Starry night on the prairie

The rain finally stopped around noon today.  It has sprinkled off and on this afternoon but no more heavy stuff.  The prairie is in a thunderstorm watch this evening until 10:00.  Hoping it will skirt around me and the sun will continue to shine until sunset time.  The dark clouds are moving in again though.  Hopefully the forecast for tomorrow calls for sunshine all day.  Rain is to return Thursday and continue off and on through next Monday.  Roads are flooded already.  We don’t need more rain this month!

Went into Emporia to get the non-perishable groceries I need for the weekend.  I will go back in Friday morning and pick up the veggies and fruit I need.  Walmart is rearranging their store and I struggled to find stuff today.

Tomorrow I am driving to Manhattan to spend the day shopping with a friend.  If we don’t find what she wants I will stay over and we will go into KC Thursday to look there.  I’ll do chores before I leave and things should be good for overnight.

I have finally settled back into the empty space and quiet of the prairie.  It has felt soul refreshing to be in the quiet today.  I hated to go into town but wanted to get the heavy part of the grocery shopping done so it won’t take so long Friday morning.  I forgot to stop at the bank but I can do that Friday.  I thought I could run over to Cottonwood Falls to the bank on my way out of town tomorrow but they are predicting the road between the two towns will be flooded over by morning.

Had another guy come out and give me a bid to get my deck refinished.  His bid was much more reasonable than the other guy I had give me a bid.  Unfortunately this guy is way behind due to all the rain we have been having and it will be at least two months before he can do the work.  I had him put me on his list.  He is also trained in soft power washing the side of the house and will do that job also.

Didn’t get much done at home today again but didn’t feel quite so lazy and unproductive today.  I am finally refilling my soul and body from being gone for three weeks.  I had forgotten we crossed two time zones and it always takes my body some time to adjust to “normal” time when that happens.

I am back into my peaceful valley where things are smooth and easy.  I miss this space when I fall out of it.  I am grateful my fall into the muck pond was a short one although at the time it felt like I face planted into it.

Grateful the rain has stopped for a bit, grateful the sunshine will return tomorrow, and grateful to be back into my peaceful valley.

Rain, rain and more rain.  It started raining around noon and hasn’t let up yet.  I waded down to take care of the chickens this afternoon.  My rain gauge broke so have no idea how much we have gotten.  Forecast calls for rain for the next 24 hours.  The rivers are already running high so thinking flooding will be bad again.  I feel for the people that live close to a flood zone.  Grateful I live on a hill.

I got cold and had to turn my furnace back on.  I was still cold so went to bed to warm up under the electric blanket and fell asleep.  I am still tired so hoping I will be able to sleep tonight.  I am still recovering from my trip.

Haven’t gotten a thing done today other than chores.  My motivation to do something is totally gone today.  Decided to turn it into a lazy day – as if I had a choice!  Working to drink lots of water and get rehydrated to see if that will help.  Too nasty to get out and go anywhere.

Sure grateful I got the chicken coop cleaned out yesterday when it was nice.  The girls were inside enjoying their fresh linens when I went down to gather eggs this afternoon.  They gave me six eggs today.  I took a dozen to Michelle yesterday as I am getting more than I can use right now.  They still aren’t up to full production mode yet though.  I need a couple dozen for this weekend so hoping they won’t have anything else to do during this rain and will get busy laying.

I did work a bit on my shopping list for the weekend meals I am fixing.  I decided on menus and have gone over my list twice to make sure I have everything I need.  I am so grateful Aunt Glenda and Uncle Jack and Aunt Marylyn are going to come over Sunday if they don’t get flooded out.  I always enjoy spending time with them.

I am to go to Manhattan Wednesday and possibly spend the night.  Wonder if I will be able to get there?  This rain is getting a little much.  Council Grove Lake looked really full when I was past it last Friday.  I don’t know if that highway ever floods or not.  I will check before I head out Wednesday morning.

It feels good to be eating back on plan.  I really do feel better when I don’t over eat and when I eat the right foods in the right portion.  Part of my tiredness is because I am getting rid of the sugar and flour that I ate while I was on vacation.  It is so hard to eat every meal out as I never know what they put in food.  Sugar and flour seems to slip into most restaurant foods.  I remember when I first started eating the Bright Lines way.  I was tired for the first four months until I finally got all the toxins out of my system.  Trusting it won’t take that long this time.

Tomorrow I need to clean house for the weekend.  I plan on being going Wednesday and Thursday and Friday I need to buy groceries and start cooking.  Kathy will be home either Thursday evening or sometime Friday late morning.  Match guy is coming up sometime on Friday.  I do need to add something to fix for dinner Friday and Saturday night to my grocery list.  I forgot about that.

If you know of someone that has to evacuate due to flooding and they need dry beds let me know.  I have three rooms available until next Tuesday when my rodeo guys come in.

Two of my Sonos music system players aren’t working.  I’ll have to mess with them to see what is going on.  The lights went on and off several times before they stayed off Saturday so they might have gotten damaged.  They were working last night though so don’t know why they aren’t working today.  I’m not working well today either.  Maybe they don’t like so much rain either.

Grateful my lights have stayed on today, grateful I have a dry house on a hill to be in during this deluge, and grateful this day is almost over!

What a beautiful day on the prairie.  Sunshine all day long!  The windows and doors are open and fresh air has been blowing in all day.  It was a touch windy today but the wind has slowed down this evening.  Unfortunately rain returns again tomorrow night and will hang around on Tuesday too.  Luckily the rain forecast for Wednesday and Thursday has been taken out of the forecast only for it to return for the whole weekend.

I went into town and picked up the grandkids around 1:00 this afternoon.  They came home with me and played this afternoon.  We hadn’t seen each other for a bit so it was nice to see them.  Ellexia downloaded an app on her phone and worked on teaching herself how to play the piano all afternoon.  Tagen played with the dogs and gave them some love and attention.

I baked no bake chocolate cookies for them and sent them all home with them.  They sure smelled good.  Tagen had some s’mores as they are his favorite food at my house.

When I finish blogging I am going down and cleaning out the chicken coop.  Now that the wind has slowed down I can get that job done.  It is a perfect evening to do it.

Other than playing with the grandkids I didn’t get much done today.  I did wash my bed linens but haven’t gotten my bed remade yet.  I was having too much fun playing with the kids.

Tomorrow and Tuesday are empty space days for me.  They will be the last empty space days until Monday, June 3.  My calendar has filled up and June and July are almost full already.  Time sure flies by when I don’t have much empty space.

I realized yesterday I struggle a bit after each time I spend a couple weeks with my Match guy and then go back to living alone.  It takes me a few days to adjust to being alone again.  It is easier to step into being with him then to step out of that.

Grateful for the time I was able to spend with the grandkids today, grateful for two empty space days coming up, and grateful for the sunshine and blue skies today and a break from the rain.

Took a dive into the muck pond today.  I think I was over tired and emotionally worn out.  Finally climbed out this evening and am feeling much better finally.  It was a long, hard day.

Had a strong thunderstorm roll through around noon.  The Emporia airport reported 86 MPH winds.  We had a gust of over 70 MPH here.  Lost power from noon until 5:30 or so.  It suited my mood today to sit in the quiet and not be able to do much.  Forced me to slow down and rest.  I was grateful when it came back on so I could fix my dinner and finish the laundry.

It was nice to get home Thursday evening.  We drove straight through from Santa Fe Thursday.  It took just a bit over 10 hours.  When we got to my house we went out and started the mowing.  My Match guy pushed the little mower and I did the riding mower.  Only got a little patch mowed.  The grass was over knee high and it took two passes to get it mowed.  Friday morning I went out and finished mowing the main part of the yard with the riding mower and Match guy came out and finished the pushing mower part.

I was going to finish the rest of the yard this morning but the barn garage door broke and I couldn’t get the mower out of the barn.  It is to rain most of the week so may not get the rest mowed before I have to mow the yard again.  With all the rain we are getting the grass is growing fast.

After Match guy went home Friday I took a shower and cleaned up and then drove to Manhattan to see a dear friend.  Her husband died earlier this week and I wanted to go over and give her a big hug.  We had a nice long visit and I drove back home.  I didn’t get home until 9:20.  I’m glad I had a quiet day at home today to rest a bit.

Still processing our trip.  I learned I need to find some time to blog when I travel as I can’t remember what we did well without a written record.  Blogging helps me sort my emotions and it helps to put them into words.  I think that is part of why I fell into the muck pond today.  I felt really overwhelmed emotionally last night and this morning.

I can’t pick a favorite of all the sites we saw.  I loved the landscape of WY and the drive across Idaho and Washington state.  The Grand Canyon felt like sacred ground but so did the Redwoods and the Sequoia trees.  Yosemite was incredible as well.  Olympic National Park was amazing – especially the Hoh Rain Forest.  The beaches in Washington and Oregon were spectacular and so much fun.  Chaco Canyon was very sacred ground too.  I think I hit sensory overwhelm at some point.  Too many beautiful sites for me to absorb.

Spending time with the friends I met on the Camino, meeting and spending time with Match guy’s son, and getting to have dinner with my cousin Pam were highlights of the trip for me.  I will cherish the memories of the time I spend with each of them as well as the time I spent with my Match guy.

I’m grateful I have a couple of quiet days this week to unwind and settle in.  This morning it felt like not all of me had gotten home yet.  I finally feel whole again this evening.

I didn’t gain any weight on this trip for which I am very grateful.  It is so hard to eat three meals a day when I travel and spend 10 to 12 hours a day in a car.  I tend to snack instead of eating meals.  Vegetables are hard to find in some restaurants.  It will be good to get back on plan.  I still have five pounds to take off from the last trip.  I am tired of eating out so it felt good to eat my regular food at home today.

Match guy is coming back up Friday.  Kathy is coming home for the weekend and I have invited lots of people over to see her.  Match guy wants to meet my friends and family that are coming over.  If you want to meet him and see Kathy come join the fun.  Breakfast and coffee on Saturday is from 9:00 – 11:30, lunch is at 12:30 and lunch again on Sunday at 12:30.  Come to one event or all three.  The more the merrier.  I always fix too much food so just show up.  Kathy would love to see you.

Kathy leaves on Memorial Day to drive back to KY.  The following day I have a house full of rodeo guys checking in for a week.  Glad I have some quiet days coming up to get everything ready and to get rested up.

I had a time warp thing happens his morning.  My grandfather clock had stopped and I needed to reset it and get it started.  I checked my iPad to see what time it was and set it according to that.  Later I noticed there was an hour difference in time from the grandfather’s clock and the clock on the kitchen wall.  I checked my iPad again and couldn’t figure out what the right time was.  I finally figured out I hadn’t updated my iPad from my travels and it was showing mountain time.  I was confused for a bit!

Finally feeling grounded again and my foul mood has lifted.  The clouds are rolling in again and it feels like it might storm again this evening.  I have standing water in my yard from the hard rain we got this morning.  I hope all the rain that is forecast for this week doesn’t happen as I’m afraid the flooding will be even worse this time if we get the rain they are predicting.

Grateful for a safe trip of over 5, 850 miles, grateful my trip in the muck pond was a short one, and grateful for electricity this evening.

A quick check in on a rare quiet afternoon while on my trip.  We are having a fabulous time.  It has been nice to stay in the same place for several nights though.  Up until now we changed hotels and cities everyday.  We are staying in an Airbnb tiny apartment in Berkeley for four nights.  Two nights down and two to go.  They even let us do our laundry.  It has a small kitchenette but we have been eating out with Match guy’s son.

Tomorrow we are going to Napa Valley and going to tour some wineries.  I will enjoy getting out of the city and back into the countryside.

I am starting to miss my wide open space.  Berkeley has way too many people, cars and houses for my liking.  We went for a six mile walk yesterday up to the Berkeley University campus and through the main part of the city.  While interesting it is crowded and loud!  The flowers are blooming and it has beautiful smells from the gardenias and roses.

I struggle to decide what my favorite part of the trip has been.  Meeting up with the couple I met on the Camino is at the top of my list.  We had a wonderful visit at their beautiful home.  They live on the edge of Petaluma and had beautiful views of the distant mountains.  Their house was open and spacious.  Carolyn fixed a wonderful lunch for us.  We picked lemons off the lemon tree in their back yard.  She sent gifts home with me.  The visit brought back wonderful memories of a time we shared on the Camino.

The redwoods are breathtaking.  Someone posted on my Facebook wall that big trees are good medicine and I believe it.  We walked the Lady Bird Johnson hike which was an almost two miles loop through the National Redwood Forest.  I loved the ones that were hollowed out but still standing and growing at the top of the tree.  The flora in the forest was beautiful too.

I fell in love with the open plains of WY.  Not sure I could handle the winters but the views are incredible.  I also loved the OR coast line.  We stopped at several beaches and went wading in the very cold Pacific Ocean.  The ferry ride in Seattle was a blast.  What a beautiful country USA is – such diversity.

Thursday morning we head to the Sequoia National Forest and will spend the night in Western CA.  Friday we drive to the Grand Canyon and will spend two nights there.  Sunday will find us in Santa Fe for four nights and we will head home Thursday.  We have traveled over 3,400 miles so far with a bunch more miles to go.

Match guy and I continue to enjoy each other’s company and have lots of fun together.  His son is very nice and I have enjoyed spending time with him also.

It has been interesting staying in an Airbnb.  Our host is good and checks in with us each day but leaves us alone for the most part.  The apartment is nicely furnished although I would add a few more little touches.  It is quiet and clean and that is most important.

The weather has been great since we left the snow behind last week.  No rain in WA, OR or CA so far.  I hear back home has gotten some rain.  We will probably run into rain in Sequoia and at the Grand Canyon by the looks of the forecast.

Grateful for the opportunity to see so many parts of the USA, grateful for safe travels so far, and grateful for the chance to visit my friends from the Camino.

My last guests left this morning before 8:00.  I have their rooms cleaned up and ready to go.  They left a charger and a playbook so will have to ask my house sitter to mail them for me tomorrow.  They were nice guests who requested space for next year’s disc golf tournament.

My Match guy should be leaving OK soon to head my way.  We are leaving tomorrow morning around 7:00 and hoping to get well into WY by nightfall.  There are blizzard warnings up for CO today so we will see what the weather brings tomorrow.  May have to alter our route.  Our first major destination is the Olympic Hoh Rain Forest in Washington State.  From there we will head south to go through the Redwood Forest and then on into Berkeley.  We will spend several nights in Berkeley at an Airbnb.  We will be visiting my Match guy’s son as well as my friends I met on the Camino.  From there we will head for the Grand Canyon via Yosemite.  We will then stay several nights in Santa Fe before we return home mid-month.

My bags are mainly packed.  Just need to add last minute stuff in the morning after I get dressed.  I have to take clothes for winter weather and for summer temperatures.  One disadvantage to car trips is I feel I have room to take extra stuff.  I rarely use it but since I have room I bring it along.

I have a stew cooking in the oven for dinner tonight.  It is making me very hungry today with the yummy smell.  May need to take a nap to make the time go by faster this afternoon until my Match guy gets here.  I’m getting anxious and excited.

I decided to have a lunch on Sunday the weekend Kathy is coming home which is Memorial Day weekend.  I am hosting a coffee Saturday morning for her friends to come visit her and am having the lunch on Sunday primarily for extended family members.  I mailed out invitations today.  I love getting all my family together and hope my cousins, aunts and their families will join us.  My Match guy is planning on being here that weekend so my family can meet him too.  It will be a busy weekend but one filled with lots of love and laughter.

I was getting ready to go out to mow and it started raining.  Looks like it might be clearing up a bit so maybe I can still get the mowing done this afternoon.  If we get the rain predicted this week my grass will be very high by the time I get home.  May need to twist my son’s arm or my SIL’s arm to get them to come mow while I am gone.  Both like to ride my mower.

May is going to go by fast.  I won’t be back home until the 16, 17 or 18th.  Kathy comes the 24 – 27 and then I have a house full of guests coming in May 27 – June 2.  No rest for me in May.  I’ll be gone for three weeks again in July and in August am having a bunion surgery.  Wow!  My schedule is filling up quickly.

I am ready to hit the road again  There was a Facebook meme today that said “I want to get in my car and drive until I find what I’m looking for.  Maybe it’s purpose, maybe it’s a fresh start or maybe it’s just a sky with unclouded stars.”  That kinda sums up this trip for me.

Grateful the house is reset and clean again, grateful my Match guy will be here soon, and grateful to be leaving on another adventure tomorrow morning.  I will only blog occasionally while I am gone.   Text me if you need to get hold of me 620-481-8323.  Much love and light to each of you!

 

 

Wow!  The wind has been in a big hurry all day today.  It is finally starting to slow down a bit but still blowing strong.  It has blown in a bit of a cold front and we are forecast to get below 40 degrees tonight.  Gotta love KS weather!

Two of my guests checked out this morning.  I have the bedroom and bathroom they used cleaned up and ready to go for my next guests.  The other three will leave in the morning.  I will have all day tomorrow to get the basement back into shape before I leave on Monday.  The guests that are still here were gone all morning and came back for a bit this afternoon and then went back out again.  I haven’t seen them to talk to them yet today.  I hope to catch them tomorrow before they leave.

I have my suitcase on the table ready to be loaded up.  I haven’t started dragging stuff out to put in it yet though.  We will be gone for three weeks so will need to find someplace to do laundry along the way.  A lot of hotels have washers and dryers these days so am guessing we will find somewhere to wash things up.  Need to remember to take some laundry detergent with me.  I have a packing list started so it won’t take me long to pack.

Match guy is coming after he gets out of church tomorrow.  Should be here around 5:00 or so.  He tends to run a bit late though.  I need to think of something to fix us for dinner or else take him out.  We will be eating out most of the three weeks we are gone so would rather eat at home one last time before we leave.  I forgot when I went to town earlier this week to get something to make.  I’ll have to see what I have on hand.

Have my house sitters lined up.  One is watching the animals from Monday to May 15 and then a friend is coming in to stay the last few days.  I appreciate them coming out to stay.  The animals do better when there is a person around part of the day.

I had to close the windows and doors today as the sound of the wind was pushing me over the edge.  We had gusts of over 40 MPH this afternoon with sustained winds at 25.  I almost fell over when I walked down to take care of the chickens earlier.  I had to fix their shade cloths as the flex ties had broken off.

I took a short nap again today.  I was sitting in my chair earlier and kept falling asleep so decided to go lay down.  Wish I could fall asleep at night that easy.  I only slept in bits and pieces again last night.  Sure wish I knew what was causing my sleep issues – or should I say lack of sleep issues.

Excited to see my Match guy tomorrow.  I sure miss him when we are apart.  It is so nice to have someone to talk to and be with and do things with.  My life feels much richer when I am with him.

I have managed to stay out of the muck pond today.  The last two days were a little rough for me.  I have been emotional and teary but am doing good so far today.

I am struggling a bit with my eating lately.  I have been craving food that I no longer eat.  Not sure why the cravings have hit me again unless it is from the peanut butter. Thinking it is a trigger food for me.  I have been really hungry this last week and have reached for food I no longer eat several times.  Have managed to stop myself most of the time.  Still haven’t eaten sugar but I have really been tempted.  I gained five pounds on my last trip and haven’t taken it all off yet.  I can’t let myself do that on this trip.  I can do this!  I can do this!

Grateful for the calmer winds this evening, grateful my Match guy is coming tomorrow, and grateful for my house sitters that let me get away with no worries about my animals.

I had trouble falling asleep last night.  Finally around 3:30 I took some NyQuil and slept hard until 9:00.  The only problem is I felt hung over all day.  I even took a nap this afternoon to shake it off.  I feel better now.

Not a very productive day for me.  I did get the front fenced in part of the yard hand pushed.  Emptied trash and washed guest towels was the only other thing I can claim to have gotten done today.  Just one of those days I guess.

The clouds are starting to roll in.  I put the cover back on the fire pit as it is smelling a bit like rain outside.  We have a 30% to 40% chance throughout the night for rain.  The cracks are growing in the yard so I would welcome every bit of rain we get.

Two of my five guests check out tomorrow.  I will get their room and bathroom cleaned up after they leave.  The guests downstairs are leaving Sunday sometime.  I told them I wasn’t in a hurry for them to leave and they were welcome to hang around a bit.  Not sure what their plans are.  I will want to get their rooms cleaned before I leave Monday.  It usually doesn’t take long to clean the rooms especially since I detailed them before they came.

My upstairs guests went to Ad Astra for lunch and then went hiking at the Tallgrass Prairie Preserve this afternoon.  They posted some pictures on Facebook and look like they are enjoying themselves.  I always like to see my guests get out and enjoy the beauty of the land.

We all sat out last night and enjoyed the sunset again.  Have a feeling we won’t see much of a sunset tonight as the clouds are getting thicker by the minute.  May get to hear thunder roll across the hills though.  That is one of my favorite sounds out here on the prairie.

Had a rough morning emotionally.  Things and thoughts kept coming up that sent me to a dark place.  I was able to allow the thoughts and feelings without falling in the muck pond.  I had a good cry and felt better although very tired so I allowed myself to take a nap.  Not sure if it was the NyQuil or what.  I’m much better grounded and centered this evening.

Grateful for the chance of rain on the prairie, grateful I was able to move my dark feeling through my body – mowing helped, and grateful I am in a better space this evening.  All is well on the prairie!  Right here, Right now, All is Well!

 

Another night of sleeping in bits and pieces.  So frustrating!

I had a lunch meeting in Emporia at 11:00 this morning.  Afterwards I got cat food and cat litter, went to the bank, and then stopped and loaded up on chicken feed.  I haven’t done much since I got home except for finishing my laundry.  I had gotten the grandkids some bigger clothes for the baskets I keep at my house and got the new clothes washed up and ready for them to come stay the night.

Three of my guests were here when I returned from town.   They spent the afternoon napping as they all had been up and out of the house by 6:15.  One of them had a 7:00 tee time this morning.  Not sure what their plans are for dinner.  So far they haven’t asked if they can use the kitchen to cook.

My other guest drove to KC today to pick up his wife to bring her out for the next two days.  They haven’t gotten back here yet this afternoon.

The wind returned in a big hurry this afternoon.   It was beautiful out this morning but that changed when the wind came in.  The temperature dropped about 10 degrees when the wind came in.  The wind is starting to slow down a bit now but still going fairly strong.  I closed the open windows as the house was getting too cold.  I may be able to open them again soon if the wind continues to slow down.

I hope it is nice enough we can sit out and watch the sunset again tonight.  It is about 10 degrees colder than it was last night so may have to take some blankets out if we sit outside tonight.  Right now if we were out in the swings the wind would be pushing us nicely.

This has turned into a rather lazy day for me.  Maybe I won’t even try to get anything done and chalk this day up to being a rest day.  I haven’t taken a rest day for several days.  Maybe the motivation to do something will find me yet today and I will get something done.

The restlessness that had been with me for several days seems to have quieted way down.  I can still sense it but it is at a very low level tonight.  Still not sure what was causing it although I do have lots going on right now with some major changes headed my way.   Funny how somedays the restlessness roars rather loudly and other days it is quiet.  Kinda like the wind I guess.  I do my best to acknowledge what I am feeling and allow it to be what it is.  It doesn’t require me to do anything about it.  The more I can allow it to be the faster it seems to quiet down.

Grateful for being able to claim today as a lazy day, grateful the big haul of chicken feed is done, and grateful the wind is calming down.  The wind was wearing on me a bit this afternoon.

 

 

 

So far this has been a productive day but has had a twist or two in it just for kicks and giggles.  After sleeping in bits and pieces again I got up and after breakfast headed into Emporia to run some errands.  I have to go back in tomorrow to meet some friends for lunch so will finish the rest of my errands then.  Made it to Cottonwood Falls to drop off my recycling stuff too.

Came home and went outside to work on cleaning up the lower deck.  I cleaned out the very nasty fish pond and washed down the deck.  Cleaned up the old garden area and dumped the dirt in the holes behind the retaining wall.  Filled a trash can full of weeds and other stuff.  Took the garden hose back up to the barn.  The deck could use a bit more attention but it looks much better than it did.

Cut down the little trees that are growing beside the barn.  I need to get something to pour on the roots so they don’t grow back.  I can’t grow a tree in the yard but these seem to grow well.

One of my guests checked out early due to some personal problems.  I had a long visit with him out in the swings this afternoon.  His girlfriend came back  and they decided they needed to head home.  I almost have his room cleaned and ready to go again if I can find someone that still needs a bed for the rest of the tournament.  He is such a sweet kid – I hate to see him hurt like he is right now.

It has gotten warm this afternoon.  It was nice working out in the yard without a sweatshirt on.  Worked up a bit of a sweat today.  There is a nice breeze if I am in the right place in the yard to feel it.  It is only 73 out but feels warmer.

Still trying to wrap my head around the fact that I am leaving again Monday for three weeks.  It will be good to spend that time with my Match guy.  I really miss him now when we aren’t together.  He is coming Sunday afternoon and we will leave Monday morning early.

I made reservations for us at an Airbnb in Berkeley, CA.  It will be my first experience staying in an Airbnb instead of being the hostess.  It is cheaper than the hotels in the area and we will have a small kitchen.  Airbnb had given me a $100 gift certificate for being a Super Host for four quarters in a row.  I’m glad I found a way to use it.

My Match guy made reservations for us to stay near the Grand Canyon the night we will be there.  We were going to stay at the hotel that is on the rim but they were booked.  Not sure where we will be staying.  I’m excited to get to see the Grand Canyon.  I can’t believe I haven’t been there yet.  I’ll get to cross that off my bucket list next month.

The rest of the hotels we are going to book on the fly.  We have some long days of travel ahead and we aren’t sure how far we will get each day.  It is easy to find rooms using the internet on my phone along the way.  How ever did we used to travel without that convenience?

My other guests are still out and about.  I don’t expect them back until later this evening. I bet they will be tired tonight after playing several rounds and then hanging out in the sun watching other players.  Not sure they will be up for sitting in the swings to watch the sunset but they might enjoy it.  One has his guitar with him so we may have a sing along.  That will be fun.  I have stuff for s’mores if they want some.  I love when my guests like to sit and visit outside in the evenings.

Sitting in a calm heart space this afternoon.  It felt good to be here to listen to my guest that needed a Mom today.  I never know what my hostess duties will involve.  It was another reminder of being in the right place at the right time doing the right thing.  I love when the universe sends me those reminders.  I feel like I am living my life purpose when that happens.

Grateful for guests that becomes friends, grateful for the ability to do physical labor, and grateful for this beautiful day.   The  birds are busy building nests, the dogs and cats are sleeping in the sun, and the chickens are very occasionally singing their “I Just Laid an Egg” song.  It is a beautiful day on the prairie.    Continue reading “Wednesday, April 24, 2019”

After two productive days I have had a lazy day today.  Not motivated to get anything done.  I slept in bits and pieces last night.  I was too hot for a bit and then was too cold.  It was too cold to get up and close the windows.  I had to turn the furnace back on this morning as it was only 60 in the house.  Burr!!!  Have had some sprinkles on the prairie today but no real rain.  It seems to have gone around me again.

The guy that came in last night was off to work before 8:00 this morning.  Three more guys came out about 11:00 to check-in.  They hauled in lots of stuff!  After they got unloaded they went back into Emporia.  They came back out here mid-afternoon and must be taking naps downstairs as I can’t hear them.  I think they are going back into Emporia this evening.  The next two coming let me know they will be here around 6:00.

The three that came today are calling me Miss Kay.  Makes me feel a bit old but I respect their manners.  They seem like nice young men and will be easy guests.

I got the light fixtures in the dining room and kitchen cleaned today.  I have to put a step stool on the kitchen tables and the kitchen bar to reach he light fixtures.  I always appreciate them when they are clean but forget to clean them very often.

I am fighting the urge to take a nap.  It is cloudy and cold outside and a nap sounds like a good thing to do.  I walked the trash down to the mailbox and took care of the chickens while I was out.  It is actually warmer outside then it looks.  I am missing the sunshine today though.

Cleaning the garage was on my to-do list today and I haven’t made it out there yet.  I still may get out there this evening but not looking good.  There is always tomorrow – right?  It is to be in the 70’s tomorrow and that sounds like better weather to clean a garage in.

I was looking at my Facebook page and noticed it showed single as my relationship status.  I decided to change it to In a Relationship.  I didn’t realize it would create a post and announce that to my friends.  Oh well, guess the cat is out of the bag now in a more public way than I anticipated.

I have some errands to run tomorrow.  I need to drop off recycling stuff, get tick medication for the dogs and cats, buy some chicken feed, drop off some bags at Goodwill or Salvation Army, and get some groceries.  I think all my guests will be out and about tomorrow so should have some free time to get my errands done.

Having trouble remembering I am leaving again for three weeks Monday.  Seems like I just got home from the trip east.  This year is flying by quickly.  I have most of my summer booked so it will go by quickly too.

Grateful for guests that come to enjoy the beauty of the prairie, grateful I can take a day and be lazy, and grateful to be in a relationship.

My house is clean!  Almost all the woodwork got washed down and most of the floors were hand-scrubbed.  It always feels good to have a very clean house.  Sure wish it would stay clean longer than it will.  Someone south of me is burning tonight and the smoke and ash are blowing in.  Way too nice out to close the windows though.

I started cleaning out my closet.  Have filled one sack full of clothes to take to Goodwill next time I go to town and will probably fill at least one more sack.  I hate having things hang in my closet that I never wear.  Someone else might find them more useful so I will pass them on.

My guest showed up around 4:00.  He took a shower and then went to do a small job for his work.  He will be back later this evening.  The rest of the guests will show up sometime tomorrow.  This guy stayed with me last year.  It was nice to see him again.  His wife is coming Wednesday afternoon or Thursday morning to join him for a couple of nights.  He is leaving Saturday.  He brought his guitar so we can have some music around the fire pit and watch the sun go down.  My favorite type of guest!

Sharing this house makes it easier to be here.  This house has felt very big to me lately and I feel guilty living here by myself.  I am traveling so much that I can’t book many guests though.  I’m leaving a week from today on a three-week trip to CA with my Match guy.  I do have two weekends full of guests booked in June.  July I will be going to CO for three weeks with my Match guy.  I’m too busy for guests!

It is to rain tomorrow so think I will clean out the garage during the rain.  I also need to clean the lower deck but that is not a good rainy day project.  I’ll save that for Wednesday.

The day started out beautiful and nice and warm but the clouds rolled in and the temperature dropped.  I mowed part of the yard this morning and had to wear a sweatshirt as it was rather cool mowing.  The ground is really dry and the Prairie sure could use a nice long drink of fresh rain water.  If it rains I’ll have to mow Sunday before I leave on Monday.  The outer yard still doesn’t have enough grass to mow.

I sure wish there was a market for dandelions as I have a bumper crop of them this year.  A lot of my mowing today was cutting off the puffs the dandelions make.

My kids are trying to find a date that all of us can go to a Royals game this summer together.  That is harder than it should be.  I only have a few weekends free between now and August.  I may not get to go with them – darn it.  I haven’t checked the Royals schedule – guess we need to consider that too – LOL!  Trying to match five families schedules is not easy.

Tagen has a track meet in Emporia tomorrow I would like to go to.  I wish my guests would let me know when they are checking in so I know if I can go to the track meet. I hate to sit home and miss it and then the guests show up after I could have gone.  It sucks to work sometimes!  The rain that is forecast might change the track meet plans too.

I wasn’t as productive today as I was yesterday but I got some things done.  That feels good.  I have gotten into a habit of sitting way too much lately.  I don’t like looking for things to do though.  With the nicer weather all of a sudden I have lots of things that need done outside.  It feels good to move my body more and get things cleaned up.

It felt good to eat totally on plan today.  I have been cheating too much lately and my body started telling me to get with the program.  I still need to take off three more pounds that I gained when I went east.  The weight sure comes back on faster than it goes off.

Still sitting with some restlessness inside.  I think I know what it is from.  I keep repeating Right here, right now, all is well.  I tend to get ahead of myself and anticipate life instead of staying present to what is.

Grateful for a returning guest that is fun to have around, grateful the house is clean, and grateful for the dandelions in the yard – they brighten up my yard.

 

It was so nice having all the kids come home for Easter dinner last night.  Nicole and Geoff spent the night and after we had breakfast they returned to KC.  My heart is full of love from the weekend.

The wind is in a big hurry today.  Have been having over 40 MPH wind gusts with sustained winds over 30 MPH.  I may need to fill my pockets with rocks when I go down to do chicken chores.  I have kept the doors closed today as it is too much wind to let in the house.  It is over 80 degrees out today.  Almost feels more summer than spring today.

I am cleaning the master bedroom this afternoon.  I found way too much dust under the bed.  I have moved all the furniture and am hand scrubbing the floors and woodwork.  Taking a break to let a section dry and then I will go back and finish it up.  Still need to do the master bathroom.  I got the upstairs guest bedroom done this morning.  Slowly but surely the house is getting a spring clean.

After I finish cleaning each room I want to go back through every room and see how many things I can find to remove from the house.  My closets have gotten cluttered again and need emptied out and only essentials returned.  The kitchen panty needs gone through again too.  Not sure where this stuff comes from but it is time for it to go.  Simplify is my word for the week!

My guests start arriving tomorrow afternoon.  I will need to stick close to home all week since they are all staying until Sunday.  That will give me lots of time to get through everything and find treasures to gift to someone else.  I also have some yard work that needs done.  The lower deck needs uncluttered and cleaned.  I also need to detail clean my garage and get rid of some stuff from it.  I also need to clean out the fish pond and get it ready for the season.

Sometime next week I will need to start a packing list as I am leaving for the west coast in another week.  Putting lots of miles on my Match guy’s car.  I’m so excited that I will get to see the friends I met while walking the Camino while we are in CA.  Visiting them was on my 70 things to do before I turn 70 list.  Love when I can cross things off that list.

When I get home from that trip Kathy is coming for a short visit and when she leaves I have guests booked for a week.  Lots going on for me right now.

Tonight I have dinner reservations at Ad Astra.  A guy that I know is coming to sing.  I haven’t had a chance to listen to him for a bit so look forward to it tonight.  It will do me good to get out of the house and be in the world for a bit.  I forget to get out sometimes.

Sitting with a hint of restlessness this afternoon.  Not sure what that is from.  I have some potentially big decisions to make early this week and thinking that is causing it.  I keep reminding myself to stay present in the moment and not get ahead of myself.  Right here, right now, all is well!

Grateful for my kids and the love we share, grateful to have discovered the minimalistic lifestyle and the freedom it has brought me, and grateful the house is almost all detailed cleaned.

 

 

 

Had a delightful dinner with my three kids, partners and grandchildren tonight.  The food turned out good, conversation was lively and lots of laughter was heard.  The grandkids did an Easter egg hunt after dinner.  I sent home lots of leftovers with each of them.

Nicole, Geoff and Jason are off to see a concert tonight.  Tim had worked all day and was tired so he and Michelle and the kiddos went home early too.  The house is quiet for a bit now.  The dishwasher is running and I will have one more load to go when the first load gets done and then the house will be back in order.

Tomorrow I need to finish cleaning the one room in the basement and then start on the main floor.  I have one bathroom done upstairs so have a start on the cleaning.  It has been so dusty and smoky I haven’t rushed getting it cleaned as it won’t stay clean for long.  Sure love having the windows and doors open though and letting fresh air blow in.

We reached 80 today and it was a beautiful day.  No clouds and bright blue skies today.  The wind was in a bit of a hurry though as we had 15 – 20 MPH wind all day.  The wind has calmed down this evening and it is perfect outside.  The sunset was a plain Jane one but or so beautiful.  There is a pink rim around the whole horizon right now.  The almost full moon will be up around 9:00.  I set the timer on my iPhone so I can remember to watch it come up.

Had trouble falling asleep again last night.  Finally took some NyQuil around 3:00 and slept the rest of the night.  My neighbor called at 8:00 and woke me up.  I was able to go back to sleep for another hour.  I have felt a bit hung over today though and almost fell asleep in my recliner this afternoon.  I had a dinner to fix so no time for a nap today.

My neighbor burned the last of my grass today.  I’m glad I didn’t have the windows and doors open when he burned as the smoke was thick as it came by the house and headed north.  I am hoping the prairie burning season is coming to an end and that the air quality will improve soon.  The little rain we got earlier this week helped settle the air but fires have been burned since and the air is thick with smoke again.

I am in a better space today then I was yesterday.  I was restless and emotional yesterday.  Feel much more grounded and going with the flow today.  Dinner was easy to fix and I had no disasters to deal with except for dropping ice a couple of times.  Luckily ice cleans up easily.

For some reason I have been hungry all day today.  I ate breakfast late this morning and was ready for lunch about an hour after I ate breakfast.  I was hungry by dinner time.  Not sure what that is about.  I was able not to snack today even though I was hungry so that was good.  I can’t seem to figure out why some days are hungry days and other days I forget to eat as I am not hungry at all.  Guess my good days and hard days are like that too – I rarely can figure out why a day becomes hard.  Makes one appreciate the good when one has a hard day.  Maybe that is the point!

Grateful all the kids came home to be together with me tonight, grateful the dinner was easy and good, and grateful for the beautiful sunset I witnessed tonight.  Mother Nature sure knows how to put on a show.

Went to KC this morning to have lunch with two dear friends.  I left early with the intention of picking up a few things at Costco.  Got to Costco a little after 10:00 and there wasn’t a parking space to be had.  Decided I didn’t need anything.  Went to Hy-Vee to get some diced beets.  They were busy but I braved that store.  I forgot it was Good Friday and lots of kids had the day off.  People were out and about today in KC. I was glad to get home to the quiet of the prairie this afternoon.

I haven’t gotten anything done since I have been home except for chores.  The slacking chickens only gave me two eggs again today.  They best be getting busy soon or I will have to do something.  I can’t afford their feed at this rate of return.

Still need to get downstairs and finish cleaning.  I only have one more room to detail and two beds to make and the basement will be ready for the guests that are coming Monday and Tuesday.  Trusting I will find the energy to get that done today.  I still need to clean the whole upstairs but I have tomorrow, Sunday and Monday morning for that.

It is time to do the annual spring cleaning of my closets, kitchen cabinets, etc.  Twice a year I go through everything and see how much I can eliminate from the house.  It surprises me every time how many things I find.  I took three sacks to the Salvation Army yesterday and will go hunting for more stuff.  What I think is important changes with time and I am able to release more and more stuff.

I have for the most part stopped the incoming of stuff into the house.  I rarely buy things anymore.  I still have a habit of getting too far ahead with canned goods in the pantry though.  I am working on being more aware of that habit and stop myself from buying two of something when I only need one.  For some reason that has been a hard habit for me to break – especially since I have plenty of room for extra stuff in my pantry.

It turned out to be a beautiful day on the prairie today.  Highs were in the upper 60’s, lots of bright blue skies and only mild winds.  It got chilly last night as it dipped down to the upper 30’s.  Tomorrow it is to be clear again and the high is to reach 80.  A perfect day for the kids to come home and celebrate Easter together as a family.

I set things out that I am going to make for dinner tomorrow night in an attempt to see if I have forgotten something.  So far I can’t think of anything I might have forgotten.  I can always call one of the kids to bring me something if I did.  Cooking a meal for eight is more work for me than it used to be when I did it more often.  I love doing it though.

Sitting in a place that feels a bit like I am between something.  Haven’t completely figured out what that is about.  I know some big changes are headed my way and maybe that is what I am feeling.  I feel a bit disconnected from things too.  Back to being in my observer role in some respect.  I feel like I am watching myself somehow do life.  A bit weird but good at the same time.

Grateful for a safe trip to and from KC, grateful for my friends I had lunch with, and grateful I don’t live in the city – way too peoplely for me.

 

A very productive day after a very poor night’s sleep.  I didn’t sleep much at all last night.  Got up at 3:00 and took another bath.  That helped me fall asleep at last but I only slept for 30 minutes.  Slept on and off the rest of the night.  I have grown to dislike nights like that.  Maybe tonight will be the night sleep will find me.

The garage door guys came out this morning and fixed the garage door opener that wasn’t working.  They put a new battery in it.  Since I had the garage doors replaced last year the service call was free.

My foot surgeon’s office called me this morning.  I have to go in to see him before they can put me on the surgery calendar as it has been too long since my last visit.  They failed to mention that when I was there last time.  My appointment is June 4 and I will get my first surgery scheduled for sometime in early August.  I hope to do the second one in either November or December.

Went into Emporia to get my hair cut at 3:00.  He showed me three different ways to style it so I wouldn’t get the bump in it I have been getting.  I should have recorded them as I’m not sure I remember how to do them.  I have never been good fixing my hair and don’t plan on spending much time on it now.  I am trying to grow it out a bit.  I’ll see how much longer I can stand it long.

Went to Wal-Mart and got groceries for our family dinner Saturday night.  I needed a few things for the Airbnb guests that are coming in Monday and Tuesday too.  It amazes me how fast groceries add up when you buy lots of them.  Trusting I didn’t forget anything but wouldn’t bet on it.

Stopped and got a box of bacon on the way home.  I still had some but today was the bacon sale day and since I thought about it decided to take advantage of it.  Best bargain in town – 10 pounds of bacon for $29.  It is really good bacon too!

When I got home I went back downstairs and am almost finished hand mopping the entire basement floor and washing all the woodwork.  Only have the kitchen area to do tomorrow and then I will be done.  Still need to make two more beds but am waiting for laundry to get done to make them up.  I haven’t had guests since December so am out of practice preparing for guests.

Tomorrow I am going to KC to have lunch with two dear friends.  I have one stop I will make since I am in town but will basically just be going up to have lunch and then driving home.  Seems a bit silly to do so but I love spending time with my friends.  They get me on a deep level and it will be good to catch up with them and visit.

Saturday the kids are coming for Easter dinner.  Sunday I will need to get the upstairs cleaned as my guests will start arriving Monday afternoon or evening.

This afternoon when I got home from Emporia the wind picked up and it rained very briefly.  I happened to look outside and saw a double rainbow int he front yard.  One end of the rainbow was in my yard.  Both rainbows were complete and the lower one had a wide range of colors in it.  Breathtaking!

The friends I want to see when I go to CA with my Match guy read my blog yesterday and called me today.  They are so excited I am coming out to see them.  They invited us to stay as long as possible with them while we are there.  They will make this next trip very special for me.

They shared some tragic news with me.  Their granddaughter had a baby April 4 and the baby died due to the placenta shearing from the uterus.  This baby was their  first great-grandchild.  My heart has been heavy all day thinking of them and the grief the family is experiencing.  Life just isn’t fair sometimes.

It has felt good to move my body and get the basement cleaned today.  My knees are a bit sore though.  I am betting I will have some black and blue places on them showing up tomorrow.  I just don’t like to mop floors using a mop.  They feel so much cleaner to me doing it the old-fashioned way on my hands and knees.  I need a smaller house though!

Grateful the basement is almost all clean, grateful for the beautiful double rainbow I witnessed today, and grateful it has been a productive day.  My body needed that!

 

It has been a nice couple of days having my Match guy here.  He arrived Sunday around 6:00 and left this afternoon around 2:00.  Monday we had some of my friends over for dinner.  All four of us sat outside after dinner and watched the sunset.  There was a prairie fire to the east of the house that we watched for a bit before my friends went home.  It was the first night prairie fire I have seen this year.

Monday afternoon we got the yard mowed up.  My Match guy wanted to ride the riding mower so I saved the mowing for him.  My mower had a flat tire so we took that into Strong City Tuesday morning and got it repaired.  Grateful for my Match guy’s expertise in knowing how to remove the tire and replace it.  I don’t know that I would have noticed the tire was flat or known how to take it off.

We met Tim and Ellexia and the Chicken House in Olpe for dinner.  The food was good and the dinner conversation was great.  It was a nice day to take a drive for dinner.

I had my Match guy help me move some beds around so the rooms will work better for the guests that are coming next week.  Also got my fireplace covers washed.  I needed his help figuring out how to take the fireplace apart and then putting it back together again.  It is nice having a man around the house to help fix things.  Today he fixed a gutter downspout that had come loose.

We continue to have lots of fun when we are together and the only hard part of our relationship is when we have to say goodbye after each visit.  I won’t see him again until he comes up a week from Sunday.  We will be leaving that day or the next day for a trip to CA and will be gone for a little over two weeks.  We are going out to visit his other son.  We had planned to go via Yellowstone but after checking road conditions decided not to go through Yellowstone as most of the roads might not be open for the season.  We will go via Salt Lake City and then up to Olympia National Park and then drive down to Berkeley.  We will be coming home through Santa Fe and stopping there for a couple of days.  I am hoping to see the couple I met on the Camino who live in Petaluma, CA.  Once we finalize our plans I will contact them and see if they will be around on one of the days we are in the area.

Tomorrow I need to finish getting the basement ready for the guests that will start arriving Monday and Tuesday.  I have one bedroom, one bathroom, and one hallway done.  I will get the other two bedrooms, the remaining bathroom and the great room and kitchen room done tomorrow.  Saturday the kids are coming for Easter dinner.  Sunday I will clean the upstairs rooms and then I will be ready for my guests Monday.

Friday I am going to KC to have lunch with two dear friends.  It may be a quick trip up for lunch and then back home again as I do have a lot of stuff I need to do before next week.  I still have some yard work that needs done.  If we get the rain that is predicted for tonight I may need to mow again next week.  Seems like there is always something around here to keep me busy and out of trouble.

I have a headache this afternoon.  Thinking it is from the smoke that is in the air.  I welcome the rain that is to arrive this evening.  It will help clean the air a bit.  Trusting the strong thunderstorm stuff will not occur.  I am in a Severe Thunderstorm Watch for the evening.

Feeling a bit empty and lonely this afternoon.  After having my Match guy in the house I really feel how big the house is when it is just me here.  I may try to get downstairs and get a few rooms done so I will have less to do tomorrow.  Moving my body will help move this down feeling out of my system.  But sometimes making myself take the first step towards moving my body is the hard part!

Grateful for the time with my Match guy, grateful he was able to meet Tim and Ellexia and my friends, and grateful he arrived home safely from his visit here.

 

I finally had a productive day today.  I got one bedroom and bathroom plus a hallway cleaned downstairs today.  I hand mopped the floors and washed the woodwork.  May get one more room done tonight yet.  Feels good to have the deep house cleaning started.

Went into Emporia this afternoon to get some groceries for next week.  I stopped by to see Ellexia.  She proudly showed me the medals she had won at her gymnastics meet that was held while I was gone.  I think she has grown two inches since I saw her last.

The smoke is thick in the air tonight.  Several ranchers are burning pastures around my house.  My house smells like there is a bonfire burning inside.  I would like to have a window open but that would defeat my cleaning really quickly.  It has been cloudy and cool today.  I am ready for spring to return to the prairie again at least for a day or two.

I need to move some beds to make the room arrangements work better for the guests that are coming the next three bookings.  I got the twin bed out of a room and another one out of the closet and they are sitting in front of the room they need to go in.  I looked at the double bed but it is too big and heavy for me to move alone.  Hopefully I will remember to have my Match guy help me move them when he is here tomorrow.

The chickens are only giving me two or three eggs a day.  I had to break down and buy some store-bought eggs so I could have some hard-boiled eggs.  I trust when it warms up and stays warm the slackers will get down to business and give me more eggs.  They aren’t earning their keep at this rate.

I’m excited my Match guy is coming tomorrow late afternoon.  The only hard part of our relationship is the distance between us.  He is staying until Wednesday and then we won’t see each other for two weeks as I have to stay close due to the Disc Golf guys that are coming in the day after Easter.  It will be weird to have guests again.  I haven’t had any for a long time.

My music has played all day so maybe my internet problem is fixed.  It hasn’t been staying on lately.  I still don’t have my new keyboard for my iPad working.  I forgot to take it to town with me to have Tim look at it.  I’ll have to google it and see if I can find instructions.  I can’t seem to get it to connect via Bluetooth.

Still feeling a bit restless tonight.  Moving my body while cleaning helped a bit but am still aware of it.  I have had trouble settling since I came home from my trip.  I feel grounded but restless.  I’m curious as to what is behind this feeling.  I can’t quite put my finger on it yet.

Grateful the deep cleaning has begun, grateful my Match guy is coming tomorrow, and grateful I got to see Ellexia and her parents today.

 

 

 

 

 

I finally got some good sleep last night.  I got a text at 6:30 which woke me up but I was able to go back to sleep until I got a phone call at 8:30.  Felt good to get several more hours of sleep than I have been getting.

I went into Emporia this afternoon and ran a bunch of errands.  I have been having trouble with my internet and my service provider recommended I get a new router to see if that would help.  So far, so good.  I was able to get it installed after I got home.  I also got a new keyboard cover for my iPad but I haven’t been able to get it to connect via Bluetooth yet.  Not sure what I am doing wrong.

Got a few more house keys made.  I stopped by Toyota and got a new battery for my key fob.  I had notice a warning that the battery was low and remembered to stop and get a battery installed today.  Last time Toyota gave me a battery it was free but this time they charged me $2.71.  A salesman wanted me to look at a new car.  Tempting but I passed.  Mailed some bills, filled the car up with gas and stopped by the bank to cash a check and then headed home.

A group was burning some pasture between Road W and Road V.  I have never had to drive through such thick smoke before.  I had no visibility.  Glad it was a short patch to drive through.

The wind is finally slowing down.  It has been howling again today.  It has me on edge a bit so am very grateful it is slowing down.  Enough is enough already!

Tomorrow is another empty space day.  I do need to think of some meals to fix for my Match guy when he comes Sunday so will need to go to the grocery store tomorrow.  I don’t think he will want to eat the same thing everyday like I do.  I invited some friends over for him to meet Monday night so will need to decide what I am going to fix for them too.  The hardest part of fixing a meal for me is deciding what to fix.

Hard for me to believe we are in the middle of April already this year.  Time seems to have speed up for me lately.  Guess the old saying time flies when you are having fun is true.  I have some friends I would like to visit before I leave for another trip the end of April.  I have guests coming for a week starting the day after Easter and I leave the day after they leave the following Sunday.  I am running out of time to go visit my friends.

My head hurts from trying to figure out the new technology stuff.  It takes me a bit to remember how to do new things.  Neither new product had instructions with them this time.  I had to use my laptop computer and I haven’t used it for several months.  I forget how to use it between uses when I go so long.  I still don’t like it as well as I like a desktop.

Sitting with some restless energy tonight.  I haven’t moved my body much lately and I think it is telling me to move more.  Maybe I will get on my stationary bike and take a long spin tonight to see if that will help.  Changes are coming my way and I keep reminding myself not to project into the future.  Right here!  Right now!  All is well!

Grateful the wind has calmed down, grateful for extra sleep last night, and grateful all is well in the present moment of time.

Not a very productive day for me today.  I had trouble sleeping again last night and was finally sound asleep when the alarm went off this morning.  I went into Emporia and did my final tax shift of the season.  My last client gave me a hug when we were done.  Seemed to be a fitting ending to a rewarding volunteer job.

Came home and had intended to get my mowing done today.  It was too cold and windy to mow.  It only reached 40 for the high today.  I sat in my chair after my lunch and got cold.  Turned the furnace back on and went to bed with the electric blanket turned on.  Fell asleep and slept for over two hours.

After my nap I braved the cold and wind and did chicken chores.  Man!  That wind is  cold today.  The winds are gusting to over 30 MPH on the prairie today.  Almost did a Mary Poppins flying act on the way back to the barn with the empty water bucket.

Other than doing two loads of laundry I haven’t gotten anything else done today.  Too late in the day to start anything so I guess I am going to chalk this day up to being a rest day.  Maybe tomorrow I will feel motivated to do something.

Today marks my 14 month anniversary of eating the Bright Lines Way.  I am back to honoring the system again after gaining five pounds while on vacation.  It will take me a bit to get back to where I was but I will get there.  My body sure feels better when I eat clean.  I’m so thankful I found this way of eating and that it works for me.

Feeling a bit down this evening.  I haven’t fallen into the muck pond yet but am close to the edge.  The house feels very big and lonely to me today.  After being with my Match guy for three weeks in a row I am noticing the loneliness in a new way.  I’m grateful he is coming back up to see me this Sunday.

Grateful for the chance to get some good sleep this afternoon, grateful for the hug my client gave me this morning, and grateful it is to warm back up again very soon.

I didn’t sleep very good last night.  I woke up to a beautiful sun rise this morning.  It was as if the sun was saying welcome home!

I had a very busy but productive day today.  I worked from 9:00 – noon at the Emporia Public Library book sale.  I was proud of myself as I didn’t buy a single book this time.  I have plenty of books left over from the fall sale and didn’t need to replenish my stash.

After the book sale I met with my realtor/business partner and got caught up on my rentals.  Then I picked up a prescription and my income taxes.  Bought some groceries and then came home.  Ate lunch, did chores and then had to go back into Emporia for a tax shift.

Came home from doing taxes and wrote some checks to pay some bills.  Got the last of the mail that came while I was gone sorted and taken care of.  Finished unpacking my suit case and sorted laundry to do for tomorrow.  Started a load of dishes after I fixed dinner.  It is good to be back home doing normal things.

Tomorrow I have my last tax shift to do at the Senior Center.  It has been a fun volunteer project to do taxes.  I have really enjoyed doing them.  I’m glad it is over though so I can have a bit more free time.  My soul is craving some empty space days.

After being with my Match guy for three weeks it sure feels lonely being in my house by myself.  I miss him!  He is coming down Sunday afternoon and staying until Tuesday afternoon.  We are sure putting the miles on our cars traveling back and forth to see each other.

The wind is howling tonight.  A cold front is going to be coming through and dropping the temperature for a day or two.  It has been in the 80’s again today.  I like the 60’s and 70’s better.  I’m not ready for summer heat yet.  I need to mow tomorrow afternoon so hoping the wind will die down a bit before I mow.

Sitting with a bit of restlessness tonight.  The wind does that to me sometimes.  I am also very tired as I haven’t slept well the last few nights.  Changes are coming and I am struggling to release the anticipation of what if.  I keep reminding myself that right here, right now all is well.  Rarely does the future unfold in the way I imagine it will.  Things have a way of working out for me if I can allow them to unfold organically and not push things to go a certain way.  That has been a hard habit for me to break though.

Grateful for a productive day, grateful for the opportunity to have been in service to others by doing taxes, and grateful it is bedtime.  I am tired tonight!

Home at last!  Three weeks and 3,450 miles!  It is good to be home.  Spring arrived on the prairie while I was gone.  The air is hazy and thick with smoke from the prairie fires that have been happening.  My grass was burned while I was gone and there is a fresh growth of green coming up. This is one of my favorite seasons of the year.

The drive home went quickly today.  Traffic was light and construction zones weren’t backed up. I stopped for gas and to get an iced tea.  I needed some caffeine to help me stay awake.  I am tired tonight!  Thinking it will be an early bedtime.  I have a very busy day tomorrow starting with working a volunteer shift at the Emporia Public Library at 9:00 for their spring book sale.  After that I have a meeting with my realtor and business partner and I need to get groceries and pick up my taxes after that meeting.  I go back into Emporia at 5:00 for a tax shift.  Thursday after I do a tax shift in the morning I will have the afternoon free.

I had ordered new batteries for the dogs electronic collars.  The batteries arrived while I was gone but now I need to find the dogs and see if I can figure out how to put the batteries in their collars.  Both dogs are MIA this evening.  I haven’t found the cats yet either.  Maybe they are hiding from me!

The trip with my Match guy was a great success.  Seeing Kathy started us off on the right foot. We then went to the Washington, DC area and I got to meet and spend time with his son.  We had a grand time in DC touring around and helping his son do some repair work and painting in his condo.  I wouldn’t want to live in DC but it was nice to visit.  The cherry trees were beautiful.

I got to meet my Match guy’s three brothers and his sister while we were in Asheville, NC.  I could see the family resemblance in each of them.  I also met lots of his nieces and nephews.  Not sure I got all the names rights and who belonged to who but they were all nice people and accepted me into their family with much grace.  They all worked hard to accommodate my dietary needs and fixed wonderful food that I could eat.

I gained five pounds on the trip!  Ouch!  It is back to strict menus tomorrow.  I think my problem has been snacking.  I have stayed off sugar and flour but haven’t followed the three meals a day routine. It is so hard to stay on a schedule when I travel – especially since my Match guy doesn’t like to eat breakfast or lunch.  He snacks through the day and then eats a late dinner.  We did some hiking but did more sitting.  Thinking it will take a couple of weeks to get back to where I was before I left.  I took it off once. I’m sure I can take it off again.  It was a good wake up call to me to stay more vigilant next trip and not to allow myself to snack.  I snacked more out of boredom from traveling then I did from being hungry.  Not a good idea!

My house sitter did an excellent job while I was gone.  I think my house is cleaner now then when I left. She was gone when I got home this afternoon.  I will need to track her down this week and get her paid.

My Match guy and I are already planning our

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next adventure!  This time we will be headed northwest and will be gone for three weeks again.  Can you tell we both like to travel?

The hills were so beautiful driving home today.  I love seeing the magic happen after the hills have been burned.  I saw a few pastures being burned on the drive home and many of the pastures already have a fresh carpet of green covering them.  I can barely see the sun tonight as there is a thick smoke film covering it.  I want to open the house and let some fresh air in but am hesitant to do so as the smoke and ash will also come in.  It reached 88 today!  Spring has definitely arrived on the prairie!

Grateful for a safe trip home, grateful for my house sitter, and grateful for the great memories I will hold and cherish from this trip.

Made it to Stillwater, OK from Asheville, NC yesterday.  It was a drive of almost 1,000 miles.  Felt good to get out of the car when we got here.  I’ll drive back to my prairie home tomorrow afternoon.

Our trip was over 3,000 miles in total.  My ass is sore from all that sitting.  We did get in some good hikes in the mountains but I sure did a lot of sitting too.  Thinking I gained at least five pounds.  Back to basic eating starts Wednesday.

Wednesday will be a busy day for me as I have a shift to work at the library book sale in the morning and a tax shift to do in the evening.  I need to pick up my personal income taxes from the accountant and get them sent off.  I will also need to do some grocery shopping.  After three weeks of being away from home I will have a big pile of mail to process and bills to pay.

I have a house full of guests arriving the Monday after Easter so will need to get started deep cleaning all the house.  The downstairs hasn’t been cleaned for a bit so am thinking it is dusty.

Grateful for the wonderful adventure I am wrapping up, grateful for safe travels, and grateful for the time I have spent with my Match guy.

 

i am in Asheville, NC visiting with my Match guy’s family.  His sister had us over for dinner last night. She lives on a farm with horses, sheep, chickens and dogs. I felt right at home.

Tonight his oldest brother is having us over for dinner.  We have been staying with one of his other brothers.

We went to Biltmore house yesterday and took a tour. The gardens were my favorite part of the tour. The spring flowers are in full bloom. The house was crowded and hard to navigate my way through.

Today we are going hiking this afternoon after lunch and a stop at Black Mountain.

Saturday all the family is gathering for a lunch at his sister’s house. Sunday we head for home and will arrive in OK sometime Monday. I’ll drive to Strong City Tuesday. Getting ready to be home.

The weather has been beautiful although rain is in the forecast for tomorrow. I see more green on the trees everyday.   It is beautiful scenery here but I miss the plains  I feel a bit clostaphobic in the mountains and miss seeing the sunrise and sunset.

Grateful for the hospitality my Match guy’s family is showing me, grateful for the beautiful spring flowers, and grateful for this new experience.

We are having a wonderful adventure. Had a great day with Kathy Tuesday. We took a long hike by a lake. Found some wonderful food and got to visit one of her clients. We got a taste of the beautiful work Kathy is doing. It was obvious her clients love her and she is making a difference in their lives. We also got to meet most of her house mates.   They give me such hope for the future of our world.  It was so nice to hug Kathy and have a good visit with her.

Wednesday we drove to the Washington DC area to see my Match guy’s son. We got stuck on the interstate for two hours.  The interstate was totally closed down. They finally had us do a U-turn and rerouted us around the block on the interstate.

Thursday we took the Metro downtown and visited several museums and walked the Mall to the Lincoln and Vietnam Memorials. We were tired by days end.

Friday my Match guy did some Sheetrock repair in his son’s Condo. I took a nap after I helped his son plant some flowers.

Today we are doing some painting and cleaning. Sunday after church we head out for our next stop.

Grateful for safe travels, grateful for seeing beloved family members and grateful for beautiful weather.

The visit to OK is going great.  Tuesday we went to a woodwind quartet concert in OK City.  It was fabulous.  Wednesday we installed interior wall and ceiling material on a garage addition he had built.  I had moderate success using the power screwdriver to put in screws.  The suckers, I mean screws, had trouble getting started going into the wood.  It felt good when they finally went in – if that happened.  We took an hour and half hike through the cross-country field that is across the street from his house.

Thursday my Match guy taught two classes in Tulsa for Osher.  I went along and got to see him teach.  He is a great teacher.  He has more history knowledge than anyone I have ever met.  His head must be crammed full of history facts.  One class he taught was on the history of American religions and the other was Black American history.  I learned lots of new things in both classes.  It gave me a different perspective of who he is.

Today we are running errands in preparation of our trip which starts Sunday.  We may get back to finishing installed wall boards in the addition.  We ran out of material Wednesday.

The full moon was beautiful Wednesday night.  I didn’t get to see it rise but did go outside and stood under it’s light for a bit.

The spring flowers are in full bloom in OK.  He has daffodils and hyacinths blooming in his yard.  Hyacinths smell so good!

It has been nice to be away from my home and responsibilities and be with my Match guy..  We are having fun and enjoying each other.

Looking forward to our trip and especially seeing my sister early next week.

I may update my blog along the way.  Kinda depends on how busy we are.

Grateful for this time with my Match guy, grateful for the beautiful full moon, and grateful to be of help with a construction job.  Although I am not sure how much help I really am.

It has been a more productive day for me than yesterday was.  I was in town by 9:15 for my doctor’s appointment.  Had to have some blood drawn for a test he had ordered.  The guy that drew my blood was good.  I didn’t even feel the needle go in.

The doctor changed me back to the same blood pressure medication I had been taking.  I am to cut the pills in half as a way to get around the insurance company not allowing the smaller dose pills in what they cover.  He told me to play with the dose and see if I can find out what works best for me.  He suggested I do 50 one day and 25 the next and see what that does.  He would prefer I not skip days although if my BP goes too low he said I could.

Stopped at Walmart after my appointment and picked up some shampoo and conditioner for my trip.  I came back home and started cleaning.  I got the laundry room cleaned really good and washed out the cat box and food containers.  They had made a big mess back their last week.

Used the weed blower to clean out the garage a bit.  I had spilled chicken feed and it was a mess with that and all the mud I and the dogs have been tracking in.  The garage looks better now.  It isn’t clean by any means but doesn’t look trashed.

Am working on packing for my trip.  I had gotten a bunch of nuts that I divided up into individual bags.  I did the same with a big bag of Epsom salt.  That stuff is heavy and this way each night I can grab a small bag out of the car and take it in if where we are staying has a bath tub.  Still need to finish packing but I have my list made out so it won’t take long to put things in a suitcase.  When I go on a road trip I always take too much stuff as I have room to take extra stuff.  At some point I will need to do laundry as I don’t have three weeks worth of clothes to take.

Still have a bit of cleaning left to do but am getting close to being able to leave tomorrow and have a clean house for the house sitter to come into.  With the windows open and the dust blowing in I’m not sure the house will be dust free.  Soon there will be ash blowing in from the prairie fires.

I have a big bruise on my hand.  I must have hit it when I was cleaning out the chicken coop Saturday.  The damn chickens didn’t even give me one egg today.  I gave them an R rated talking to when I went down to gather eggs and there weren’t any in the boxes.  I only have one egg for breakfast tomorrow.  All that work cleaning out their coop and nothing to show for it.  The slackers!

I had a rough night trying to sleep last night.  I had slept fairly well the two nights before that. Sure wish I could figure out the sleep issue and solve it.  So frustrating to lay in bed most of the night awake and not be able to stay asleep.

When I got up to go to the bathroom around 3:00 the moon was bright enough I didn’t need to turn a light on.  I love the way the moon lights the prairie at night when she is almost full.  It feels almost magical to me to witness the shadows she casts on the hills.  Wednesday night is a Super Moon and it happens to be Spring Equinox.  I have sure felt the power of the coming full moon this month.  I have warned my Match guy he might be in for a storm from me.  He told me he would fix a padded room for me if needed.

I’m excited to see my Match guy tomorrow afternoon.  It will be fun to spend three weeks with him.  This trip is different from the last one as this time we will be visiting family for most of the time.  It could be interesting!

Grateful the house is almost all cleaned, grateful for a productive day, and grateful I get to see my Match guy tomorrow.

 

Lazy day on the prairie today.  I was going to clean house all day today and haven’t done much yet.  It is too beautiful outside to stay inside today.  Mid 50’s, no wind and bright blue skies.  Love spring days like this.

Went into Emporia and met Tim and Ellexia for lunch.  I wanted to see Ellexia before I take off for three weeks.  Tagen was at his dad’s house so I didn’t get to see him.  Michelle has worked the last three nights so she was home sleeping.

I stopped at JCPenny’s after lunch and got a few t-shirts to take on my trip.  I hadn’t replaced my bigger t-shirts last summer after I lost weight and wanted a few short-sleeved shirts to take with me if the weather decides to warm up while I am on my trip.

Stopped by Michelle’s house and picked up two big bags full of Tagen’s hand me downs.  I went through them and found three pairs of jeans that fit and lots of t-shirts.  Thanks guys!  I will find a good home for the things I couldn’t fit into or didn’t want.  Anyone know of a little guy that wears size 14 or 16 and is in need of some good quality jeans and shirts?

Went down to the chicken coop and removed the heat lamp and heated watering can.  Put the long extension cord into the barn.  They have rearranged their fresh linens.  I only got two eggs though.  Sure hope they start laying big time while I am gone.  They are barely keeping me in eggs the last couple of weeks.  My allowance for them slacking is just about used up.

Tonight I am going to Ad Astra for dinner at 6:00.  Elexa Dawson is singing and I love listening to her.  I reserved a table for two and it will just be me.  Anyone want to meet me there?

All I want to do today is sit out on the back deck and enjoy the warmth and the sunshine.  It is absolutely beautiful out.  Rain is in the forecast for much of the coming week.  Maybe I ought to treat myself and give myself permission to rest today and enjoy the fresh air.

Tomorrow I have a doctor’s appointment in the morning and then will need to pack in the afternoon.  I am doing a tax shift Tuesday morning and plan to head for OK after that shift is done.  I want to have my car packed and ready before I go to bed Monday night.  I’m getting excited to see my Match guy again and to think that we will get to spend three weeks together.

Grateful for this beautiful spring day on the prairie with no wind, grateful for new to me clothes, and grateful my trip starts in only two days.

 

A top ten-day on the prairie today.  Mid 60’s, no wind, bright blue skies and magnificent sunshine.  The sunrise this morning was a beautiful way to start the day.  The sunset will be amazing as well.  I love living on the prairie on days like this!

I went into Emporia this morning to do my tax shift.  It was fun as normal and I get to see people I haven’t seen in a long time.  Afterwards I stopped at the bank to cash a check and get some cash for my trip next week.  Then I went to Bluestem and got 300 pounds of chicken feed and 150 pounds of dog food.

When I got home I headed out to the chicken coop to clean it out.  Man!  I am tired tonight.  Nine wheelbarrows full of chicken shit!  The coop sure smells better now and the girls love to rearrange their fresh linen aka straw.  My back is sore though.  The shit was piled up knee-high under the roosting bars and I had to remove it in layers.  It was wet and heavy.  Glad that job is done!  During the rest of the year I clean it out monthly and it is only a 30 minute job and 1 or 2 wheelbarrows full.  During the winter I add fresh straw on top of the old stuff monthly as the shit helps keep the coop warmer.

The person that will be house sitting for me while I am gone came with her mother today to learn how to do chores.  My step-grandfather was the house sitter’s mother’s uncle.  What a small world!  Her mother knew my grandmother and loved her.  I will be leaving my house= in good hands.

Got the chicken feed poured into the smaller containers and the dog food out of my car.  That was my weight lifting exercise for the day.  By the time I was lifting out the last couple of bags I was tired.

Tomorrow I need to start cleaning my house.  I haven’t touched it for two weeks and it is dusty and needs attention.  I don’t want to leave a dirty house for the house sitter.

I need to do another recycling drop off tomorrow.  I am going to Ad Astra for dinner tomorrow night so I can listen to Elexa Dawson sing and will take the recycling when I go to town tomorrow night.  I reserved a table for two but it will be just me.  Anyone want to join me?  6:00 Ad Astra.

I am so looking forward to my trip with my Match guy.  I will stay at his house from Tuesday until Sunday and then we will head towards KY.  We will spend all day Tuesday with Kathy and then head for the Washington DC area on Wednesday.  His son lives in that area.  We will stay there until the following Monday and then are going to Ashville, NC for a week.  That is where his brothers and a sister live.  We plan on doing some sight-seeing along the way and will be going to museums and such in DC.  I trust this trip will be as much fun as our last trip together was.

It feels good to have moved my body today but I am a bit sore and tired tonight.  I took a shower when I was done cleaning the chicken coop out and I might take a soaker bath tonight with some Epsom salts to ease the back ache I have.  Tomorrow I will start cleaning the house and getting it in order.  Monday I have a doctor’s appointment in the morning and then will need to pack in the afternoon.  Tuesday I have a tax shift in the morning and then will head for OK.

Grateful for a clean and fresh smelling chicken coop, grateful for a perfect spring day on the prairie, and grateful it is warm enough outside I can have my windows open  and hear the birds singing.

The Newsletters left for the post office by 9:15 this morning.  Always good to have that project done.  I finished them last night.

A guy came this afternoon to look at my bamboo floors.  He is going to work up an estimate and get back to me.  Down in the barn are some left over floor pieces.  He took several with him and is going to play with them and see how they will refinish.  The floor pieces actually came refinished.  He said he could match them.  The living room needs sanded down but the rest of the dining room and kitchen just need a new coat of finish on them.  I have no idea how much it might cost.  Guess I will find out tomorrow.  He told me he also does decks so if he does the job and does a good job I will have him bid my decks.  They need finishing too.

It has been a beautiful day on the prairie today although the wind has been in a bit of a hurry.  It warmed up to 50 which is much better than yesterday was.  It is to get even warmer the next couple of days.  Bring on Spring!

My Match guy sent me a picture of his daffodils in full bloom.  He lives 200 miles south of me. Spring is creeping northward.

I got a good night’s sleep last night.  I was sleeping really good this morning when the alarm went off.  I almost didn’t get up.  As usual though when I get more sleep than normal I am sleepy today.

Michelle sent me a note.  She had cleaned out Tagen’s closet and has lots of hand me downs for me.  I may end up with a whole new wardrobe if he has things that fit.

I started a packing list and realized I will need to take some T-shirts as the weather may turn warmer than I have been used to.  I may need to go get some new T-shirts to take.  The ones I have from last summer are too big for me now.

The dogs were MIA this morning again but came home this afternoon.  I am at a loss as to what to do next.  I thought I had fixed their collars.  Am starting to think they have figured out it only hurts for a second and they bust through the boundary lines.  Damn!  They are going to get run over if they keep running away.  I hate to tie them up but may have to for a bit.

Roxy turned three years old today.  I thought by now she would have settled down and be content to stay home.  Guess I was wrong!

I bought a big jar of cashews at Costco Wednesday.  I wanted the 2 oz individual packages but they didn’t think have any.  I weighed out 2 oz portions and put them into sandwich bags. I can’t stop eating them if they aren’t already portioned controlled for me.  I like to travel with nuts for a quick energy pick me up if we skip lunch.

My house sitter is coming over tomorrow so she can learn how to do chores.  I so appreciate her.  Maybe she will have better luck keeping the dogs home.

I have a tax shift in the morning.  I was going to get critter feed afterwards but will want to get home as the house sitter is coming in the early afternoon.  I have to go to town Monday for a doctor’s appointment so will get it then.

I started cleaning house today but have a lot more to clean.  It is amazing how dusty the house gets, even in the winter time with the house closed up.

I have enjoyed staying home all day today.  I’m glad the floor guy was a little slow in telling me when he was coming as that made me stay home.  My soul needed a day at home to recharge and refill.  This week has been way too busy for my liking.  It has gone by quickly though.  Haven’t even had time to miss my Match guy much.  It will be good to see him Tuesday afternoon though.

Grateful for the beautiful sunshiny day today, grateful the Newsletter is done and in the mail, and grateful for the good sleep I got last night.

Did another tax shift this morning.  Got done around 11:30.  Stopped at Walmart to pick up cat food and litter and then went into Cottonwood Falls.  Dumped my recycling material and picked up the last piece of the newsletter.

Came home and ate lunch and have been working on the Newsletter all afternoon and evening.  I only have two trays to glue shut and that project will be completed.  My shoulders are sore and needed to take a short break before I could finish.

It has been an ugly weather day on the prairie today.  High was 41, the wind blew at least 20 MPH all day, it has sprinkled off and on and even had occasional snow flakes and ice pellets.  Thankfully the sun is to return tomorrow and it will start another warm up.  The weekend looks like it will be beautiful.

When I was in Walmart I looked in women’s clothing for a wind breaker for me.  They didn’t have any yet so I went to the boy’s department and found one that fit.  Boy’s clothing is cheaper than women’s anyways.  That works for me!

Tomorrow I need to go to town to have blood drawn.  I was going to stop today to do that and forgot so will have to make a trip tomorrow.  I need to get 3 bags of dog food and 6 bags of chicken feed so will probably get that taken care of when I am in town tomorrow.  I am ready for a stay at home day or two but that won’t happen before I leave unless it is Sunday.

I let Sophia come in the house this afternoon to take a nap while her collar was charging.  She is one big dirty dog.  She was tired so she slept for two hours in the warm house.  Roxy finally came home after being gone for 36 hours.  I may have figured out what was wrong with their collars.  I’ll see what happens tonight with them.

My house needs some attention.  I have been so busy this week I haven’t done any house cleaning and it is starting to show.  I would like to get it all cleaned for my house sitter who is moving in Tuesday.  Now that the newsletter is almost done I should have time to get to it.  I’m starting to run out of time before I leave though.

Grateful for my warm house on this cold evening, grateful Roxy came home safe and sound, and grateful the Newsletter is almost done!

 

It was a rough drive to KC this morning.  I drove through some pretty hard rain and if it wasn’t raining the wind was blowing.  I was glad to get there safely.  The drive up took a bit longer than normal as there were times I couldn’t go the speed limit due to the amount of water on the highway.

I met Nicole at Costco and we went shopping.  I had a rather long list of supplies I needed to get.  After we finished shopping we went to lunch and then to her house for a bit.  I met a friend for coffee in the early afternoon and then drove home.  The drive home was dry but even more windy than the morning drive.  My arms were a bit sore from being tense driving due to the high wind.  I wished my car weighed a bit more on days like this.  I only got 32 MPG on the way home.  I usually get 45.

I didn’t have time to come home when I got back so went directly to my tax shift.  Did five returns and then came home.  I was thankful for daylight savings time as it was still light when I got home around 7:30 so I could see doing the chicken chores.  Only got 2 eggs today – the slackers!

I got my car unloaded and then drove down to the mailbox to get the trash can.  Decided not to try to pull it up to the house in the 30 MPH plus winds the prairie is getting tonight.

Loaded my car with recycling stuff I need to drop off tomorrow afternoon.  I have to go into Emporia for another tax shift and afterwards go into Cottonwood Falls to pick up the Newsletter envelopes.  I’ll drop off the recycling stuff while I am in Cottonwood tomorrow.  It will take me all afternoon and evening tomorrow to get the newsletters stuffed and sealed.

The sound of the wind wears on me after a bit.  It is to blow hard all night tonight and most of the day tomorrow.  I can understand why pioneer people went bat shit crazy when the wind blew for days on end.

After I get the newsletter done tomorrow or Friday morning I can turn my attention to preparing to leave on my trip with my Match guy.  I have started making a list of things I need to get done before I can leave.  I have a tax shift on Saturday morning and while I am in town I need to pickup chicken and dog feed for three weeks.  My car will be heavy then with over 600 pounds of feed in it.  Maybe I should have stopped and gotten it this morning before I left town.

It has been a long day.  I was gone for 11 hours today which is unusual for me.  It feels good to be home and be sitting in my corner chair with my feet up.  I am looking forward to Friday afternoon and some empty space.  This week has been way too busy for my liking.

Still living in my peaceful valley.  Things don’t seem to bother me much and pull me off-center when I am firmly in the center of the valley.  I understand when stuff happens that it isn’t really about me.  When I get pulled off center I forget that.

Grateful for a safe trip to KC, grateful to have been in service to others by doing taxes tonight, and grateful the sun came out for a bit this afternoon.

 

Another busy day for me.  I was in Emporia this morning before 9:00 for a tax shift.  Got done around 11:30 and came home to grab a quick salad then headed to Cottonwood Falls to do another tax shift.  Got done there at 3:30.  Stopped at the print shop to pick up some envelopes that were missing from yesterday but they weren’t done yet.

Came home and have stuffed 500 of the remaining 1,000 Newsletters.  My shoulders were getting sore so am taking a short break and will get those finished yet tonight.

I am going to KC tomorrow to see Nicole and a few friends.  I have another tax shift tomorrow night at 5:00 so will be gone all day and evening tomorrow.  Thursday I work yet another tax shift in the morning and then will come home and hopefully finish up the Newsletter if the outer envelopes are ready.

It has rained off and on all day today on the prairie.  My rain gauge is broken and I haven’t put the new one up yet so not sure how much rain I have gotten.  It is nice to get spring rains.  We haven’t had any spring rains for a couple of years.  It is to rain most of tomorrow too.  The fog is rolling in this evening making it feel darker and later than it is.  I might go to bed early if I get my Newsletters stuffed.

This week got stuffed full of things to do and places to go.  A bit too busy for my liking.  I am craving an empty space day and that won’t happen until Sunday.  I need to get a packing list for my trip next week started.  On the top of the list is checking my critter feed to make sure I have enough on hand to last three weeks.  I also need to clean the house and get it ready for the house sitter.

Sophia came home this morning from being gone all day and evening yesterday.  When I talked to her this morning she wouldn’t look me in the eyes as if she knew she had done something wrong.  I have got to find some time to find out why their electronic collars aren’t working properly.

My mind is empty and quiet this afternoon.  Everything feels a bit like I am in slow motion.  I didn’t sleep very good last night and thinking I am just tired.  I haven’t had much if any down time today.  I don’t usually have so many busy days back to back.  I think my body is wondering what the hell I am doing to it.

Grateful for the rain on the prairie today, grateful for the interesting people I get to meet by doing taxes, and grateful Sophia came home this morning.

 

 

 

 

Busy day on the prairie today.  I was in Emporia a little before 9:00 for my first tax shift of the day at the Senior Center.   Got done and stopped by Dillon’s to pick up a few groceries.  Got home and quickly ate a salad and went into Cottonwood Falls to work my second tax shift of the day.  When that was done I stopped and picked up part of the pieces of the mailing I am putting together for Pioneer Bluffs.  One last piece still needs to be finished up but I can get started tonight folding and collating.

Tomorow I have two tax shifts again.  It keeps me busy and out of trouble I guess!

What an absolutely beautiful day on the prairie.  It is upper 50’s, bright blue skies and little wind.  Rain is to come in tomorrow and hang around for a couple of days.  I may go take a long walk and delay starting the Newsletter a bit.  It is too nice outside to be inside.

Sophia got out of the yard this morning and hasn’t returned home yet.  Trusting she will find her way home soon.  I worry when they get out and disappear for a bit.  Roxy is still hanging around.

My Match guy sent me a photo of some blooming daffodils and a dandelion from his yard this morning.  Spring will be here soon!

I must have eaten something that causes cravings as I am hungry this afternoon.  Good thing I don’t have any junk food in the house or I would be eating it.  I can’t remember that last time I had cravings this bad.  My Match guy eats a lot of white potatoes and I ate a bunch while I was in OK too.  I’m thinking that is what has caused withdrawal like symptoms today with my cravings.

Today marks 13 months on Bright Lines.  Still being able to maintain my weight loss fairly easily.  I have noticed I am not eating as many vegetables as I want to lately though.  Vegetables are sometimes the hardest thing to find on a menu when I eat out.  I prefer cooked veggies over salad veggies and I don’t count white potatoes as a veggie – I count it as a grain.

Sitting in my peaceful valley today.  I come home from doing taxes feeling very grateful for all I have.

Grateful for this beautiful day, grateful to have been in service today, and grateful for 13 months on Bright Line Eating and being able to maintain my weight loss.

 

Home again after spending the last couple of days in OK with my Match guy.  We had another magical time together.  It is nice to be home again and back out on the prairie.

We spent a quiet couple of days together.  The first full day I was there we took a long hike and then had two of his friends over for dinner.  It was a fun evening with his friends.  Dinner was good and the conversation interesting.  Saturday there was a wind storm that came through and did some damage to the roof of the garage. Match guy had to spend several hours fixing that.  I’m gad I was there as the ladder to the roof blew over and he wouldn’t have been able to get down easily.  After he got that fixed he noticed the sewer line had backed up so he had to fix that.

We fixed steaks for dinner Saturday night and had a quiet evening at home.  Sunday morning we went to church together and then out for lunch.  I drove home in the afternoon.

Time with him is very relaxed and easy for me.  We can sit and be quiet together or have interesting conversations.  I had taken some knitting with me so while he was outside working Saturday I knitted.  The time went by very quickly.  The only hard part is when I had to leave and say goodbye.  I am really looking forward to our trip back east together in two weeks.

I have a busy week ahead.  Tomorrow I do taxes at the Senior Center and then go to the Cottonwood Falls Senior Center in the afternoon to do another shift doing taxes.  The same schedule applies on Tuesday.  Wednesday I am going to KC to see Nicole and a friend and then I have to get home by 5:00 for another tax shift.  Thursday morning I do taxes in Emporia again. I also will be stuffing the Spring Newsletter for Pioneer Bluffs this week.  Parts of the Newsletter are ready for pickup tomorrow and maybe all of the pieces will be ready.

I found someone who is willing to come look at my bamboo floors to see if he can refinish them.  I had called two other guys that refinish hardwood floor and neither one of them were interested in the project and wouldn’t even come look at them.  Trusting this guy will show up as promised this Friday and will accept the job.  They have needed done since I moved in five years ago.

It is nice to relax in my own home tonight.  The sunset was stunning with bright red colors.  Not used to daylight savings time yet and it feels weird to still have a bit of daylight at 8:00 pm.  Maybe I can sleep in a bit tomorrow with the light coming later than I am used to.  I will have to get up by 7:00 though as I have to be in town by 8:45.  Might have to set an alarm as the sun won’t be available to wake me up early.

Booked my last room for the Symphony on the Prairie weekend.  If I am going to have three rooms booked I might as well have all four.  I have three full house bookings on my calendar, one in April, one in May and one in June.  I’m not taking other bookings right now as I don’t know what my availability is and I don’t want to have commitments that I can’t get out of easily.

Decompressing after being gone for a few days.  The house feels big and empty to me tonight after being with someone for the last couple of days.  It is always good to get back home after being away but I sure miss my Match guy.  Things continue to heat up between us.  It feels right to be with him.

Grateful or the time with my Match guy, grateful for a safe trip home, and grateful for my house sitter that took good care of the house and critters so I could get away and play.

 

Got a text this morning from the leader of the tax program I volunteer for.  They had three cancellations for tonight and she told me I didn’t need to come in to town today to do my shift.  That was a nice surprise and a welcome text.  I have some things I needed to get done so I could leave on time tomorrow afternoon and now I have the time to get them done.  It is surprising to me that others think the drive in to town is a long drive.  I have gotten used to it and don’t think twice about driving into town.

Three dear friends came over this afternoon and we celebrated Spring Equinox a week or so early.  There is a new moon tonight so the timing felt good.  We had another beautiful and powerful ceremony.  After I led us in a grounding and balancing meditation we each named three areas in our life where we feel we need to find a better balance.  After that we smudged each other to help us release them and then came back to our circle and each named three things we wanted to celebrate where we had found balance.

I have learned to set my intentions carefully during these ceremonies as the power is strong and the intentions I set happen.  I truly believe the world would be a better place if every person had a small group they were part of that one could be very vulnerable with.  The love and support that is shared during ceremony is beautiful to be a part of.

I had a moment this morning that set my day off on the wrong foot.  My Match guy has been building a door from scratch.  He has spent hours making this door, nailing it together board by board, sanding it, staining it, and now varnishing it.  I am going to help him hang it when I am with him this weekend.  He is justifiably proud of it.  When I saw a picture of it he had sent me last night all I could think of was how is he going to be able to leave it behind if we continue our relationship and we each sell our homes to find one that is ours.

I sent him his daily letter early this morning and questioned whether he would be able to do just that.  Five minutes after I sent the letter I wished I hadn’t.  Please tell me I am not the only one that does that!  Ha!

He texted me later in the day after he got up and assured me he is willing to sell his house so we can become us when the time is right.  He then admitted he was concerned I wouldn’t be able to leave my dear friends that I had gathered with today.  He thanked me for being bold and honest with him about my concerns.

We have some big hurdles to jump over together in the future.  Combining two separate lives into one seems huge, especially since we live 200 miles apart.  It will be interesting to see where this all goes.  Still not sure where we might end up living if we decide to live together.

I’m not sure why I got so insecure this morning. I have been thinking about balance and the ways it appears in my life – and ways that feel out of balance.  Maybe that stirred up some unconscious thoughts and beliefs.  I regretted sending the email shortly after it was sent but there was nothing I could do at that point.  I am so very grateful he responded the way he did and even appreciated my honesty.  I think I have found a winner!

I am knitting a blanket so after I get some things done around the house to get ready for tomorrow I will spend the evening knitting.  It has been a bit since I have knitted and can’t knit in one sitting as long I used to be able to.  It does feel good to be knitting again though.

It warmed up above freezing today and much of the snow melted away.  There is still some deep drifts here and there but the thin layer of snow is gone.  I appreciated it being above freezing today.  It is to be even warmer tomorrow.  Bring on the heat!  I am so ready for it.  The chicken coop ground wasn’t too muddy today.  The ground is still partly frozen in places and the wind dried out the other part of it.

Feeling very grounded, centered and balanced after our ceremony today.  The little problems of the day seem to be easily handled when I am in this space.  Trusting I will remember to return to this space when I fall out of balance.

Grateful for the dear friends that joined me in sacred ceremony today, grateful for the way my Match guy responded to my moment of insecurity, and grateful for temperatures above freezing.  Spring may actually be on the way!

Another day of doing taxes in the morning.  We kept running out of clients today so stood around visiting a lot of the time.  Wish they would schedule more clients so we stayed busy.  I know there are lots of people who could use our service if we added more openings.

Stopped by the pharmacy and picked up the remaining anti-inflammatory cream for my bunions.  I thought I was only getting one more tube but they gave me three more.  Think I have a lifetime supply of it now.  I haven’t even used up the first tube yet.  I only use it when the bunions are screaming at me and with my new shoes they don’t often scream.  Miss wearing my cute shoes though.

It is a beautiful day on the prairie today.  It is to reach the high 20’s today.  The wind is in a bit of a hurry though so it feels colder than that outside.  We are to get the mid 40’s the rest of the week.  That should help melt the snow off.  I keep looking for the first shoots of grass but haven’t seen much evidence of things waking up yet.

Need to bundle up and go do chicken chores and pull the trash can to the mailbox.  I got cold when I came home and haven’t been able to warm up yet.  Maybe I need to go get my chores done and then take a hot bath and warm up.  I hate to be cold.

Nicole FaceTime with me this morning.  It is 96 where she is at in South Africa.  She laughed when I told her it was 6 degrees when she called.  She seems to be having a grand adventure and has seen lots of animals in the wilds.  She heads for home Thursday and will arrive sometime Friday after a 17 hour flight plus some connecting flights.  Don’t envy her that flight!  14 hour was plenty long for me.

Need to make a packing list for Thursday.  I am going to OK to see my Match guy for a few days.  I’m looking forward to seeing him again.  When we are apart for more than a week or so I start thinking we can’t make “us” happen.  My doubts go away when I am with him though.  If it is meant to be we will find a way to merge our lives.  Still not sure how or what that will look like.

Feeling better every day.  My B/P has behaved itself for a day or so and is not swinging so high or low.  It is settling down but hasn’t quite got there yet.  The pressure in my chest is much less today than it had been  Thinking I am on the mend and will be good to go in another day or so.

Sitting in my peaceful valley and appreciating all the great things going right in my life.  It is interesting to watch what pulls me out of my peaceful valley and how long it takes for me to return to it.  Allowing my feelings to be what they are without attaching a story to them or pushing them away helps keep me in my valley of peace.

Grateful for being in service this morning, grateful for the sun shining today, and grateful for my peaceful valley where life is easy and solutions to problems are easy to find.

 

 

I went into Ad Astra for dinner last night and to listen to Annie Wilson and her group sing.  It was a delightful evening.  There were several people at the restaurant that I knew.  I ended up sitting by Annie’s husband John and eating dinner with him.  I’m glad I got out on a very cold night.  The restaurant was nice and warm and the friends made it cozy.

Today I met a dear friend and we drove to Council Grove to have lunch at Hay’s House.  The drive was beautiful, the company delightful and the food was good.  It was good to get out of the house and drive through the hills.  I’m so blessed to have the friends I do and enjoy spending time with them.

I took a nap when I got home.  I slept in bits and pieces last night and guess I was still tired.  I had been sitting in my chair and kept falling asleep so decided to lay down.  I slept really good for a bit.  Got a phone call from someone looking for beds for the Symphony on the Prairie weekend in June.  I am booked for that weekend.

It has basically been another non-productive day.  Can’t say I got anything done other than lunch with my friend.  That made it a good day – just not a productive one.  Not sure why I can’t get motivated to do anything.  Good thing I don’t have anything that needs to be done.

Tomorrow I have to be in Emporia by 9:00 to do another tax shift.  Need to remember to stop by the pharmacy and pick up the last tube of the anti-inflammatory medication for my bunions.  The prescription was for three tubes which the pharmacy has had trouble getting in stock.  The one I will pick up tomorrow is the last of the three to come in.

I do need to do a bit of house cleaning tomorrow or Wednesday.  I am leaving Thursday to go see my Match guy in OK and have a house sitter coming to stay in the house while I am gone.  I haven’t cleaned downstairs for a bit and need to touch it up some.  Amazing how much dust blows in, even in the winter time.

It was cold doing chicken chores again today.  At least the sun was shining which makes it feel warmer than it was.  The wind was brutal again.  I cheated and drove my car down to get the mail.  I do not like the cold wind blowing on my face.  I haven’t let warm since I came back in from doing chores.  Only got three eggs today – barely worth making the trip down to the coop.  Guess I will give the girls some slack though as it is too cold to lay an egg.

Haven’t heard from my accountant about my taxes.  Usually by know I have had a request for more information.  Trusting he is working on my taxes and will have them done soon.  I doubt that I get a refund but would like to know if I have to pay.

Hard to believe that Spring Equinox is just around the corner.  The light has been returning and soon we will have a day of equal light and darkness.  A day of perfect balance.  Spring Equinox is a good time to look at the balance in your life and give gratitude for the ways that you notice balance and set intentions for the places where a better balance would serve you.  Maintaining balance in life is a huge challenge for me sometimes.  I tend to swing and staying grounded, centered and in balance is hard for me.

Grateful for the beautiful sunset tonight, grateful for a dear friend that went to lunch with me today, and grateful Spring will be here soon.

 

 

 

 

 

Another blast of winter hit the prairie over night.  Hard to tell how much snow I got due to the high wind blowing the snow around.  I had to shovel a thigh high area behind my garage doors this afternoon.  The snow is light and powdery and was easy to shovel.  Glad it wasn’t heavy.   At least the sun is shining this afternoon.  Makes it feel a bit warmer than the 12 degrees that it is.  If you stay out of the wind it didn’t feel too bad out but if you faced the wind it was brutal.  Sure hoping this is winter’s last blast.

Did the chicken chores.  The chickens were mostly huddled together on the roosting bars trying to help each other stay warm. They didn’t come out to greet me when I went down.  I took pity on them and gave them their oat treat inside their coop.  The silly dogs were laying on top of a snow bank and acted like it was a delightful place to lay on.  The dogs did come inside and slept under the heat lamp in the garage last night so I know they aren’t completely dumb. The cats had no interest in going outside for some fresh air.

Feeling a bit better today than I was yesterday.  Still not back to 100% but getting there.  I took a nap this afternoon.  Sleep helps a lot of things – including my mood.  Haven’t gotten anything productive done today again though.  I am on a streak of  non-productive days.  Sure glad I have had taxes to work on as that is about the only productive thing I have done the last two weeks or so.

My blood pressure is doing better.  It was 116/79 last night after my bath.  It has bounced around a bit today but nothing too high or too low.  I switched back to the blood pressure pills I have been taking that contain a light diuretic.  I lost three pounds the day after I switched back so am thinking I had some water weight building up.  My body is hard to regulate sometimes.

I may go into Ad Astra tonight to listen to Annie Wilson sing.  I love hearing her and it would do me good to get out.  I didn’t walk my driveway to make sure it is clear.  Trusting I can get out if I decide to go.  I don’t want to get stuck and have to get towed out.  My neighbor has someone take care of his horses daily and they cut a trail through the snow for me in the east west part of the driveway.

Tomorrow I am having lunch with a dear friend.  We were going to go to Council Grove but thinking we may go to the Grand instead.  We’ll see how the roads are in the morning.  Tuesday morning I have a shift doing taxes.  It is to warm up a bit by then.

Grateful chores are done for the day, grateful the snow was light and easy to shovel, and grateful the sun is shining today.

 

 

 

 

Went into Emporia this morning to do taxes.  Did 4 or 5 returns and ran out of clients.  Dropped some cookies off with Ellexia and then came home.  The wind is strong on the prairie today and the temperature is dropping.  We are to get up to six inches of snow overnight.  Yuck!

Did chicken chores and walked down to get the mail.  Not bad out if you aren’t walking into the wind.  It is only to be 15 for the high tomorrow with the lows below zero.  Maybe this is winter’s last blast.

I’m in a funky mood this afternoon.  Not quite in the muck pond but close.  Not sure what is going on.  Not motivated to do anything and feeling a bit vulnerable.  Feeling a bit lonely this afternoon which is unusual for me.  I’m tired so maybe I just need to go take a nap and sleep off what ever this is.

I need a project to do at home.  I have had way too much unproductive time on my hands lately.  After a while it isn’t fun to do nothing all the time.  The house is fairly clean and doesn’t need my time right now and I really don’t have anything on my to-do list.  I keep reminding myself to appreciate this empty space time and embrace it. Some days I do better than others in doing do.

Nothing on my calendar for tomorrow so if the snow comes I won’t have to worry about getting out.  I will be able to sit in my chair in the corner of the living room and appreciate the beauty of the snow on the prairie.

Grateful chores are done for the day and I can stay inside the rest of the day, grateful that this mood will pass – sooner or later, and grateful to have been in service this morning preparing taxes for others.

 

It was a beautiful day on the prairie today.  Warmed up to the low 40’s and the sun returned from vacation for a bit.  It wasn’t even windy today.  I wish I had stayed home and gone for a long walk.

I went to Manhattan to visit some dear friends today.  We had a good long visit.  It had been too long since I had made it over to see them.  I always enjoy our conversations.  The drive over was wonderful. The hills were beautiful.  There is still a bit of snow on the ground in Manhattan.

The latest forecast is calling for my little corner of the prairie to get up to six inches of snow Saturday night and Sunday.  It is to get really cold Sunday with the low below zero.  It will warm up mid-week and then more snow is forecast for next weekend.  Can it be spring yet?

My blood pressure is still high tonight although not as high as Wednesday night.  Wish I could get it to settle down some.  Patience, grasshopper, patience!

Didn’t get anything productive done at home today.  Had trouble sleeping last night and finally was able to get some sleep early morning so I didn’t get up until 9:00.  It makes for a short day when I sleep in that late.

Tomorrow I have a shift in the morning preparing income tax returns.  After I get done with them I don’t have anything on my calendar until Monday when I am meeting a friend for lunch.  If we get the snow that is forecast I will be glad to stay home and tuck myself in for a bit.  Trusting I’ll be able to get out of my driveway Monday.

I stopped in Manhattan to pick up a few groceries on my way home.  The store was jammed – thinking people were stocking up in case the snow comes in.

Grateful to be able to visit with my dear friends today, grateful for the beautiful weather on the prairie today, and grateful in advance that my blood pressure will calm down.

 

Last night got interesting. After I blogged I started feeling icky. My blood pressure spiked high again. I took a bath to see if that would calm it down and relax me. I felt better for a few minutes and then felt restless and icky. I got out of the bath and got dressed. Took my BP and it was 200/100.

Decided I better go in and have it checked as I was having very mild chest pressure. When I got to the hospital four nurses swarmed over me. They drew blood, started an IV, did an EKG and asked me lots of questions. Thankfully the EKG was normal.

After the nurse got the computer updated they all left my room. A lady came in and did a chest X-RAY and the registration lady came in. After a long wait the doctor came in.

He told me that when you don’t have a thyroid and get the flu it can cause your body to get unbalanced. All the labs were within normal except for the BUN. My potassium was .1 lower than normal. He told me the thyroid medication I take is not as smart as your thyroid is and can’t adjust automatically to a change in my electrolytes that happens when you have the flu. He thinks that within two weeks my body will settle down and things will return to normal. He let me go home shortly afterwards.

My family doctor had changed my BP medication. The ER doctor said my system must be very sensitive and the change in the medication caused a reaction. He said to continue with the new medication for two weeks and if things don’t settle down to go back to my family doctor and see what he wants to do.

I had forgotten when I first got my thyroid out I had huge swings in my heart rate and BP for about two months. I had another episode of the same thing happening in April last year.

I’m glad I went in and even more grateful that it wasn’t anything serious.

I texted the kids after I got to the hospital and they let me have my phone back. Jason ran up to see me. He got there just as I was about to leave. Michelle and Tim both offered to come up if needed. Love my kids!

I slept for five hours straight last night! Wow! I could get used to that quickly. I feel much better today. So far my BP is higher than it has been runnng but not scary high. Trust it will settle down soon.

Today is an empty space type of day. I haven’t really gotten much done yet but that is what empty space days are for. I will bundle up soon and go down and do chores. The sun is on vacation and it is a dreary cloudy day on the prairie. Not looking forward to the snow that is to come Saturday evening and Sunday. I am so looking forward to green grass and spring flowers.

Tomorrow I want to drive over to Manhattan to visit some dear friends. Sounds like the weather will allow me to do that. It will be good to get out and drive through the hills. Saturday morning I have another shift doing taxes and then am free the rest of the weekend.

Grateful everything checked out OK last night, grateful for the love and care my kids show me, and grateful for waking up this morning feeling rested.

Another cold day on the prairie.  Snow fell off and on most of the day although it never snowed hard enough to accumulate.  It was cold doing chicken chores today.  I was grateful for my insulated coveralls.  Wish I had gloves that kept my hands as warm as my coveralls do my ass.

The Pioneer Bluffs committee meeting went well.  I baked chocolate no-bake cookies and served those along with some Chex Mix and pistachios.  A few drank a cup of hot tea and two of us drank iced tea.  I had told them I had to leave at 4:15 but they were done and gone by 4:00.

I went into Emporia at 4:15 and did another tax preparation shift.  I did five returns tonight.  I was home by 6:45 as we ran out of clients tonight.

Tomorrow I have an empty space type of day on my calendar.  I get to choose how I spend my time tomorrow.  Don’t have much that I have to do but hate to waste an entire day.  Not sure what I will find to do.  I only have one more empty space day before my adventure with my Match guy in March.  I best use my day wisely and appreciate and enjoy it.

I found a house sitter for the time I will be gone in March.  I’m relieved to have done so.  I have a friend that would come do chores twice a day but the dogs do better when someone is in the house and they have someone to guard at night.  She will probably be available when I take my trip to CO in July too.  Yeah!  What a relief.

This morning my blood pressure was 124.77 which is perfect.  Tonight it is too high at 185/100.  What is going on?  I’ll check it again in a bit and make sure it goes down. I’ll call the doctor tomorrow if it is still too high.  I ate some Chex Mix today that has a lot of salt in it and is food I normally don’t eat.  I don’t know if that makes a difference or not.  Something feels off inside but I don’t know what it is.  Last night I thought I was getting either a UTI or a kidney stone but have had no symptoms of that today.  Hmmm…..  Just what is my body trying to tell me?  Just took it again and it is 135/86.  Up down Up down!

Today has been a better day than yesterday was for me.  My mood was much higher and more level.  I was able to walk out of the muck pond I was in yesterday and didn’t look back.  Today felt easy and grace-filled.  If I could get my blood pressure thing fixed it would be icing on my wonderful cake of life.

Grateful to have found a house sitter, grateful tax shift went easy, and grateful I was able to walk out of the muck pond and have a good day today.

What a difference a day makes in KS weather.  It has been cold and windy today.  The sun has left for a week’s vacation and the prairie has been cloudy all day.  It was cold doing chicken chores this afternoon.  Come on spring – I need you bad!

Went into Emporia for a shift doing taxes this morning. Finished up by 11:15.  Went to Bruff’s for a veggie burger minus the bun.  After lunch I walked around Walmart killing time.  Didn’t find a thing I needed to buy.

Went to my 1:15 doctor’s appointment.  My blood pressure was 100/60 in his office today.  I’m not sure I agree with his treatment plan.  He originally was going to cut my blood pressure medication dose in half.  When he found out insurance doesn’t cover the lower dose he decided instead to change my medication from the one that contains a mild diuretic to one that doesn’t and keep the dose at 50.  He wants me to come back in three weeks and he will run some labs and then decide if what he wants me to try is working.

I told him I had quit taking my triglyceride medication due to leg and foot cramps.  I went off of it for two weeks and the cramps disappeared.  When I started taking it again they came back.  He told me he didn’t think the medication had anything to do with it.  Ummm……

Some days my doctor is curious and does a good job of listening and hearing what I have to say.  Some days he doesn’t and today seemed to be a day where he couldn’t hear me.  I am going to follow his advice with the blood pressure medication and see what happens.  I’ll take my blood pressure several times a day and record the results.  If it continues to stay too low I will go to plan B – whatever that is.  I’m going to wait to restart the triglyceride medication until we get my blood pressure situation resolved.

Stopped at CVS to pick up the new prescription.  When I got there they told me it would take an hour before the medication would be ready.  I told the clerk I lived 30 minutes away and didn’t want to have to go home and then come back to town to get it. She rolled her eyes at me and said she would attempt to expedite it for me.  30 minutes later they had it ready.  They only had one customer in that time.

Starting to think I may be getting a UTI again.  It seems to come and go though so not sure what is going on.  It feels a bit like it did when I had a kidney stone years ago although I don’t have any pain in my lower back.  Ummmmm…..  I’ll go to ER if it gets worse. It didn’t start bothering me until after I left the doctor’s office today.

Feeling a bit vulnerable and uncomfortable this evening.  One disadvantage to living alone is when you don’t feel good and don’t have a backup close.  Think I will take a bath and go to bed and feel better in the morning.

Tomorrow a Pioneer Bluff’s committee is meeting at my house at 2:00.  Then at 5:00 I am working another tax preparation shift.  Thursday is an empty space day for me – I will look forward to that. I won’t have another empty space day until March 15.

I’ll need to clean house a bit in the morning to get it ready for the committee members that will be coming at 2:00.  I want to bake some cookies so I have something to serve them.  I forgot to pick something up at the grocery store today.

The forecast is now calling for snow this weekend.  Yuck!  We have had enough snow this winter as far as I am concerned.  It it to get below zero Sunday night.  Spring where are you?  Please come soon!  My soul needs you!!!

Sitting in the muck pond tonight.  I’m going to go take a bath and remind myself to enjoy the muck for a bit and then rise up and walk out of it.  And this too will pass……

Grateful for being able to complete four tax returns today, grateful for knowing about the muck pond and how to rise up out of it rather quickly  (I used to live in the muck pond), and grateful that this day is almost over and a new day will be here very soon.

Had another low blood pressure episode last night.  This time I did not pass out.  Laid on the bed for a few minutes after I got out of the bath tub as I was light-headed.   I decided to check my blood pressure.  I had to change the batteries in the blood pressure cuff.  When I finally got a reading it was 85/50.  That was ten minutes after I got out of the bath tub.  A little low perhaps?  I checked it every five minutes for three times and it got up to 120/68.  I have a doctor’s appointment tomorrow afternoon so I will see what he says.  I had taken my blood pressure pill yesterday.

I didn’t sleep very well again last night.  Sure makes for a long night when I have a night like that.  I had felt a bit restless and anxious all day yesterday and last night I felt a bit sad too.  Not sure what was behind all of that but did my best to allow it to be what it was without creating a story about it.  Whatever it was is gone today.

Went to the Senior Center in Cottonwood Falls and did five tax returns this afternoon.  Learned something new with two of them.  Love learning new things.  It would take me several years to learn all there is to know about them.

Came home and did chores.  It is beautiful outside.  The sky is bright blue and the sun is shining brightly.  It is muddy though, especially in the chicken coop.  I was slipping and sliding in the coop carrying the bucket of water.  I found a fairy egg today.  Fairy eggs are smaller than a quarter and have no yolk in them.  I get one about every month or so.  They are cute but worthless.  I must have a slacker hen that just lays fairy eggs.  They make me smile so guess they are good for something.

I have had to wash my eggs lately.  The chickens do not know how to wipe their feet before they get into the nesting boxes to lay their eggs.

Sophia went on another adventure today.  I changed out her collar to see if she will stay home again.  The collars seem to work part-time now.  Roxy is the only one that never leaves the yard.

Ellexia seems to be feeling a bit better today.  It is so hard when the little ones are sick.  I went into Emporia to get groceries and got her a box of Popsicles and took over to her.  I texted her to tell her to eat one and she said she did.  I told her to eat another one and she said no.  She is like me and doesn’t like to eat or drink when she is sick.  She had to go to ER last night to get some fluids as she wasn’t peeing.  Trusting she has turned the corner and will recover quickly.

I was talking on the phone with my Match guy and wasn’t watching the clock so I was a few minutes late to my tax preparation shift.  I only live 10 minutes away and couldn’t make it on time!  Dang!

It was nice to get out of the house today.  I realized I hadn’t been out since last Thursday.  I just remembered I had some where to go today at 4:00 and totally forgot about it.  Man!  I can’t seem to get to where I am to get to today on time.  Maybe tomorrow I will have better luck.

Tomorrow I have a tax preparation shift from 9:00 – noon and then a doctor’s appointment at 1:15.  I’ll have lunch in town as I won’t have time to drive home and back to town.  Wednesday a committee is meeting at my house in the afternoon and then I have a tax shift from 5:00 – 8:00 in Emporia.  Thursday is an empty space type of day.

Felt like I left my peaceful valley yesterday for a bit but was able to find my way back into it today.  Life is much easier for me when I can find my ground and center and stay anchored.  Problems and issues arise but are easily solved and I don’t take things that happen personally.  Much of my life feels like I am an observer of it and not emotionally connected to outcomes.

Grateful for this beautiful warmer day – jut what my soul needed, grateful for being in service to others today, and grateful Ellexia is feeling better.

 

It has been another lazy day on the prairie.  I had a rare empty space day and have done absolutely nothing today.  I must be tired as I have no motivation to get anything done.  Good thing I didn’t have anything that had to be done today other than chores.  I did unload the feed I got earlier this week from my car and get it sorted into smaller containers.

The sun has shined most of the day although clouds are trying hard to take over the sky this afternoon.  It only got up to 35 today but tomorrow the sun is to return and it is to get up to 51.  I am so ready for a warmer day.

Tomorrow I am going to the Senior Center in Cottonwood Falls in the afternoon to do taxes.  That will be a new place to do them in for me and should be a fun afternoon.  Wonder if I will know anyone that comes in to have them done.  I really enjoy doing them and appreciate the clients that I have met.

Ellexia is sick with a high fever.  I have been sending her healing light and love and trusting that she will feel better soon.  Michelle took her into the Urgent Care Clinic.  Not sure what the diagnosis was as the clinic is out of flu swaps.  It is hard to see little ones sick but they normally get well fairly quickly.

I haven’t made it into Emporia to buy groceries yet.  May wait and go in the morning or I may find some energy and do it yet this afternoon.  I don’t need much and it is hard to drive in for only three things.

I still have standing water in my back yard.  The ground must be frozen enough that the water isn’t soaking in.  The dogs look like they have been making mud pies and the chicken coop is a big mud pie.  Grateful for my muck books today.  I held on to the fence in the chicken coop so I wouldn’t fall down.  Mud is slick!

I was able to get out of the tub and dressed last night without falling over.  Progress!  I skipped my BP pill yesterday.  I took it this morning.  I made an appointment to go see my family doctor Tuesday this week.  Thinking I don’t need the BP pills anymore – or at least need a lower dose if I still need them.

Sitting in my peaceful valley.  Feels like I have been here for a long time.  I have fallen into the muck pond a very times but didn’t stay in it very long.  It is nice to have found some smooth sailing for a bit.  The world has a lot of chaos happening and it can be a challenge to hold my center when I am out in the world.  Starting and ending each day in my peaceful valley helps with that.

Grateful for a beautiful, quiet day on the prairie, grateful to be living in my peaceful valley, and grateful for all the healing thoughts and concerns friends and family have sent me.

This has felt like Sunday all day to me.  Not sure why.  The weather on the prairie has been changeable the last 12 hours.  We have had fog, drizzle, heavy rain, hail, thunder, lightning, sun shine and now snow is predicted for later today.  Leave it to KS to cram all four seasons into one day on the prairie.

My Match guy left around 3:15 this afternoon to head back to OK.  We had another couple of wonderful days together.  Didn’t do anything special or even leave my house the two days he was here.  He didn’t get here until almost 8:00 Thursday evening.  We had crock pot chicken and roasted veggies for dinner.  Friday night I fixed a meat loaf and baked potatoes.

Friday evening I took a bath like I normally do.  I felt a bit light-headed during my bath and opened a window to let some cool air in.  I thought it had gotten better but a minute or two after I got out of the bath tub I passed out.  I couldn’t figure out why I was lying on the floor.  I think I scared my Match guy.  My blood pressure has dropped with the weight loss and thinking I need to see if my doctor will approve me going off my blood pressure medication for a trial or maybe decreasing the dose yet again.

My Match guy is so easy to be with.  We keep commenting on how easy the other is to be with.  We manage to find things to talk about and haven’t gotten bored with each other yet.  We are still learning new things about the other and both of us keep liking what we discover about the other.  Still not sure how we would go about merging our lives together but more possibilities seem to be opening.

I got a call from my volunteer place today.  They were wondering if I was OK since I didn’t show up this morning.  I had sent them an email two weeks ago to let them know I needed off for this Saturday and they had answered that they would find someone else to cover my shift.   Someone must have forgotten.  I feel bad they were a person short today.  By the time they called though I wouldn’t have been much help even if I went in.  By the time I would have taken a shower and got to town it would have been 11:15.

The house feels so very quiet and big to me this afternoon since my Match guy left.  I get used to living alone until I don’t and when I go back to being alone I notice the difference in a new way.

I may run into Emporia and get some groceries before the next round of storms roll in.  I may wait and go tomorrow as I am a bit tired this afternoon.  I slept fairly good Thursday night but had trouble sleeping last night.  A nap sounds really good right now.

Sophia got out of her boundary and went on an adventure in the pasture to the west of the house.  She hasn’t come back home yet.  Roxy didn’t join her today.  I’ll have to change out Sophia’s collar when she comes home and see if that will help keep her home.  At least there aren’t any cattle in the pasture for her to chase.  Star was Sophia’s partner in crime.  Bet Sophia is missing Star today while she is out on her adventure.

Tomorrow is a rare empty space day for me.  I have managed to book lots of things on my calendar and don’t have many completely empty space days.  I do enjoy the days where I have nothing that has to be done and I can stay home all day.

I have managed to drop the weight I gained while I was at Michelle’s house last week.  I’m glad it came off easily.  I do feel better at the bottom end of my range and when I eat on plan.

Sitting in my peaceful valley this afternoon.  I am tired but so very happy.  My relationship with my Match guy continues to grow.  The only hard part of it is saying goodbye to each other when it is time to part for a bit.  He is very considerate and kind and we share lots of common values.  It feels like we are building a very solid foundation to build a relationship on top of.  We have been together for four months now.  We are both starting to talk about a future together some day.  We’ll see how things unfold and develop.

Grateful for the time with my Match guy, grateful for the moisture, and grateful for an empty space day tomorrow.

I have had a productive morning after another night of little sleep.  Went into Emporia this morning and dropped off my taxes with my new accountant.  I liked him.  I knew his dad as his dad was a teacher at my high school.  I didn’t come home with a list of things he needs but he may call me and request something.  He didn’t give me a date when he thought he would have them ready and I forgot to ask.

I then went and got my haircut.  I am trying to let it grow out a bit so he didn’t cut much off.  My hairdresser gave me some styling tips.  We’ll see if I can make it look like the way he made it look.  I do like the softer look but am not used to having this much hair.

Stopped and got a couple of pair of SmartWool socks at the shoe store. I had managed to misplace a couple of socks and two older pair are so stretched out they don’t stay up and need to be thrown away.  It is nice to have my socks replenished with wearable, comfortable socks.

Met a friend for lunch.  Always good to catch up with her.  Saw a dear friend and his wife as we were leaving the restaurant.

Stopped and got some oats and black oil sunflower seeds for the chickens and two bags of dog food at Bluestem.  I will need to put the oats and sunflower seeds in smaller containers.

My last stop was to get a box of bacon from Fanestil’s.  Thursday they sell a ten-pound box of bacon for $25.  What a deal!  I had bought a 1 1/2 pound package at Walmart for $9.98.

Got home and got the bacon put in gallon zip lock bags and in the freezer.  Need to finish cleaning my living room and laundry room this afternoon.  My Match guy will be here around 7:30 tonight so still have time to finish cleaning the house before he gets here.  I put a chicken in the crock pot for dinner and will roast a pan of veggies to go with it.

Nice to have all my errands completed so I can enjoy the weekend.  I do need to check to make sure I have what I need to fix dinner tomorrow night.  I think I have everything I need but I am not sure.  I should have done that before I went to town this morning and I forgot.

It is close to 40 out today.  Feels almost like a spring day!  More rain and snow is headed my way Friday and Saturday.  I am so ready for spring I can hardly stand it.

Nice to have a productive day and cross some things off my to-do list.  This has been a  fairly busy week for me.  I don’t have many empty space type of days on my calendar for a bit.  I have really enjoyed doing taxes.  I wish I could find another similar volunteer job to do.  It does tie me down a bit but they have been very flexible with my schedule and have taken me off some days when I had a conflict.

Sitting with anticipation of my Match guy arriving this evening.  It will be good to see him.  We have a lot of fun when we are together.  We never run out of things to talk about although we can sit in silence at times too.

Grateful for a productive morning of errands run, grateful my Match guy will be here this evening, and grateful my bacon stash is restocked.  I do love bacon in the mornings with my farm fresh eggs.

 

 

Woke up at 5:00 this morning and couldn’t go back to sleep.  I finally got up at 6:00 as I had to be in Emporia by 8:30 and didn’t have time to try for more sleep.

I had my teeth cleaned by a first year student at the Vo-Tech today.  She did a great job.  It took a long time though as she had to have her work checked after every little bit and we had to wait for her teacher to get free each time.  She is the student that stayed with me last fall so we knew each other and had good conversation while we were waiting.  We took a lunch break from 11:00 until 12:30 and I was finally finished a little after 2:45.  Makes for a long day!

During my lunch break I went to the health food store and got some Vitamin D.  I will start taking it tonight.

After I got home from my dental appointment the friends I met on the Camino that live in CA called.  They read my blog and called to see how I was doing since losing Star yesterday.  We had the best visit via FaceTime.  She celebrated her 80th birthday this week.  All 12 of her children came home for the weekend without their spouses.  They called it a Womb Party.  How fun is that?

After I finished talking with them another friend called to check on me.  She offered to come help me bury Star.  I am so lucky to have such good friends!

I went back into Emporia for my tax shift at 5:00.   We had two cancellations tonight and I was done and home by 7:15.  I did four returns tonight and reviewed one return.  I got pissed when I did one return though.  The client had made $20,000 and she owed $1000 to the Feds.  She said the same thing happened last year.  I looked at her W2 again and they had only held out less than $500.  I advised her to go to HR and have them take an additional $110 per month out of her check every month so she wouldn’t have to pay next year.  She had no idea where she was going to come up with the money she owes.  She couldn’t afford health insurance so was hit with that penalty and didn’t quality for the poverty exemption.  I wish the politicians would understand when they play the games they do who gets hurt.

I have another busy day tomorrow.  I am meeting with my new accountant tomorrow morning and then meeting a friend for lunch.  My Match guy is coming tomorrow evening so will fix dinner for him.  I still haven’t finished cleaning my house so need to do that either tonight or tomorrow afternoon.

I didn’t sleep well again last night for the second night in a row.  I think I am tired but when I go to bed I can’t sleep and if I do manage to sleep I don’t sleep for very long before I wake up.  Maybe tonight will be the night that I crash and get some good sleep.

Got the Antibody thyroid test results back today and it was the same results as it was in December!  There is no trace of cancer markers left in my blood.  The doctor told me that flour and flour products act as an inflammatory in your body – especially in your liver.  Thyroid disease starts in the liver.  Evidently giving up flour was good for my liver as it calmed down much quicker than the doctor is used to seeing.  Trusting I will remember this and use it as my motivation to stay away from flour and products that contain flour.

I am excited that my Match guy is coming tomorrow evening.  It will be SO good to see him again.  We have both been busy the last couple of weeks and this is our first chance to see each other in three weeks.

Sitting in my peaceful valley today.  Today felt easy compared to yesterday.  I so appreciate all the love everyone is sharing with me at my loss of Star.  It does help!

Grateful for friends that call and check on me, grateful for the dentist program at Vo-Tech and for Anna for doing such a gentle job, and grateful for positive news from my Endocrinologist.  I kicked cancer’s ass!