It has been a very quiet day at home. I haven’t done much and haven’t even gotten dressed.
Tomorrow Kathy, Michelle and I are going to the Royals game to watch Geoff throw out the first pitch. We are leaving around 10:30 and picking Michelle up at 11:00. Not sure what time the first pitch is but we were told to be there plenty early as sometimes it can be up to an hour before the game starts.
The forecast for tomorrow is hot and dry. It will be a good game for a ball game. Part of me wants to be at the rally in Topeka though. I am anticipating a very large crowd at this rally. Trusting it will remain peaceful.
Sunday I have to go to Emporia to get groceries for the week. I have three meals I am planning to fix plus having things they can fix for breakfast and lunch plus snacks. It will be fun to have extras around next week.
I sent a note to my GYN doctor to let her know I still haven’t heard from her surgeon. They gave me his name and said they tried to call to follow up but his office was closed today. Trusting I will hear something the first of the week. I am guessing appointments are a couple weeks out so may not have a surgery date for a month or so. Guess I will do what ever until then and deal with it when it gets closer.
Feeling very isolated today. I don’t have much to do at home right now yet leaving the house doesn’t feel inviting. After next week I need to get serious about finding a project to do. I feel better about myself when I have more of a purpose to do daily.
Having trouble wrapping my head around what is happening in the world right now. I had to tune it out as it was pulling me down a rabbit hole that felt like it had no bottom to catch me. Adding fear to the chaos energy of the world is not a good thing for me to do. I am able to maintain above neutral only if I don’t read the news.
Wonder who our hero’s will be as this continues to play out? Wonder how the history books will record this period of time 50 years from now? I know deep in my being that love will prevail and win. What will turn the tide? Has it already been turned? How do we bridge the gap between sides? What is my role in all of this?
Guess the world is sitting in that in-between times too. No wonder we are all so jumpy and anxious. The energy is strong and pulling us off center if we allow it to. We are all looking for solid ground and it is not to be found.
Building community and support systems is one thing we all can do. We all need reminded we are not alone during these times. Finding joy is another thing we can do. Joy helps lifts us out of the chaos and fear.
Grateful for stay-at-home days, grateful tomorrow is the ballgame, and grateful for a busy week coming up.