A very non-productive day after a night of little sleep. I didn’t fall asleep until after 4:00 this morning. Woke up at 8:00 and couldn’t go back to sleep. Laid down for a nap around 11:30 and slept until 1:00. I was going to paint today but didn’t have the energy to do so.
We did go run errands this afternoon. We went to the Court House and Jim got his passport ordered. We also mailed our request for reservations to the Y Camp in Estes Park for the summer. We are hoping to get a cabin for four weeks in July this year. Hopefully all five kids can make it out at some point during the time we are there and can enjoy it with us. The Y Camp uses a seniority system to honor requests and Jim has been going since 1955 and is rather high on the list. He usually gets what he requests.
I finished knitting another baby blanket this afternoon. I gave the others I had knitted to Jim’s preacher. They distribute a gift basket to members that have a baby and will include a blanket in the basket. I’ll have to go through my yarn and get another project on my needles. Lord knows I have plenty of yarn to work up.
I dislike days like today when I have little energy or motivation to get anything done. My body is stiff from not moving it and I can’t make myself move it. All I want to do is take a hot bath and go to bed. I still need to fix dinner before I can go to bed though.
Tomorrow a brunch is being held in our honor. It will be a fun time. Not sure who all will be there but thinking it will probably be the people from Jim’s choir. I know many of them by now so will enjoy their company. I feel a bit uncomfortable being the center of attention though.
The piano concert last night was amazing. Jonathan Biss played five of Beethoven’s 32 Sonatas from memory. The passion he puts into his playing is incredible. He has long, thin fingers that danced on the keyboard. I kept checking to see if someone else was helping him play as at times I couldn’t believe only 10 fingers were creating the music.
I think I am a bit depressed from all the national news. It is harder for me to take a break from the news when I am in OK. Jim watches the news for several hours every evening. It overwhelms me and depresses me. I have to keep coming back to the only person I can change is myself. I am working harder on myself to find my faults and weaknesses and change them. I am working to not add to the decisive energy in the world right now. When I see something in someone else that triggers me I turn the mirror onto myself.
I also know there are more good people in the world than bad. We have lots of strong ethical people that work in our government and I have to believe that at some point things will turn for the better. I can’t let the negative energy bring me down or it wins.
Grateful for what sleep I did get last night, grateful Jim’s passport is ordered, and grateful for people that play the piano so beautifully.