This has been a quiet day at home. I didn’t make it to Emporia today. I needed a stay at home day. I was feeling like I would drop below neutral if I did what I wanted to do today. What I needed to do today needs to be done when I am above neutral.
Tomorrow I am picking Ellexia up and then we are meeting Jason for lunch to celebrate his birthday. Ellexia is going to come home with me afterwards and then I will take her back to town when I go for my 5:30 thing. It will be fun to have Ellexia for the afternoon.
Jason turns 50 tomorrow. How does that happen? I remember when he turned 40 and it helped me realize I wasn’t 40 any more. Having a son that is 50 makes me feel old! Yikes!
I did manage to call and make an appointment to get the oil in my car changed. I take it in on Thursday.
I got Max’s probate form back in the mail today. I had put myself as the petitioner and didn’t list myself as an heir. I also didn’t give them the last four digits of Max’s bank account although they hadn’t asked for that. I redid the form and mailed it back. Trusting it will past muster this time. This explains why his case wasn’t showing up on the docket for the court.
I’ve had to take another break from the news. I even have to scroll by some sites I normally stay up on in my feed on Facebook. I can’t read about the gloom and doom and fear. Throwing insults back and forth from both sides of the division keeps us stuck in the energy that created this mess. Somehow we all have to figure a way to step out of this energy and into a different space.
I still need to call the guy that is in charge of the ICE detention unit in Chase County. I am thinking about how I want that conversation to go and haven’t thought of the correct approach yet. My intuition tells me to pause until I can find the right one.
This has felt like a head game day. I keep thinking about different scenarios for the future for both the country and myself. It has been one of those days that I have held and felt both sides of the spectrum. Balance can be hard for me to find when that happens.
All I can do is stay in my lane and continue to choose what feels like to me a path of love. Today I got stuck in the who, what, why and when. That doesn’t serve me or anyone else.
Grateful for a stay at home day, grateful for my intuition and my ability to listen to it guide me, and grateful love will win and I don’t have to know how, why or when.