This has been a weird day for me. I have felt out of step most of the day. Not sure why. Things just haven’t been easy for me today.
Worked on the hot line last night and took five calls. None of them felt easy or satisfying. Some nights are like that. Three of the callers were what we call people that circle. They just keep coming back to their problem and aren’t interested in any solutions. They play victim and stay there. Those types of calls are the most draining for me. They don’t feel like they accomplish anything for either of us and I’m never sure why the people call in. Maybe just venting gives them some sort of relief.
Worked on stuffing newsletters this morning and afternoon. I am over half way done stuffing. I still need to glue what I have stuffed. It is mindless work and goes fairly quickly. Jim helped me out and folded all the return envelopes that get stuffed with the newsletter. That speeds up the stuffing part for me.
Jim left late the afternoon for Stillwater. He won’t be back until next Wednesday evening. It is always hard to see him leave.
My new printer came in this afternoon. Had trouble getting the driver installed as the directions that came with the printer didn’t have the driver I needed. Jim worked on it for a bit too. After I walked away from it and cooled down I was able to get it installed on my computer. I need the passwords for Jim’s computer and then we will both be able to print from our computers. I still need to get it connected to my iPhone and iPad. Sometimes things like that go easy and sometimes not – today was a not so easy day.
Nothing on the calendar for the weekend. I will finish up the newsletter tomorrow and finish up the last 60 masks. After that I don’t know what I will do. Monday I have a haircut in the morning so will go to town for that and will probably stop and pick up a few groceries. Maybe what I need to get back into step is some empty space and quiet.
The moon was beautiful last night. I didn’t see it rise above the horizon but saw it shortly after it had risen. It is just behind the city lights of Emporia right now so it is hard to see coming up from the horizon. Maybe what I am feeling today is the effect of the full moon.
Have a big of an unsettled tummy this evening. I didn’t eat anything new so not sure what is up with that. I sure hope it is not a return of the C Diff. Staying positive and thinking it is just reacting to my feelings of being out of step today.
Jim got his desk moved into the study today. It looks nice in there. He had been using a card table so it is nice that he has more room now. We need to rearrange some book cases so the desk fits better but it will do for now. The study is getting filled up. I feel a bit claustrophobic in there at times as I like lots of open, empty space. Jim likes lots of stuff around him. It is more his room then mine so I will deal when I need to go in there.
It is interesting how different people have such different preferences. I guess we all like what we are used to. Jim has had more changes to deal with then I with him moving here so I am glad to give him one room that he can clutter all he wants. It makes him feel more at home.
Sitting with my unease and unsettledness this evening. I’m sure by tomorrow I will be in a better head space. Somedays are just hard and as hard as I look I sometimes can’t figure out why. Accepting what is and allowing it to be what it is helps make it pass quickly.
Grateful the new printer is installed and working, grateful tomorrow will be a better day, and grateful this unease will not last long.