My heart is heavy today. The divide in this country feels very big to me today. It still amazes me two people can hear the same story and come to such different understanding of what the truth is. Where is the empathy and the willingness to at least be curious about the opposite view point? A closed mind can only see their version of the truth – a pretty limited way to live life. Fear must be keeping us from looking too deeply – if this might be true then what about that which leads to our own belief system falling apart. I personally believe everyone should unpack their own belief system on a regular basis and see what one can unload. Way too many of us don’t even really know why we believe what we do other than we always have. Change is the only consistent thing there is! Embrace it!
We are in a great period of change. The way the system has been working doesn’t appear to be working any longer for many people. With change comes fear. With fear people dig deeper into their limited beliefs. Wish I had a crystal ball and knew what the rest of the story will be.
It feels so overwhelming and impossible at times. I have to keep reminding myself to anchor into love and take media breaks and shut out the chaos so I don’t become part of it. My truth is love will prevail. I do think the new structure will be very different then what we have now but I have trouble grasping what it might look like. There is blame and shame on both sides of the divide. Finger pointing and ignoring my part in it serves no one. I have to keep examining my own heart and find those places where I add to the chaos of the world. Not easy work but it is important work.
The days of top down, patriarch driven power are coming to an end. Not soon enough in my opinion. It is time for the matriarch power to rise and usher in the change that is coming. Each of us (male and female) have the power within to help create that change. But first we have to clear up our own shit and step into our own personal power that is rooted in love – not fear.
I try not to bring these kind of issues into my blog as I don’t feel very qualified to speak of the world issues. Needed to vent and release some pent-up frustration and energy today. Scroll on by my blog if you disagree. Not looking to debate or argue with anyone. Just expressing my personal feelings for today – knowing my understanding and beliefs may change and be different tomorrow.
OK, enough of my soap box. I will resume my regular life now!
Went into Emporia this morning to meet with my property manager. The inspections were done on the property I am attempting to buy. There are two major issues with the house and we needed to decide on how to proceed. Still may need to walk away from this deal if the seller doesn’t agree to work with me. I’ll see what happens. Grateful I have a property manager that I trust and looks out for my best interest.
I took a three-mile walk last night around sunset. The almost full moon came up while I was out on my walk. The temperature was perfect for taking a long walk and the insects were singing their good night songs. I could have walked longer as I never did get tired or winded. Next time I will go further and see what my limits are – haven’t reached them yet. That feels good! I haven’t been walking much lately and am a bit surprised I can go that far without feeling it. I want to get in good shape for Australia and New Zealand as I’m sure we will be walking lots there. Sure am in a better place now than I was when I went to Italy in May. That last 23 pounds I took off must have made a difference for me.
Have lots of empty space for the next four days. Anyone need help with anything? I’m available!
No news on the dating scene. Found a couple of guys I am interested in talking to but they haven’t responded. I probably need to send them a message but am not sure I am comfortable with that yet. This all still feels a bit weird to me. I keep hearing stories about how it worked for others so will hang in there and see what happens. Good things take time – right?
My lineman will be home this afternoon. I look forward to seeing him – I have missed having him around. I do not want to think about what it will be like when their project is over and he moves on. My other lineman may be transferred very soon – I will miss him too. Feels like sending my kids out in to the world all over again.
Cloudy day today. The sun must have needed a vacation again. It misted on me on the way home from town this morning. The forecast isn’t calling for rain though. I liked the bright blue skies of yesterday better. Hope the clouds disappear before it is time for the full moon to rise tonight. It is to be a big harvest moon and I would love to watch it come up.
Grateful for love and all the possibilities it brings to this world, grateful for my property manager and the way he looks after me, and grateful for my guests that have become family.