Went to Emporia this morning and purchased 200 pounds of chicken feed and two bales of cottonseed hulls from Bluestem. I went to the service desk and ordered and paid for it and then drove around back and the guys loaded it in my car. Easy! Now if I could only bring one of them home with me to help me unload it.
Filled the car up with gas so I am ready to drive to KC and the airport on Wednesday. Stopped at an ATM and deposited a check and withdrew some cash for my trip. Went to Walmart and picked up a prescription and a few groceries and then came home.
Went out to paint on the deck. Kathy came out and helped . We got six sections of the upper deck railings painted. I think there are a total of 15 plus the four on the steps and four on the step landing. We got the project started. It was almost too hot painting as the sun was bearing down on us. No wind today though so took advantage of a rare spring day and got some done. I’ll try to get out in the morning and do another bunch of railings. The deck floor will go fast but the railings are tedious and take patience and time. The ladder work will need to get done sometime too and I dread that. Grateful the project has gotten started. I am using a different type of stain this time and hoping that it will last a lot longer than the type I used before. I like the color of it. I’m anxious to see it with the deck flooring painted. I use different colors for each.
Michelle let me know Tagen has a baseball game tomorrow afternoon at 4:00 so will go in to watch that. It is a double header but not sure I will stay for both games. Usually when he has a double header I take Ellexia out for dinner after the first game is over. It is to be 85 tomorrow afternoon so a perfect day to sit and watch a baseball game – hopefully in the shade.
My new glasses came in today – five days early. Great job Warby Parker. The prescription got changed and it is going to take me a bit to adjust to them. They don’t feel balanced between the left and right eye. I’ll see if I can adjust to them and will have to return to the store if not. My left eye is hard to get right as I have a vision distortion in that eye.
I called my cardiologist to make an appointment. I was on the phone for over 20 minutes. One operator transferred me to another operator who transferred me to another operator who transferred me to a nurse. I ended up having to leave a message. They called me back and tried to give me a June appointment time. I told them I could come to Topeka and they found a day in early May. Good thing it isn’t too urgent. I am getting concerned with my slow heart rate. Last night I got 14 notifications that my heart rate had dropped below 45 and stayed there for over 10 minutes each time. Most of the time it was 40 – 42. One time it was 38. I feel my heart skipping a beat occasionally, especially at night. I’ve been to him before and he didn’t do anything so not sure it will do any good to go see him again but the skipping heart beat thing is new and he told me to come back if something like that happened.
I share half of my driveway with a neighbor. He called today and wants to order some gravel for the driveway. I told him I would pay for my part of it and asked him to have them deliver some all the way up my part of the drive too. He is going to arrange it and let me know how much I owe him for my part of it. We have to do this every couple of years. The gravel seems to disappear and deep ruts show up. I’ll be grateful to have some fresh gravel added.
It felt good to move my body and paint today. I also walked down to get the mail. Whatever I was holding on to yesterday is gone today. I’m grateful for that. Sometimes my job is to allow whatever I am feeling to be present and not force it or deny my feelings. I prefer knowing what it is but I’m OK with it just leaving too. One of the best things I ever did for myself was to give myself permission to feel whatever I was feeling and not label them as “good” or “bad” and feel shame about them. The more I can sit with and honor what ever shows up, the quicker they pass through and I no longer get stuck in them. Sometimes I know what they are and can name and claim them, other times they just are and then they are gone without me knowing what they were.
Tomorrow will be busy as I want to paint some more in the morning, pack for my trip and then go to town to watch the baseball game. I’m so looking forward to getting away for a couple of days and spending time with my daughters. Trusting the flights will be on time and the trip will be full of fun, laughter and love.
Grateful the deck project has begun, grateful my new glasses have arrived, and grateful for Kathy’s help on the deck painting project.