Friday, May 25, 2018

This may be a long day.  I woke up again at 1:00 and only slept for one more hour.  My body thinks it is still in Paris!  May take a nap this afternoon.

Went into Emporia this morning to restock dog food and get fruit for my guest’s fruit bowl.  I wanted to get a replacement ink cartridge for my printer but Staple’s didn’t open until 9:00 and I decided not to wait 20 minutes for them to open.   I meant to buy kidney beans and bought beets instead.  I hate when I do that as now I will have to go back to town in a day or two to get kidney beans.  They are both red – right?

Have a situation I am sitting with trying to decide what to do.  Feels like a test to me to see if I have found my voice.  I will continue to sit with it and see if I can come up with a good solution.  Sometimes if I wait things work out just perfectly.  Other times I feel like I get taken advantage of.  Hard to find the line between using my voice and using patience sometimes.

We got more rain overnight.  I was glad I was awake as the south deck door hadn’t gotten closed tight and it blew open during the storm.  I almost turned the air off and opened the windows but that just makes the air conditioner run more when I turn it back on.

Grateful the floor drain cleaner guy is coming today.  Every time I use the dish washer or run water down the kitchen sink it backs up on to the floor in the furnace room and has to be sucked up with the wet vac.  The drain cleaner guy is to come this afternoon.

Need to figure out my Medicare supplement.  I have a friend that sells insurance.  I sent him an email to ask if he could help me.  My timing was good as his company is putting on two educational seminars in June to help others like me understand our options and choices.  If you want to go with me let me know.  My friend said he would meet with me later in June and finalize my choices.  Leave it to the government to make this process seem complicated!  Grateful I have friends that know this stuff and are willing to help a girl out.

I am getting information in the mail almost daily now from companies trying to “help” me get enrolled.  Not sure I trust any of them though.  They feel like snake oil salesmen to me.

Feel a bit on edge today.  Not sure if it is because I have jet lag and still recovering from my travels, the situation I am sitting with, or if I am just a cranky bitch.  May be a bit of all three!  Thinking I will go back to bed and see if a nap helps.  One of those days when I allow the little things to bug me.  I know on one level they aren’t really important but my head struggles to let go of the thoughts and is attempting to pull me down into the muck pond.  My mantra for the day is “Just let go”.

Have the house almost ready for the guests that are arriving tomorrow.  I will need to dust and touch up the floors in the morning.  I got the bedrooms and bathrooms done yesterday.

Just got a glimpse of the dogs who are on the deck.  I almost didn’t recognize them as they are so dirty and muddy.  It is a muck boot type of day on the prairie today.  Maybe that is why I slipped into the muck pond!

Going to bed and trying this day again!  It will get better!  It will get better!

Grateful for the rain we received on the prairie overnight, grateful for a free day so I have the time to go back to bed, and grateful for a friend that will help me out and unwind the Medicare supplement maze with me.