Friday, May 31, 2024

Low energy type of day. Yesterday must have drained me. I actually slept last night but never have found my on button today.

I went to Emporia around 1:00. I stopped and got two bags of dog food at Bluestem. I ordered some food for next Friday night’s celebration of life party for Craig, and then I went to exercise.

I managed to get through exercise. I usually feel better when I am done than when I started. It sure was hard to drag my ass in to exercise today. Grateful I went and made it through.

Stopped and got a bite to eat and then came home. It is going to be hard to stay awake until bedtime tonight.

I was going to stop at Walmart and pick up some things but town was too busy today with all the gravel bike racers and support teams in town. Everything I needed can wait until Monday. I wasn’t in the mood to fight a crowd today.

No plans for the weekend except for getting the living room and dining room painted. Trust I will find some energy tomorrow and get that job done. The only hard part of the job will be moving everything out of the way to paint and then hanging the pictures back up. The rooms aren’t very big or tall so painting itself will be easy and will go fast.

Next week is a quiet week. So far both Tuesday and Thursday are empty space days. It feels like it has been a long time since that has happened. We shall see if they remain empty when they get here.

I read there is a chance we could see the Northern Lights again tonight and tomorrow night. Tonight there are too many clouds but I will check tomorrow night and see if I can see them again. What a sight they were a couple weeks ago.

Feeling a bit depressed for some reason today. Thinking all the emotions of the month have caught up to me and I am starting to release some of them. I have had three members of my family die this past month and it has been hard to process it all. I’m grateful I have a quiet weekend at home so I can allow this emotion to come up and flow out.

Hard to believe I have been in this different house for a month now. In some ways it feels like it was yesterday and other ways it feels like I have lived here for a year. Everything is settled and in its place. I will find little tweets to make for some time to come but otherwise it is the way it is going to be. So far, I have really enjoyed the change in my lifestyle. Life feels simpler and easier with less responsibilities.

The guy that is removing the old shop let me know he is still going to take it. He said he was working on the timing of getting it removed. I applied for a permit for the tear down but haven’t heard whether it was approved or not. Not sure how that process works. Guess it will get removed sooner or later, permit or not. It will be good to have the old shop gone and space cleared for the new house to be built.

Still haven’t heard from my builder. Last time I spoke with him was mid April and he said he would be in touch in a couple of weeks with the price estimates. Ummm…. Guess his calendar is different than mine.

I still haven’t heard from my accountant either. I have to pay estimated taxes and I think they are due June 1 but maybe they aren’t due until June 15. Hard to pay them when you don’t know how much to pay. She had said it would take her about a week to figure everything. That was three weeks ago. Ummmm….Guess her calendar is different than mine.

Same story with the guy that is clearing the tree line. He said he would be out within a week but that was two weeks ago. Guess his calendar is different than mine too. Sure wish people would do what they say they were going to do when they said they would do it.

Struggling to keep myself above the neutral level today. I need a couple of stay at home days to reground and regroup and refill. It is amazing how quickly I drain these days. Trusting I can refill this weekend and be able to hold my light for longer periods going forth.

Grateful the dog food is restocked, grateful I went to exercise today, and grateful for a quiet weekend ahead.