We got several more inches of snow last evening. The good news is the wind was not blowing and it softly fell on top of the other snow. Everything looked clean and bright this morning as the fresh snow covered up the muck from the previous snow.
It didn’t feel too cold today although it was in the lower 20’s. Without the wind the cold isn’t so bad. The fresh snow made it easier to walk the dogs without slipping and sliding on the ice that is below the snow. My little room heater has even been able to turn off for brief periods of time today. Most of the week it has run all day long. I didn’t even turn the oven on today to keep the kitchen warmer.
I texted my trainer and told her I wasn’t going to come to Emporia today for exercise. I decided it wasn’t worth driving to town on the fresh snow. I didn’t know how fast they could get the roads clear. The road grader people have got to be exhausted after the ice and two snow storms we have gotten.
I have gotten nothing done today. I took a nap in my chair this afternoon. It has been one of those days where I had no energy or motivation to do anything. I gave myself permission to allow myself to do nothing today. One of these days I will get things done – just not today.
Tomorrow I am going to Council Grove to help my friend out. Her husband has some things out of the house to take care of and I will walk her dogs and help her with some housekeeping chores. It will be a fun day out for me.
Sunday I plan on watching the Chiefs play in the afternoon. Monday I have exercise at 2:00, a birthday party at 3:30 and a tax meeting at 6:30. Tuesday someone is coming over in the morning to work on their end of life care plans and I am taking Sophia to the Vet at 1:30. I think the rest of the week is free.
Sometimes I wonder how time goes by so fast when I have days like this that I do nothing but sit in my chair. This week has been one big blur of nothingness except for my little excursion yesterday. It is hard to keep the days straight.
I’ve been reading about the fires in CA. They are making a big deal of the rich people that have lost their homes but I wonder about the hidden people that their jobs are to take care of the rich people – the gardeners, the cooks, the house cleaners, the personal assistants, etc. They don’t make the headlines and probably don’t have the funds to replace what they are losing so quickly.
Kathy noticed the refrigerator and freezer on the back porch weren’t running. The breaker had tripped. Freezers and refrigerators don’t work well in the freezing cold. May have to put my little space heater on the back porch tonight as that room isn’t heated.
I keep having a deep sense of anxiety bubble up. Not sure what it is trying to tell me. I am aware of it and spend some time welcoming it and allowing it to be what it is. It has been building for the last couple of weeks. I am doing my best to not drown it with my normal habits of distraction. Sooner or later I will figure out what it is alerting me to and if I need to do something about it.
Grateful for the beautiful snow that fell last evening, grateful for little to no wind last night and today, and grateful all is well even when it feels like it may not be.