Happy birthday to my daddy. It seems appropriate that I ended one chapter in the book of my life on his birthday. I feel his presence with me often, especially when I need a new perspective on something that I am doing.
I took a sleeping tablet last night and finally slept hard. Unfortunately due to the sleeping tablet, I woke up with a hangover and it took me a long time to wake up this morning.
I set a bunch of stuff out on the curb in front of my house this morning. Most of it is gone this afternoon. Hoping the rest of it will go away soon. That seemed easier than boxing it up and taking it to the Salvation Army.
Kathy helped me clear the front porch. Kathy took a car load of empty boxes to the recycling trailer. Luckily it was empty and it was easy for her to put the boxes in it. She also carried load after load to the old garage that is on the property. The new shed is full and I haven’t had a chance to go out and sort it and put stuff in there properly. The old garage will suffice for a temporary holding area until I can better organize the shed. It is nice to have a cleared off front porch.
Kathy and I sat on the porch for a long time this morning. I think we both hit the wall today and needed lots of sitting time today. I have been teary and full of emotion today and was struggling to remember something long enough to do it.
I did get the remaining three boxes left in the house unpacked. That feels good! I do have some unpacked boxes on the back porch and in the shed but those are out of sight. All the rooms in the house, except the back porch are pretty much the way they are going to me. My bedroom still has lots of pictures on the floor that are waiting to be hung but otherwise, the house is in order.
But if you look behind the cabinet and closet doors that is a different matter! I will spend several days going back and reorganizing all of them. I needed to get everything out and in a cabinet so I know how much I have and then go back and reorganize it all. I will have to reduce the number of canned goods I have by a lot. The food panty shelves are way too full and I can’t find anything in there. Some food pantry will get a nice donation in the next couple of days.
I went to Emporia early afternoon to sign papers on the close of the house. Only had two minor glitches but it is done. I had paid the second half of the property taxes and they held those out so I will get a check as a refund in the next two weeks. They had also credited me for $30 for the quarterly trash payment but the trash guy wouldn’t transfer the bill so I paid the buyer the $30 in cash back. They are going to wire transfer the proceeds and I probably won’t get them until Monday and maybe Tuesday.
I dropped off a picture that I had broke the glass out while moving it at the frame store. They said they should have it done sometime next week.
I then went to exercise. I was very tired and teary when I went and my trainer could tell I was spent. She was so gentle with me and allowed me to vent for about 10 minutes before we started. She offered to let me out of exercise today but I told her I would try it and see what happened.
I was able to do all the exercises and it felt good to do so. It helped get me grounded and centered. I so appreciated my trainer and her sweet understanding and compassion with me today.
I met Jason for lunch afterwards. It was good to see him and have a conversation. I had invited Michelle and kids too but Tagen had to work, Ellexia was with her dad and Michelle was going to come but then remembered she had to do something else.
I stopped at Walmart afterwards to pick up some things for the house. I got to the home goods isle and had to go to the bathroom. I went quickly to the front of the store and found the bathrooms were taped shut. I had to sit down on a bench for a bit to prevent a disaster. I left the store and never did get what I wanted. I drove to Flying J and made it in and prevented an accident. Sometimes getting old sucks!
I will go to Walmart another day and get what I need. Nothing was absolutely urgent and all could wait for an easier day.
I came home and sat down in my chair and fell asleep in minutes. I took a two hour nap and woke up feeling better than I have for several days. I think the emotion of the week had caught up with me and I was ready to let go. Things have slowed down since my nap.
What a week this has been. I feel several pounds lighter on both an emotional and physical level. My belongings have been pared down to necessities and my house size cut down by 80%. I have let go and let go and let go of physical things and emotional ties. No wonder my tummy decided to let go today too!
I am pleased with how the house is coming together. I still have lots of reorganizing to do but that will be done a little at a time over the next weeks. I love the front porch and sitting on it. I do miss the wide open spaces but this feels like home to me already.
It will take me a hot minute or two to adjust my thinking. I have been obsessed these last three months with this move and most all of my to-do list was related to the move. All of a sudden I will have lots of free time with nothing urgent to fill it. Time to turn my time and attention inward and focus on rebuilding a new lifestyle for myself.
People have begun asking me for my new address. It is 421 Plum St., Cottonwood Falls, KS 66845.
Grateful for closing on the sale of my country house today, grateful for long afternoon naps, and grateful for my trainer’s care and compassion today.