It has been a great day. I met with two dear friends this morning. It was an incredible experience to be heard, seen and validated. They were compassionate, kind, and generous with their offers of help, support, and love. It meant the world to me. Not sure how I could do life right now without my kids and friends.
I meet with my counselor tomorrow and will see what happens there. Today helped me find the words to share with the counselor tomorrow. Trusting that a path forward will open to me soon. Right now it feels like I have a huge mountain to climb. I guess if I can walk 500 miles I can climb this mountain – right?
This is becoming a test of my patience and a lesson in remembering to stay out of anticipation. One step at a time, one day at a time, things will be resolved and revealed.
I’m excited about my Hospice training that is going to happen on Wednesday. I had sent them my application to become a volunteer in July. I will be interested to know what happens after training and how quickly I will get assigned some clients to visit and support. I need a diversion right now and getting back to my Death Doula material may be what I need. I always feel better about myself when I am in service to others.
The prairie got some much needed rain today. Jim is working on repairing our deck railing so our rain gauge is down so not sure how much rain we got. There were some nice puddles to drive through this morning when I went to my friend’s house. We may get more rain later this week.
I took a nap yesterday afternoon and sleep was hard to find last night. I made myself stay awake this afternoon so I could sleep better tonight. We will see how that plan works out. Rainy days make me sleepy, especially when I only got about two hours of sleep last night.
Grateful for the love and support my friends showed me today, grateful for a new understanding of what I need to do, and grateful for the rain that fell on the prairie today.