It has been a beautiful day on the prairie. The temperature reached the mid 40’s and it was bright and sunny all day. The wind even slowed down and wasn’t a factor.
I went to Cottonwood Falls and had lunch with five friends. It was nice to have conversation for a bit. It had been a few days since I had talked to anyone. After lunch I dropped off the recycling. It was a good day to drop it off as the trailer was all but empty.
I haven’t done much this afternoon. I put the pot roast in the crock pot this morning so I had that for dinner. It was really good and tender.
I don’t have anything on my calendar for the weekend. I want to bake some cookies for next weekend and then freeze them. I need to check with the grandkids to see if they need any treats. I might check and see if the kids want to come out for a meal on Sunday. I need to interact more with people and they are good ones for me to do so with.
Lunch was interesting for me. It was hard for me in a way. I am getting so used to being by myself that I didn’t know what to say. It was good to listen to the others and hear the things they are doing. I don’t do much these days so didn’t have much to contribute. I think the group was a bit too big for me to feel comfortable. I do better these days with only one or two others.
The trauma I have been through lately has all sorts of hidden traps. Today I found a new one when I met with five other people. It set off a bit of anxiety in me that I didn’t know I had and hadn’t experienced before. I’m grateful I recognize the part that the trauma played in this. Recognizing what is behind my reaction is helpful in understanding it. Not sure how I change my reaction in the future but knowing that it might happen again might help me if it does.
I’m still binge watching Madam Secretary. I am close to the end of the second season. I think there are six seasons so still have lots of shows to watch. This show gives me a totally different perspective about the world issues our government deals with. I know it is not based on true events but they are close enough to give me a flavor of reality.
Kathy will be here in two weeks. I am grateful she is coming. It will be nice to have someone to talk to daily again. It will be another adjustment living with someone again but we have done it before so I know what to expect. I wrote down some preliminary menus to fix while Kathy’s daughter and her twins are here. It will be fun to cook for others for a few days.
I also am working on the grocery list for the reunion that I am hosting. I will have guests on two different nights so will need to provide a couple of meals. The plans are still a bit up in the air but I should know my mid week how many are coming and when. It will be fun to have a houseful for a night or two.
Grateful for a beautiful day on the prairie, grateful to have recognized a trauma based trigger, and grateful for the guests that are coming soon.