Another hot late spring day. It is cooling down a bit this evening. I just took Sophia on a walk and was surprised that the breeze felt cool. I wonder how hot summer is going to be this year with it this hot in June.
Had trouble finding sleep again last night. Not sure I got more than four hours of sleep and most of that came after 5:00 this morning. The dogs woke me up this morning and I had to take them out to pee. I tried to go back to sleep after that but had no success.
The rug I have in the living room wasn’t laid out properly and it was driving me crazy. I decided to fit that this morning. It is a very heavy rug and not easy to maneuver. I got it done though. I moved the TV so I could see it better from my chair but I don’t like how it makes the room look now. Need to decide if I need to rearrange the living room or just live with it like it is. I’m not very good at arranging furniture.
I heard some noises outside this morning and looked out the window to see what was going on. The guys that are taking the old shop were out there preparing to take it away. Evidently they are attempting to take the thing whole and will repurpose it. They got it lifted some today but haven’t come back to finish up. They didn’t let me know they were coming today. Oh well, as long as it goes away all is good.
Went to exercise at 2:00. Felt like I got a better workout than I got last week but it wasn’t a hard one by any means. The 45 minutes went fairly quickly and it was over before I knew it. I like when that happens.
Stopped and got some lunch and then came home. I need to make a Walmart run but today wasn’t the day for me to do that.
Came home and took a two hour nap. I will take sleep whenever I can find it these days. I may not sleep tonight but I may not sleep even if I didn’t take a nap. Don’t feel rested by any means but it did knock the rough edge off.
I’m in a bit better place today than I was yesterday. Still not as regulated as I would like to be but have been able to get there today, even if I couldn’t hold it for very long. Grief takes you on an unpredictable journey and sometimes all I can do is fasten my seat belt and hang on for the ride. I am finding it isn’t something I have any control over at all.
Tomorrow I am meeting a friend for lunch. That will do my soul good. When my journey gets rough, I tend to isolate and sometimes that isn’t in my best and highest interest. However, when I am struggling I don’t like to let others to have to deal with me.
The rest of the week is quiet. My trainer was going to go on vacation and I was going to do exercises at home on Wednesday but she had to change her plans as one of her children needs surgery on Thursday. I was looking forward to having both Wednesday and Thursday as stay at home days but guess I will be going to town on Wednesday as normal.
I have less than two weeks before I go to Costa Rica. I need to get serious about making a list and making sure I have what I need to take with me. I ordered a swim suit on-line and it came in today. I haven’t opened the package yet and tried it on so need to do that to make sure it will work. I still have time to get another one if it doesn’t fit.
The timing of this trip is excellent. I need to change my scenery for a bit and get out of my normal routine. This trip will fit that bill nicely and provide me with some guidance too. I enjoy spending time with the leader of the retreat and am sure she will help me open internally and find some things that I am carrying that need to be put down.
Grateful for a cooler evening today, grateful I got the living room rug repositioned, and grateful for a better day today.