It has been a productive morning. Have the last of five loads of laundry washing. Made up two beds with fresh sheets. Moved one of the twin beds out of a room and moved the recliner into that room. This way one of my long-term boarders will have more room in her room. She studies at night so thought the recliner would be more comfortable for her than laying on the bed. Set out the heaters in each room as it has been getting cool at night.
Baked two pumpkin pies for the Pioneer Bluffs Round-up tomorrow. Am going to also bake two pumpkin pie cakes this afternoon to take.
The house is empty except for me until Monday evening. It has been a while since I had the whole house to myself for more than a day or two. The house feels mighty big and empty to me today. I am remembering why I want to find a life partner. I enjoy empty space and an empty house but not sure I want to live like this the rest of my life. Feeling a touch lonely today for some reason. That doesn’t happen often. Thinking it is because of the guy I am texting with. I find myself projecting into the future with him. Not sure that is a wise thing for me to be doing. Way too early for that! When I catch myself doing so I come back to my breath and the present moment. Right here, right now is all I have and know is true.
Got the chicken coop cleaned out yesterday. The girls love to rearrange their fresh linens. Wish it made them lay more eggs. Only got four eggs yesterday. They are slacking on the job!
I went through my files and pulled the bills from 2017. I will box them up and take them down to the barn for storage. Sure doesn’t take long to do that task now – when we had the stores that task was an all day project. Almost time I can start getting rid of the 2012 records. That will only leave the 2013 records which is the year we sold the stores in April of that year. The shelves in the barn are starting to get emptied out. Feels good to get rid of that energy from the past.
May take a few minutes and update my tax records for this year. I do that quarterly and if I stay on top of it I can get that task done in 30 minutes or so. Sure makes tax prep at the end of the year easier. I do want to call my accountant and check in with my projected income numbers to make sure I don’t need to pay an estimated income tax payment this year. I think I am good but wouldn’t hurt to check. I hate paying penalties for stuff like that. It is hard to estimate the sales number for the Airbnb. I think I can come close for the year now though. Having to replace two roofs on the rentals will help at tax time too.
Not sure what I am going to do this afternoon. Haven’t finished all the cleaning I wanted to get done but have a good start on it. Hopefully the urge to get that finished up will hit me and I can cross that off my list. I love having a completely detailed clean house. Wish I didn’t procrastinate on getting it done.
Sitting with curiosity as to why I feel lonely today. Allowing it to be what it is. Knowing it has something to teach me. Softening my heart and allowing energy to flow freely in and out. Knowing all is well. I have been curious about the self-doubt thoughts that have been surfacing lately. Many are old tapes that seem to be playing again. So far I haven’t fallen for my old stories about myself. When one pops up I have been replacing it with a positive mantra. Being grounded and centered helps make that practice easier.
Grateful for a burst of productivity today, grateful for having learned some practices to keep myself out of the muck pond, and grateful for being able to allow my feelings to be what they are. They dissipate much quicker when I can do that.