nothing else on my calendar. I hope to be able to tackle cleaning out the garage tomorrow. It desperately needs cleaned out.

Wednesday I go back to town for two different tax preparation sessions and exercise in between. I’ll go see the Chiropractor and I have two errands to take care of while I am in town Wednesday.

It will be good to have a free day tomorrow. I need a day to slow things down a bit and take care of a few little things. I forgot to call the locksmith today so need to take care of that tomorrow.

Felt good to get the first exercise session in. The program definitely feels doable to me now. I’m sure the intensity will increase as time goes by and I will be able to tell I am working out. I liked the trainer and think we will get along OK together. It will take me a bit to get in the routine of all of it but I can do this.

I sure like days when I get to stay home better than the days I spend most of my time in town. I didn’t get drained being in town most of the day. I will consider today a win as a result. I’m grateful I have tomorrow to stay home and refill.

Grateful the first day of exercise is successfully completed, grateful the contract is being drawn up, and grateful I get to stay home all day tomorrow.

We are watching the Super Bowl as I type. Neither team is looking good right now. I’m sure the nerves will settle down soon and it will turn into a better game.

Tagen and Lily came out around 3:15 and had dinner. Kathy and I ate with them. Michelle and Ellexia came around 4:45. Jason and Ellexia had dinner then.

Jason made a sausage, hamburger cheese dip and I made a meat and cheese tray and a cheesecake to eat during the game. No chance anyone will go hungry here today! It is fun watching the game with the kids. We rearrange the living room so everyone has a comfortable chair to sit in to watch the game.

I have done four loads of dishes so far today and will have at least one more if not two more loads to do before the day is over. I must like to dirty dishes when I cook.

I need to remember to call the locksmith tomorrow morning and find out why he didn’t come Saturday and find a time when he can come.

Tomorrow I am meeting someone in Cottonwood Falls at 8:00. I’ll have to remember to set my alarm when I go to bed tonight so I can get up and get around to get to town by 8:00. I have to be in Emporia at 1:30 to go to my first exercise session. I have a couple of errands to do afterwards. I should be done by 3:00. I have to be at taxes at 5:00 so not sure if I will come home in between or not.

Tuesday I have a free day and on Wednesday I am doing taxes again both in the morning and evening.

I made some progress on my long list of things to do today. Contacted four people on my list and got things started with them. I will stop at four places tomorrow and get four more things started or taken care of. It feels good to get things moving along.

I’m hoping I can get the garage cleaned out one day this week. It is to be 57 Tuesday and if it isn’t too windy I can do it then. I also need to get down to the barn and get started on cleaning it out. Both projects are way over due.

Hoping to sign a contract this week sometime. We shall see if that can happen. Not sure how long it takes to draw up the contract. We have a handshake agreement but not sure it feels real yet until I have a contract.

I’m a bit nervous about the exercise class tomorrow. I have a tendency to make the anticipation of something worse than it could ever play out when it happens. It will be so good to have the first one over and done with it. Have my fingers crossed that I will be able to walk on Tuesday without soreness.

Still able to hold myself above the neutral level on the consciousness chart. Lots going on but am excited about the possible changes ahead for me. I had lots of empty space on my calendar and now I understand why. Things are going to get busy around here if this deal goes through.

Grateful to have a house full to watch the game with tonight, grateful some things got crossed off my to-do list today, and grateful my exercise program gets started tomorrow.

Had a productive meeting last night. We took another step forward to making a deal. We should make it final sometime next week. Fingers crossed this deal happens and I can begin a new life path. Details to come soon!

Had four women over this afternoon. We worked on putting our final wishes in written format. We laughed, we cried and had a delightful time working on our wishes. Grateful all of us were on the same page with what we want to happen. Made it easier to go deep and have some tough conversations. Grateful for their trust and presence today.

Brought up 20 eggs from the girls after the women left. The rooster didn’t even come close to me today. The weather felt more like February weather this afternoon. I definitely had to have a coat, scarf, hat and gloves today for my trip down to the coop.

Went to Emporia when I finished chores and picked up things for dinner tomorrow night. I didn’t sleep much last night and will go to bed early tonight and hopefully can sleep in tomorrow. Since I went to town today I don’t have to set my alarm to get up and go to town in the morning.

The Locksmith didn’t show up today. Not sure why. I didn’t hear from him. I will call him Monday and find another time for him to come out. Fingers crossed I will be able to keep the door closed and be able to open it until he can get out here and fix it.

I’m fixing Tagen a ham, cheesy potatoes, macaroni and cheese, and a cheesecake for dinner tomorrow night. Jason got some stuff to make a hamburger, sausage, and cheese dip and I got some meat and cheese to make a snack tray. We will all eat our way through the football game.

I got a text today requesting I help to do taxes Monday night. I have to go to town at 1:30 for my first exercise class and will be done with that at 3:00. I barely have time to go home and then I will have to turn around and go back to town to do a tax shift from 5:00 – 8:00.

I have started making a long list of things to do next week. Some I can do from home and some I have to go to town for. Lots of decisions to be made soon to get things moving along. I had trouble sleeping last night so got up and made a list of things that I will need to take care of. I had hoped that would let my mind quiet down and let me sleep but it didn’t help much. Sure hate nights like last night where sleep is almost impossible to find.

I have come to truly understand and know that when things are easy for me, that is the right path to be on. I wish I had learned that when I was 30 or 40 instead of at the age of 70 but better late than never, Forcing anything these days just doesn’t work for me any more.

Grateful for the presence of my guests this afternoon, grateful groceries for tomorrow are in the house, and grateful for life lessons I learn daily.

Another quiet, stay-at-home type of day on the prairie. I did get a batch of cookies made for the Workshop tomorrow. I picked up a little bit around here but haven’t done much else today. I fell asleep in my chair and took a short nap this afternoon. Lazy, beautiful day on the prairie today.

A neighbor came up and got two dozen eggs. We had a nice short visit. I got some good information from her so the timing of her visit was divinely inspired.

I have someone coming over in a bit to talk some business with me. We shall see where this all goes. Hoping for the best but not expecting anything to change. We shall see what happens.

The girls gave me 21 eggs today. One was broken so they got that one back. It is drying up a bit down there. I still wore my muck boots and was glad I had them on but am thinking by the first of the week the mud will be dry. The girls are approving of this mild weather we are having right now. It was forecast to be in the low 40’s and we got up to the upper 50’s today.

If the night temperature would warm up a bit the EFIS guys could get the house done. It has to be above 40 day and night for four or five days before they will come to do the work. Daytime temperatures are making it way past that but we are still getting too cold during the night.

I did get two more forms for tomorrow’s workshop typed up. I’m grateful I remembered to get those done.

Tomorrow will be a busy day with the locksmith coming in the morning and the Advanced Directive Workshop in the afternoon. I still have room in the Workshop if you want to join us. Cost is $25 and that will get you most, if not all the way, complete with your end of life care plan. It should be informative and I will make it as fun as possible. It is a heavy subject to talk about but it does provide a lot of peace when you are done. It is a wonderful gift to give your loved ones.

Sunday Tagen and Lily are coming out for dinner and to watch the game. Not sure if Michelle and Ellexia are coming or not. Not sure what I am fixing yet but I will figure that out Sunday. Just need to fix lots whatever it is! That man-child can eat.

Monday at 1:30 I have to be at Emporia Fitness for my first exercise class. Someone from KU Research Program is coming to give me a new Fitbit and to make sure I get started out OK. I will be going to the gym three days a week and then on the other days doing exercises at home. Sure hope I enjoy this and it works for me.

Next Wednesday I will do two sessions of tax prep and fit exercise in between the two sessions. Don’t have anything else on my calendar next week except another exercise class on Friday.

Need to make a trip to either Topeka or Wichita one of these days soon and get deck paint. It has been warm enough to paint during the day. I may go ahead and get the front decks done before the EFIS gets repaired. They don’t have much to do on the east side of the house except around the windows so I think I will be good to get that done before they come. I may change the color of the deck paint. What I have shows dirt too much – especially with the dog’s dirty paws walking all over it.

Ever since I had that day in January when I realized the Universe has my back and can line things up to my advantage, I feel I have shifted. I keep noticing more and more how things are working out for me. I still struggle to allow the journey to unfold in a new way and on a timeline I don’t know. I keep reminding myself to stay patient and allow. All is well and all will be well!

Grateful for a short nap in my chair this afternoon, grateful for a divinely timed visit from a friend today, and grateful for another reminder that the Universe has my back.

It has been a delightful day of doing nothing. It is in the mid 60’s out with a bright blue sky. It is very windy though. We have had a wind gust of 48.7 MPH so far today. I have been soaking up the beauty of the prairie today sitting in my favorite chair in the corner of my living room.

I did at least three tax returns last night and I might have done four. I lose track easily of how many I do. We are reviewing each other’s work this year which is a change for this site. That is the way we did them in Oklahoma. It speeds up the process as when we used to only have one person that reviewed them, the people would have to wait a bit to get done. Ran into a few glitches but overall it was an easy night. I enjoy working with the guy that is the moderator at this site. When I make a mistake, he takes the time to teach me what I did wrong so I won’t keep repeating the mistake. I appreciate that.

This has been another low energy type of day for me. I keep telling myself I need to get up and do something but nothing is tempting me enough to get my ass out of my chair and get up and take care of it. Nothing feels urgent enough to bother doing. Have some cleaning that needs done but it seems to be patiently waiting for me to get to it.

I read a Facebook meme from Carolyn Myss which said “The act of forgiveness is the act of returning to the present time. And that’s why when one has become a forgiving person and has managed to let go of the past, what they’ve really done is they’ve shifted their relationship with time.” I keep thinking about that and am finding it very true. Right here, right now, in this present moment, all is well. What happened in the past is no longer dragging me down as all is well, right here, right now. As long as I can stay present to the present moment, all is well. That seems powerful to me in new ways every time I think about it. In this present moment, no one is hurting me, I’m not hurting anyone, and no one has the power to dim my light. All is well. Is that forgiveness? Maybe? I will continue to contemplate this statement and search for even deeper understanding.

I have an abundance of eggs on hand right now if anyone needs some. The girls are appreciating this warmer weather and are laying like crazy right now.

Tomorrow I have someone coming over in the afternoon. Saturday I have the Locksmith coming to fix my back door in the morning and then the Advanced Directives Workshop in the afternoon. Sunday is the Super Bowl and I think Tagen and Lily are coming for dinner and to watch the game. Monday I start my exercise program. I’m excited and nervous to have the first appointment. I trust I will enjoy my trainer and will adapt to exercising without much physical discomfort. It will be weird going to town three times a week and having something on my calendar three times a week.

Still sitting with a major potential life change in front of me. Working on some bits and pieces of it and sitting with what will be the best path forward for me. Sometimes the path feels very clear to me and then I come to a fork and have to sit and wait for guidance as to what direction to take. All is good and all is well. I have full confidence that the best path for me will be made clear to me when the timing is right.

Grateful for this beautiful spring-like day, grateful for new learnings and understanding about forgiveness, and grateful for a new potential path in my future.

Busy morning for me. I was at the Senior Center at 8:45 as I was requested to be there early. No one else showed up until 9:00. I was able to log on and do a return. When they went to have the return reviewed, which is part of the process, they couldn’t find the return. They finally figured out I didn’t log in under the Senior Center ID. No one told me I had a different log in name and password for the Senior Center.

The lady that does the computer authorizations had approved me to do returns at the Credit Union but hadn’t given me authorization to do them at the Senior Center. Not sure why that happened but out of my control.

Then there was another issue that came up. I was to have assigned the review to someone. I didn’t know about that and that wasn’t required Monday night. When I had them attempt to show me where it was in the process that I had missed, they couldn’t find it. No one can explain why it doesn’t show up. If I remember right from four years ago, the initial thing shows up when you review the return but it might have changed. This system is complicated and not easy to figure out sometimes.

Left the Senior Center at 10:00 and went to my doctor’s appointment. It was a routine six month medication check. It only took the doctor five minutes with me. He did want me to get my thyroid levels checked afterwards. I had to wait for the lab lady for about 15 minutes to get a blood draw.

Went back to the Senior Center and did another return. We were out of clients for the day so I left at 11:30.

I went to the Chiropractor and got adjusted. I then dropped off the big trash bag full of clothes I had taken out of my closet at Salvation Army. Then I dropped off something at my Property Manager’s house and dropped off some cookies for Tagen. Went through the car wash and then went to Walmart for groceries.

Got what I needed the old fashioned way inside the store. Came home and got everything unloaded and put away. It was a whirlwind trip to town, especially with all the confusion with the tax thing. Thankfully those kinks will all get worked out over the next week or so and then things should go fairly smoothly.

I have to go back to Emporia tonight for another round of tax prep. I do enjoy interacting with the clients and am finding doing the taxes easy, compared to the testing issues. I’m grateful I have an empty space day tomorrow to recover in. I will be tired by the time I get home tonight.

The doctor’s office called shortly after I got home to tell me my TSH level was 3.76. That is a touch high but not bad. I may need to go back to the 125 dose instead of the lower dose of 112. I will be surprised if my Endocrinologist changes the dose though. She usually lets it ride for a bit. I will have it checked again in May when I go see her Nurse Practitioner for a regular check up.

It is a windy day on the prairie today with even more wind coming tomorrow. It is 58 out which is warmer than forecast. It is partly cloudy so it doesn’t feel as warm as it is.

I have a free afternoon except for doing chicken chores. I may try to do some cleaning and work out some pent up frustration from this morning. Moving my body always helps move that up and out.

Feeling a bit scattered and ungrounded this afternoon. Chaos like this morning can pulled me off my center – especially when it happens needlessly. I will get up and move my body and take some extra time doing chicken chores outdoors and see if that will help me get grounded. I still feel I am at or above the neutral level so that is good. Trusting tonight will be easy and fun and won’t pull me down.

Grateful my errands for the day got taken care of, grateful for some empty space time this afternoon, and grateful that actually doing the taxes is easy.

This has been a quiet day on the prairie. I feel tired today and have low energy. Decided to declare it a rest day and not do much – not that I do much most days.

Good news – Michelle let me know she got her car out. Not sure how but am grateful she did. What an experience that was for her. Traveling on unknown gravel roads when it is dark and rainy is dangerous.

John Deere came and picked up the lawn mower to take it in for its annual service. They had called to tell me they were on their way so I went down and drove the mower out of the barn for them. I saw the truck come and pick it up but didn’t talk to them. They know what to do with it as they do it every year. It always come back looking fairly new.

I changed three light bulbs today. The hallway one had burned out and I can’t reach it using my small step ladder. I have a bulb changer on a long pole that I remembered I had so used that. The other two were in the pantry and I had to get a ladder to reach them. Burned out light bulbs bother me and these had been out for a bit. Glad I remembered to get them changed today.

It has warmed up to 54 today which is higher than the forecast predicted. It is partly cloudy with light wind. I’ll take the mid 50’s anytime in February. Spring is coming – I can feel it!

Jason has pool league tonight so won’t be home for dinner. I had a late lunch so won’t need to fix dinner tonight for me.

Tomorrow will be a busy day. I have to be at the Senior Center at 8:45 to do taxes. I have a Doctor’s appointment at 10:30 so will leave at 10:00 to go to that. If I get out of the Doctor’s by 11:00 I’ll go back and do another tax return. After that I will go to the Chiropractor and then stop and get a few groceries. I have a big bag of clothes to drop off at the Salvation Army while I am downtown. I have to come back to town to do taxes at 5:00 Wednesday evening.

Thursday and Friday are still empty space days – so far. That seems to change quick around here though. Saturday I have the Locksmith coming in the morning and then the Advanced Directives Workshop in the afternoon. Sunday is Super Bowl. I think Tagen and Lily are coming out to watch the game and have dinner with me.

This is one of those days where my mind is very quiet. It is hard to hold on to a thought for long. I feel like I am in slow motion of sorts today. I don’t think I would do well taking a test of any sort today, can’t process very quickly today. It feels good to slow down and relax into being today and not doing. Going to allow this to play out today and enjoy the quiet within. It doesn’t happen often!

Grateful the light bulbs got changed, grateful Michelle’s car got out of the mud, and grateful for a quiet mind today.

I got a text this morning from the tax coordinator asking if I would do taxes tonight as one of the ladies was sick. I said yes so I went in this evening. I had to be there a bit early so they could hook my Chrome book up to the printer. Good thing I went in early as I was not registered in the system. They had to call someone who had to do something in the system to let me into the program. That process took about 15 minutes. Dang, I don’t understand why simple things can get so complicated sometimes.

I did three returns tonight. I was surprised that I was able to do most of them without help. It came back to me. I had forgotten how much fun it is to interact with the people as I do taxes. They are so appreciative of our help and so patient with me. I do taxes again Wednesday morning at the Senior Center and then again Wednesday evening at the Emporia Credit Union.

The rooster came after me today. He kinda came out of nowhere as I was leaving the coop. I dropped the basket of eggs I was carrying and went after him with the ball bat. I whacked him good a couple of times. He stopped and squatted and then shit. I must have scared the shit out of him – literally! I gave him another whack for good measure. I’ll see what he does tomorrow. That guy has met his match!

I broke six eggs when I dropped the egg basket. I have lots of eggs on hand so no worries. I didn’t give the girls the broken eggs as I wasn’t going to reward the rooster for his misbehavior. Petty of me I know!

There is fog rolling in again tonight. It is disorienting to drive in. I missed turning onto V Road when I was coming home from town tonight. I realized it when I hit the curve on the road towards Strong City. I turned around and found my correct turnoff spot.

I realized how much I have changed since I did taxes in 2020. It was very easy for me to ask for help tonight. I wasn’t able to do that in 2020. I used to get anxious and nervous about doing them and tonight I relaxed into the fun of doing them instead. I didn’t rush through them like I used to either.

I fixed some goulash before I went to town to do taxes and put it in the crockpot so it would be ready for Jason when he got home tonight. I had a bit when I got home too. I had never put goulash in the crockpot before. It was good but the noodles got very soft as it was in there for four hours. It did the trick though and we both got a hot dinner when we got home.

I think I have a free day tomorrow. I had planned on having one today but that didn’t happen. I did remember to call John Deere and they are coming tomorrow to pick up the big riding mower and take it in for service. The heating guys called to let me know the price of the damper motor I need and to get permission to order that. The propane company came and filled the propane tank today. Between those three things I spent over $1,600 today. Not bad for not leaving home! Yikes, money sure can fly out of this house.

I also called the locksmith. The back door leading to the garage has a plate that is messing up and the door is hard to keep close. I’m afraid I won’t be able to get the door open and closed one of these days. He is to come Saturday morning and fix it. $$$$

I went through my closet today and gathered up a huge trash bag full of clothes to get rid of. If I hadn’t worn a winter item this winter that was hanging in my closet, I got rid of it today. Feels good to have less clothes in my closet, especially since I never wore whaat I got rid of. Don’t know why I keep things around that I don’t use. I think I forget to go through them and get rid of them.

I need to do the same thing in the pantry and see what I can get rid of from there. It is too full and getting cluttered again. I tend to keep things because I have lots of space and not because the item is actually something I ever use. Time to get things cleaned out and downsize what I have again.

I need to do some final preparation tomorrow for the Five Wishes Workshop I am hosting on Saturday afternoon. I have most everything ready but wanted to print out a sheet that talks about the odds of success for CPR on older adults. I think some will find that helpful as they make a decision on their wishes about having CPS done on them. It rarely works on older adults and if it does there can be long-term damage done and added complications to a person’s wellbeing afterwards.

There is still space in the workshop for more participants. We are starting at 2:00 and will work on your advanced directives. The cost is $25 and you may get through it all or you may need to finish it at a later date. I can notarize and make everything legal for you that day. You are welcome to come join us.

Wednesday I will do taxes both in the morning and evening. I also have a doctor’s appointment in the morning. That will be a long day for me. Haven’t figured out what to do with myself in the afternoon so will probably make two trips to town that day. My exercise program doesn’t start until next week. As far as I know now, I have empty space on Thursday and Friday.

Felt good to have the first day of doing taxes under my belt. I now know I can do them this year and will have fun doing so. It also felt good to have made a couple of phone calls today and get the mower and back door fix started. Somedays I just can’t make myself make a phone call.

Grateful to have been in service to three families today by doing taxes, grateful I could make some needed phone calls today, and grateful for a lighter closet tonight.

Another rainy day on the prairie. Loving the rain but missing the sunshine. I just came up from doing chicken chores and the temperature is dropping. My hands are cold from being outside for 10 minutes. The girls were all inside already which is a bit unusual for them. They must not approve of this cooler weather either.

Last night I got a text from Michelle. She had gone out in the country to pick Ellexia up and got stuck. I gave her the phone number for the towing company. She called me back and told me the tow truck couldn’t help her as they would have gotten stuck too. They recommend she call someone with a tractor.

Thank heavens Jason is here and he went to the rescue. Michelle had to walk down the road she was on to meet Jason at the intersection. Jason almost got stuck too but luckily managed to get out. He took Michelle home. Ellexia’s friend’s mother came and got her and her friend and took Ellexia home. Michelle’s car is still stuck in the middle of a county road. She called the sheriff and told them what was going on. Hoping it stops raining soon so she can figure something out tomorrow that can get her car free. Hope she didn’t damage something on the bottom of it. She said she is up the hubcaps in mud.

I went to Emporia early afternoon. I stopped and gave Tagen the dessert that I made for him. I cut a few pieces out for Jason as Jason enjoys this dessert too. Got to see Ellexia for a minute too.

I went to the Celebration of Life Service for a dear friend. I was able to get to talk to one of her daughters and give her a hug. There was a growing crowd there. They were going to have a short program but I didn’t stay for that. Lisa is well loved and admired and the size of the crowd today reflected that. Gone much too soon.

I went back by Michelle’s house afterwards so I could talk to Michelle for a minute. I offered her the use of my car for Monday and Tuesday but she said she had worked something out and she was good. She has a friend that is coming tomorrow to help her get her car out.

While I was in town the tax coordinator called me to tell me the slides I had been given Friday were the wrong ones. When I got home I managed to find the right ones and finished up my training by watching two videos and answering questions along the way. I think I am finally done with tax prep. Thank God doing taxes is much easier! My first shift is this Wednesday. I will be doing them from 9 – noon at the Emporia Senior Center and again from 5 – 8 in the evening at the Credit Union. It will make a long day for me but it only takes one day of my time each week. Once I get into the swing of it, I will enjoy doing them.

I get to stay home the next two days this week. I am a bit cranky this afternoon so will enjoy having some empty space and no where to go. We have a chance for some snow overnight and it is only going to be 45 for the high tomorrow. It will be a good day to stay tucked inside by the fireplace. The rest of the week is to be in the high 50’s and lower 60’s.

My personal tax accountant lady sent an email today and needed a few dates of when I did some capital improvements on the rentals. Wow! I might get my taxes completed early this year. I am expecting a refund so that will be good to get it early. I was surprised she is working on them already. Usually she doesn’t get to them till mid March.

My pending list is the shortest it has been for a long time right now. Not many things on it that I can handle. Most are things that are in the hands of someone else that I am waiting on them to do their thing. Hope I can keep the list short for a bit. It was rather long a couple weeks ago.

Need to remember to call John Deere tomorrow and find a time when they can come pick up the mower for its annual service. It will be mowing season before I know it. I have lots of yard work to do this spring as I got behind last year and never did get caught up. Maybe I can twist Jason’s arm and get him to help me get some things done.

I need to schedule a weekend and have all the kids and grandkids come home and help me get the decks painted. I don’t want that project to take all of my summer. Trusting by late March the EFIS will be done and if everyone comes, we could get all three decks painted in one weekend with us all painting at the same time. Maybe I will use the old lady card and they will take pity on me and come help me out.

I also need to find someone to cut the little trees down around the fenced lagoon. I never did get that done last year. Time to start thinking about projects like that to get done this spring. The flower beds desperately need cleaned up too.

I’ve attended three memorial services in the last two weeks. All were people that were my age or younger. Really makes me stop and think about my life and how tomorrow is never promised. I need to stop worrying about things I can’t control and get out there and live my life big!

Grateful Michelle, Jason and Ellexia got home safe last night, grateful my tax prep crap is officially completed, and grateful I have two free empty space days ahead of me.

Rainy day on the prairie. We need the rain so I won’t complain. My Tempest weather station is showing we have gotten about one half of an inch of rain so far. We have good chances for rain all through tomorrow. It is in the low 50’s which feels a bit cold after hitting the high 60’s the last couple of days. Still very nice temperatures compared to the brutal cold we had in January. It is to be in the low 50’s to low 60’s most of next week. I’ll take those temperatures in February anytime.

I’ve been lazy today. This last week has felt crazy busy and I needed a quiet day. I did drive to Matfield Green this afternoon to attend a Celebration of Life for a friend’s son. It was well attended and well done. I didn’t know many people so I didn’t stay for the reception afterwards. I got to hug my friend and then I came back home.

I have another Celebration of Life service to go to tomorrow afternoon. This one is for a friend of mine. She was my age and her daughter and my daughter were in Girl Scouts together. I was so sad when I heard she had died. She was a wonderful human that was kind, funny and generous to others. She will be missed greatly by all that knew her.

Last night I heard a knocking sound outside. Finally figured out it was from an old cable wire that must have broken the zip tie at the roof line and was blowing and hitting the side of the house. When I came through Strong City on the way home I stopped at the hardware store and told them I needed a tool that would cut that suckers head off. They laughed and helped me find a wire cutter. Got home and went out to cut the wire. I wasn’t strong enough to cut through it but I was able to pull it all the way down from the down spout and put it on the ground. That sucker banged against the house all night and woke me up several times. I told Kathy that this house has gremlins sometimes! Good to have gotten that one taken care of.

I almost fell into the muck when I went down to do the chickens. It is one muddy mess out there. I still have a bit of snow that hasn’t melted completely yet and with the rain it has added a layer of slick to the mud. The rooster stayed away from me today – good boy! I got 20 eggs for my slippery trip down to the coop today. The eggs are muddy – I wish I could teach the girls how to wipe their feet before they get in the nesting boxes.

I need to make a dessert I promised Tagen I would make for him so I can take it to town with me tomorrow afternoon when I go. It is one of Jason’s favorites too so I will take some out for Jason. It is a good day to be in the kitchen. I may bake some cookies too if I find some energy to do so.

I’m trying to decide if I want to get the hepatitis vaccine. Has any one gotten it yet? Did you have a reaction to it if so? I only need it if I decide to do more international travel. It is a series of three shots over six months. Not sure how likely it is that I will doing any international travel travel to a country where getting exposed is a real possibility. I guess if I decide to do the walking tour of the Himalayans next year I can schedule the series before I go.

I sure could fall asleep right now. I got more sleep last night than I had the two nights before but the cable cord kept waking me up. A nap on a rainy afternoon sounds luxurious and I might have to indulge myself.

I need to remember to call John Deere and have them come pick up my mower for its annual service. I keep forgetting to do that. It will be mowing season before I know it. I need to get it in before they get really busy. I love that they will come pick it up and then bring it back to me when it is done. I do have to pay for that but it makes it so easy for me that I don’t mind the extra charge. I don’t have a way to get it in without bugging someone else otherwise.

I have a trailer that I need to sell. It is a long one and I have no way of pulling it and need it out of my way. Not sure how to go about selling it and what it might be worth. I forget about it most of the time as it is down in the shop and I rarely go in there. I have a lot of spring cleaning I need to do in the shop this spring. Time to get rid of some things that are in there and get the shop cleaned up.

The fog is starting to roll in. It will be a quiet night on the prairie. Should be good sleeping weather. Love that we are getting some moisture but I will welcome the sun when it comes back out to play.

Grateful for the rain on the prairie today, grateful the cable wire is down, and grateful for rainy day naps.

What a day! I went to Emporia early afternoon to drop off something for Ellexia. I had two checks to deposit and then I had a quick lunch. Went to the tax coordinator’s house and finished up getting certified to do taxes. It was a bit of a circus at the meeting. I think there were three phone conversations going at the same time at one point.

I was pleased that two of the three problems in the workbook that I completed were correct. The second one I gave up on and they gave me the answers. It was a situational problem that we will not see while doing taxes. My give a shit level was pretty low by that point and I was done with it all.

Found out the reason I had trouble doing another portion of the taxes was I hadn’t been given the download I needed to do them on. What a difference that made. The one problem that I had worked was correct so I called that exercise good too. There were three other problems I could have worked on but the coordinator said not to worry about them.

Not sure the final two things I had to do was sent to me correctly. I may have two more things to read. We shall see. It seems to be a bit chaotic to get these last minute things taken care of. There are broken parts in the system that drive me crazy. Good thing actually doing taxes is easy.

I am going to be working from 9 – 12 and from 5 – 8 every Wednesday starting next week through April 10. Hoping I can work my exercise program in the afternoon. I will have to find something to do in Emporia every Wednesday afternoon for a couple of hours. Not sure I want to put 70 miles on my car every week by making two trips to town that day. Ideas? Anyone know of a volunteer thing I could do in Emporia on Wednesday afternoons?

When I got done doing taxes I went to Walmart to pick up my grocery order. I was early but one of the workers checked in with me and he checked me in and I got my order early. Bless his heart. I can now order ice with my on-line order. Yay!

Came home and got everything unloaded and put away and did the chicken chores. I got 22 eggs again today. They are meeting their summer high production right now. I think they like these 70 degree February days. The rooster gave me the stink eye today but left me alone.

Tomorrow I am going to Matfield Green to a Celebration of Life Service in the afternoon. I have another service to go to Sunday afternoon. I promised Tagen a special dessert so I will take that in Sunday to him when I go to town. I got the stuff to make it with my grocery order today.

Next week looks much calmer. This week has been a whirlwind. I will enjoy a couple of days full of empty space next week. My pending list got shortened this week though so some things got done. Sometimes I feel pretty overwhelmed with all it takes to keep this house running. I don’t like waiting for someone else to do something. My style is to just get it done – now!

So far I have been able to hold myself above the neutral level on the consciousness scale even with all the chaos of the week. I am going to need to take some time to refill soon though. Lots of stuff going on in the background that has me riled up. I didn’t sleep much again last night. I am overdue for a crash and burn moment.

Grateful the tax prep crap is done, grateful for another spring day in early February, and grateful I have some empty space in front of me this evening.

Hello February. I’m grateful you rolled around and trust you have nothing but good things in store for all of us. I appreciate this 68 degree day you gave us and welcome more just like it.

I went to town this morning. I dropped my taxes off at my accountant’s office, deposited a check at the bank, picked up some HeartGuard from the Vet and got my haircut. I took my car through the car wash and was on my way to drop something off for Ellexia when Modern Air called. Justin was headed to my house so I skipped buying groceries and headed home.

Justin was waiting for me when I got home. I told him about the noise I had been hearing and let him listen to the recording I made of it. He knew immediately what the problem is – a damper motor. He figured out which one it is and they are going to order a new one. He unplugged the broken one so the noise would stop. He said my bedroom might get too hot but I can live with that more than I can the tapping noise.

While Justin was here I asked him about Michelle’s house. Ellexia’s bedroom is too cold and when someone else from Modern Air went over all they did was open a register in Michelle’s room which did not fix the problem. Justin told me her tri-level house has bad duct work and there isn’t anything they can do to fix it. He recommended they get a space heater for the room. Glad to know what needs to happen and glad to have saved another service call that wouldn’t have solved the problem. Justin from Modern Air is the best!

I didn’t make it back to Emporia to get groceries. I have to go to town tomorrow to meet with the tax program coordinator at 2:00 and will stop and get groceries after that meeting. I will also drop off Ellexia’s thingy that I didn’t get to her today.

The girls gave me 22 eggs today. They are busy down there. I went after the rooster with the ball bat just to show him who is boss. He totally ran the other way when I got ready to leave the coop. I’ll keep the bat handy in case he forgets. It sure is nice to walk down to do chores with only a sweater needed and not my snow suit. I did wear my muck boots though as it is still muddy from the snow melting. Still have a bit of snow on the ground in front of the coop and by the retaining walls in the back yard.

Went to a friend’s house for a bit for some conversation. It felt good to sit outside for a bit and visit with some friends. I had to get back home to meet someone so wasn’t able to stay very long.

I need to finish up my tax homework yet today or tomorrow morning. I have procrastinated as long as possible and I have to get it done now. Tax season starts next week and I have to be certified before I can do a return for someone. I am only on the schedule for one day a week so it won’t be much of a commitment for me this year. I told her I would be happy to fill in for others if the need arises.

I got my electric bill today. It is the highest it has been since I got solar panels. I was expecting it to be high as my furnace ran non stop for two weeks. The panels don’t generate lots of electricity when it is cloudy and they are covered in snow. Getting this bill sure makes me appreciate my solar panels, especially in the summer time.

This has felt like a hectic week. Lots of background noise happening that has me stirred up a bit. Excited to think about a major life change but not sure it will happen. I should find out in the next week or so. Fun to dream about new things headed my way.

Reminding myself to stay present to what is and to allow things to unfold as they are meant to, knowing that the universe has my back and is working things out to my best and highest good.

Grateful for good friends to meet up with, grateful for new possibilities and grateful for a haircut today.